What a day!

Sometimes there are days, that feel like a milestone in my submission to my beloved Owner. Yesterday was one of them...

In the early afternoon, when i finally could be sure to be undisturbed, i started by listening to Blind Dominance. I had listened to this file already, but back then, i was in chastity and couldn't follow through with the instructions.
In this file, Domina Shelle describes a fantasy, where She sneaks into my life and at one point, She instructed me to stroke. But there was a twist... the hornier i got, the slower i had to stroke. Even though i had no intention to cum when i started listening, i was so turned on and frustrated by the end of the file, that i was eager to follow the final instructions. Domina instructed me to speed up stroking while Her voice faded away and the file ended. She said, that I'd be unable to stop until i came... i still didn't want to cum at that point, but i had no choice...
While i was still stroking after the file had ended, i started to think about another assignment for today. Domina had described a scene, where She sit's on Her bed and i kneel between Her legs. She wanted me to fantasize about what would happen next, write it down and send it to Her. I was in the perfect mood to do this and my fantasies were all about how She'd use this situation to tease and frustrate me. While i was denied in my fantasy, in reality, i had no choice, but to continue stroking until i came.

Later in the evening, i had a call with Domina Shelle. We were going to unwrap our packages from the shopping-spree we had done a while ago. I regretted a bit having cum earlier, because i wanted to be horny for Her, but hearing Her voice immediately fixed that. Within seconds, i was so horny again, that i could barely control my hands. Luckily, She didn't let me wait long and let me stroke. But when She asked me, whether i wanted to cum, i begged Her to deny me. And that's what She did... i'm not going to cum without Her explicit permission and this will not be before Christmas...
Domina was first to open Her packages. Hearing the joy in Her voice as She unpacked Her new shoes and panties brought a huge smile on my face and made me feel extremely happy!
Then it was my turn. I got three pairs of panties, one red, one turquoise and a pink one with attached garters. And i also got two pairs of stockings, black and brown.
I told my Owner, that i was going to wear the panties with the garters and stockings to bed and that i was planning to tie myself up while listening to some of Her sessions.
She liked the idea, knowing how horny this would make me and asked me, if i had already decided on a file. I hadn't and so i asked Her for a suggestion. She not only chose a session for me, but She sent me even four files! Two of them were completely new to me and one is a remastered version of a file i have. She is so generous!!!

After we finished our call, i began to prepare a set of medical restraints to tie myself up with. Initially i had planned to use a time-release, but Domina's playlist was 3 and a half hours long and i knew, that i wouldn't be able to lay on my back with little ability to shift position for that long. So i kept the magnetic key in reach and started listening.
The restraints must have helped me to go deep into trance, because i can't remember a thing of the first session, not even the induction. I only knew, that i woke up at some point and needed to move badly. I'm used to sleep on my side and couldn't stand lying on my back any more. So i released myself and continued listening. I was gone again immediately and woke up much later in the night, with the playlist still running on loop.
As Domina Shelle had predicted, i was super-horny, but only half awake and so, i fell back to sleep immediately after removing the headphones. The rest of my night was filled with very kinky dreams. I remember very little details, just that there was some toilet-slavery involved, but when i woke up, i felt a burning arousal. I love it, when Domina's plan comes together...

Blue balled

The Farm Assignment kept me pretty busy today. When i returned home from work, i quickly had some dinner and then started with listening to Mistress of Minds. It's a strong brainwashing file as well as a very erotic fantasy.
After being taken into trance, i found myself at a beautiful beach, still being taken deeper and deeper by the sound of the sea as the story unfolded. It continued with me finding and old lamp in the sand and when i rubbed the sand off it, the Mistress of the lamp appeared.
I'm not going to tell anything about what happened next, because this would spoil some of the surprise, but toward the end, i found myself lying on a bed, experiencing an intense rush of pleasure.
My whole body was trembling, almost on the edge of orgasm while i was repeating what Domina told me. She kept me there until i thought, i wouldn't be able to take it any second longer. Then She finally began to count and when She reached the number 3, i had a mind orgasm like never before. I hadn't touched at all during the session, but this orgasm was more intense then any full orgasm i have had before.
My perception of time was distorted at that point, but i think, that i lay there, twitching in pleasure, for at least 20 seconds. This experience felt like having multiple orgasms at once, just without ejaculating. When Domina Shelle started to wake me up, i didn't want to leave. I wanted to stay in that blissful post-orgasmic state and i couldn't follow Her pace of counting me up from sleep. I had to literally shake it off to be able to return to my normal live, or how She called it, the illusion of it.

Another task for today was to keep my cock hard for at least 60 minutes, in four sessions of 15 minutes, while thinking and fantasizing about things, Domina had prescribed. I wished, i had started with that before listening, this would have allowed for a longer break between sessions, but so, i had to do all of them with only short beaks in between. Domina had only allowed an edge at the end of the last session and so, i only stroked fast enough to keep my cock hard during the first 15 minutes.
During the next two sessions, i could not stand the slow stroking and i had to go faster, always being careful, not to get close to the edge. I took a little longer break before the last session and started slow again, carefully getting myself to the edge during the 15 minutes. Domina had allowed me to choose, what to do next. When i read this instruction, i had decided, not to cum, because my last orgasm was just a week ago and i'm just back to an aroused and submissive state. But while i was stroking, i felt that urge to just do that few fast strokes more and let the tension out, but i managed to resist.

Needless to say, that i was quite blue-balled after having that intense mind-orgasm and stroking for more than an hour, but that's what i love my Owner for. Without Her guidance, i would never be able to experience these prolonged heights of pleasure. She has helped me so much to develop my self-control. Thank You, Domina Shelle!

Farm Assignment

Domina Shelle has released a new Farm Assignment. I had been looking forward to it, since She had announced it. Like the previous times, there are several small assignments for each day, as well as one or more files to listen to.
One of today's files was part 8 of Shelle's School for men, one of the few chastity recordings that I didn't know already. I lay down in the evening and listened and after the induction had taken me down deeply, a bell rang and it was time to be taught by my sexy teacher.
I don't recall exactly, in which order things happened, but at one point, Domina told me to stroke while counting up to 10. With each number, i got closer to the edge, expecting to be allowed to cum on 10, but then, Domina told me to stop at the last moment. I had expected that a bit initially, but while counting, She made me get the impression, that She would let me cum before locking me in chastity. She did that a second time later and once again, She managed to light some hope to be allowed to cum while She was counting.

While Domina was talking about chastity and the effects it has on a slave, it felt, like She was reading my mind. I had experienced exactly what she described after She had allowed me to cum last week. Feeling less obedient, being lazy and craving to be denied more. It had taken me a few days until I was fully back to 'slave-mode' and listening to this recording came at the perfect time.
Of course, She didn't wake me up without locking me in mental chastity. Like several times before, I'll be unable to stroke my cock without permission for the next week, but there's one addition this time... whenever I will touch my cock, i will be counting up to 30 fast and then let go of it. So, whenever i will use the bathroom or shower, i will be reminded of my virtual chastity cage.

This has been an awesome start into my week on Domina Shelle's Farm and I'm looking forward for what's to come...!

Feet and nylons

Saturday, time for a new session! Domina Shelle had already teased me a bit about it, but She didn't tell much about the content. When i read the description of Addiction Therapy, the words feet and nylons instantly doubled my interest.
The induction was very familiar from previous sessions and so, it took me into trance very quickly. At one point, it felt like when you are tired and slowly drift off into sleep and then suddenly snap back into reality and then i was back again on the white leather couch of my sexy therapist. She placed such sexy images of Her nylon-covered feet into my mind, if i hadn't had a fetish for feet and nylons already, i would have one now.
Domina had instructed, that before listening, i should decide whether i would cum or only edge and this made me believe, that there would be stroking instructions during the session, but i either was so deep that i missed them,or there were none. However, Domina Shelles description of how She would press Her feet into my face and my crotch brought me close to the edge without touching and i would have had a powerful mind-orgasm if i hadn't decided to only edge... i did regret that a bit in this moment...
After waking up, the images of feet and nylons remained in my mind. I took a pair of Domina's worn pantyhose and rubbed them onto my face, smelling them and this brought my thoughts back to the session. Next time i listen, i will have them close by, i'm sure,this will make the experience even better...

Permission to cum

My assignment ended yesterday night and i had been looking forward to be allowed to ask for permission to stroke. I had become pretty desperate, but i still enjoyed how this felt. I told my Owner about my feelings and that i would abide by Her every decision and this morning, i had a reply for Her. She allowed me to cum while listening to Her voice!
I couldn't wait to get home in the evening and as soon as i did, i put on my headphones and listened to Misdirected again. The session had already been awesome when i listened without stroking, but this time, it was even better. Stroking and cumming seemed to boost the effect of the amnesia suggestions, too. I had a wonderful orgasm while the file ended, but everything before is even blurrier than it was when i listened before...
I didn't take very long until i started to miss being horny. I begged Domina Shelle to be locked up again and i can't wait to start a new journey into chastity...

Guinea Pig

For the last couple of days, i have followed my assignment as close as possible. Each afternoon, when I returned home, I undressed, cleaned my shoes and put on my sissy clothes. From that moment on, i felt being under Domina's total control. With each day, my arousal increased, but i still had enough distraction to be able to stand it.
With the weekend starting this morning, these distractions were missing and when I woke up, still wearing panties and stockings, i almost couldn't stand it any more. i wanted to touch so badly and would have appreciated any sensation on my cock. My hand wandered down to my panties, but i couldn't slip it inside. While i knew what i wanted, it was like i was unable to translate it into actions. It's a strange feeling when you want to do something, but every time you try, your thoughts are stopping before you can act...

A while ago, Domina had asked for volunteers to be Her guinea pig and since them, i had been looking forward to this. Today, She released Indoctrination which is such a guinea pig session. She didn't give the slightest clue of the contents, but not knowing, what would happen made it even more exciting. She wrote, that She went into trance herself while recording it, so i was already expecting a very powerful session when i lay back and listened.
The induction took me deep as always and soon my body was relaxed and heavy. Looking back, i had also lost sense of time. With 77 minutes, the session is very long, so i guess, that at least half an hour had passed, but it felt like only a few minutes.
After the induction, powerful binaural sounds started to play and knocked me completely out. In a playful voice, Domina Shelle told me, that she would now play with my mind, making me realize, that i was helpless and at Her mercy. I got excited and horny and opened my mind for Her.
I don't recall much of what She did afterwards, but i know, that She strengthened Her control over me and after waking up, i could feel, that my submission and need to please Her had increased once again. I started to think about how lucky i am to be allowed to serve such a beautiful and powerful woman like my Owner and i almost got overwhelmed with emotions. She is putting so much effort into training Her slaves and since i'm serving Her, i have improved so much, not only as a slave, but also in my vanilla live. I'm feeling so happy, i can't thank Her enough...

A new assignment

I woke up early and like I do every morning, I read the daily assignments and checked my emails. I was delighted to find a reply from my Owner. She was pleased with my report for the weekend-assignment, but She also told me, that She won't unlock me, yet. Instead, She gave me a new assignment for the next 7 days.
This one will keep me busier and even more focused than the last one. The biggest change is, that I'm not allowed to wear any male clothing at home, so I'll either have to be naked or in my sissy clothing.
Then, after these 7 days, I'll be allowed to beg and maybe Domina will let me cum...

Since it's close to Halloween, Domina also told me to give myself a puppy name and the first name is was thinking about was Paco. It turned out, that this was a good choice... Domina Shelle loves it since Her mom had a dog with the same name...
I think, She might be planning some kind of puppy-play for Halloween and there will also be a new Farm Assignment. I'm excited already, this will be a lot of fun for sure!

Total amnesia

My weekend-assignment ended on Sunday evening and I sent a report to my Owner this morning. I pondered a bit about asking for permission to stroke or edge, but since I had forgotten to do a few tasks of the assignment, I decided against. While I'm really desperate to stroke a bit, I also enjoy this feeling of being denied and I don't feel any desire to cum.

In the evening, I listened to Misdirected again. Even though I knew what was coming, most of the recording felt like I had never listened to it before. All the details seemed new and during the induction, I had the impression, that I wouldn't be able to wake up and stop what was happening, even if I had wanted to. I loved, how helpless this made me feel and realizing this helped me to fall even quicker.
After I woke up, it once again felt like there was a blockade in my mind, that prevented me to try and think about what had happened. It seemed like the memories were pushed farther away the more I tried to grasp them and soon, all the detail were gone.
I remember noticing something during the induction that I thought would be worth to write about and I actively tried to remember it, but now, I have no clue, what that was. It's feels awesome to be controlled like this and I love my Owner for this!

Misdirected

I had a surprise in my Inbox yesterday morning, an assignment from my Owner...
I was excited immediately, because in the past, Her assignments had always contained some stroking instructions, but She made it explicit, that I must not touch.
My tasks are not difficult or time-consuming, but they make sure, that I'll be thinking about Domina the whole weekend and after one day of doing the assignment, I can say, that not only does it keep my mind focused on Domina Shelle, it also allows me less distraction from chastity.

This afternoon, I listened to Domina's new session. Misdirected is different from the sessions I know. She used a confusion technique to take me into trance, saying things like 'don't focus on how relaxed you get'. Of course, trying not to focus did the opposite and without really noticing it, I was soon in a deep trance.
The next thing I remember is Domina erasing my memories about the session. It wasn't the first time, I have experienced amnesia suggestions, but I always had a rough idea of what She had done to me. This time is different... I don't even remember Her conditioning me in any way, but I'm sure She did... all i know is, that I'm thinking about ways to please my Owner even more now.
The session ended with stroking instructions, that I couldn't follow, but Her words brought me to the edge without touching.
It took a while to regain my senses after the session ended and I just lay there for a couple of minutes, suffering from my arousal and unable to think straight. Even if I can't remember much, I love how I felt afterwards and can't wait to listen again...

No release

Tuesday was a bank-holiday and I had used the free time to do my maid duties and clean thoroughly. Like every time, I took photos and send them to Domina Shelle for inspection. I was secretly hoping to get permission to stroke a bit as a reward for doing a good job.
When I checked my email on Wednesday morning, I had two from my Owner and I instantly got horny. But those emails were not related to my cleaning report... Domina Shelle informed me, that She hadn't received the package with the shoes and panties from our shopping-tour. I sorted out everything and took care, that She'll get replacements, but this means, that I'll have to wait even longer until we'll open our packages together. Every time I see mine, I feel like a kid before Christmas and want to open them!

This morning, I got Domina's reply to my cleaning report. She was pleased, but didn't mention anything about stroking. I wondered, if I should have begged, but came to the conclusion, that it would have been inappropriate after less than 2 weeks of chastity.
I'm really surprised, how much harder chastity is without a deadline! But I asked for it... it's funny, how I keep making the same 'mistake' and ask for things that stretch my limits a bit, although I never have regretted it really...

Power of Hypnotic Control

I'm back in chastity for only a week, but I can already say, that I totally underestimated the effect of not having a deadline. It's a total game-changer and the uncertainty adds to my arousal. My beloved Owner could release me tomorrow, next week, in a month, I have no clue at all. But I love the effect, I'm feeling completely owned and powerless and I'm eager to please Domina, more than ever before, hoping I might be allowed some stroking as a reward...

Yesterday, She released the new recording for this week. It's called Power of Hypnotic Control and like the name suggests, it's a proof of Her power. The induction is a little different to what I'm used to. Domina uses ASMR to induce trance and somehow, Her whispers made it very easy to concentrate on Her words. I sometimes have difficulties concentrating and my thoughts drift off, but Her whispers somehow made me listen more closely and focused.
In addition, She woke me up a few times during the induction. On the first time, I woke up fully, but quickly started to drift back again, as She continued to speak. The other times, the line between trance and being awake was blurry and despite having my eyes open and being able to move, I think I was still fully under Domina Shelle's control.
In the second part of the recording, Domina spoke with Her normal voice and She began to tease me. Once more, I couldn't follow the stroking instructions due to being in chastity and I also missed the opportunity to cum. Instead, it only served to make me hornier.

I have to more free days ahead now and I really need to find some distraction or I'll go insane...