Mind orgasm

Time for an update...
My Owner released Her newest file Pussy Obsession on Saturday and as always, I listened as soon as I could. Like the title says, it's all about being obsessed about Her pussy. The smell, the scent, I experienced everything vividly during this trance. I had to skip the stroking instructions again, because I'm still in my chastity month, but as before, Domina's words caused a strong mind-orgasm, this time, I was even closer to spurting, than before.

There's something very special about having a mind-orgasm. It feels like the very moment when I get over the edge, just before I start to spurt, but it's somehow in slow-motion and I can savor every moment. I'm not falling into that emptiness like after a regular orgasm, but my arousal stays and as long as my Owner tells me to keep cumming, I can ride that wave.

Speaking of my chastity month... I only have one more week to go and I'm surprised, how easy it still is. There are those moments, where I would love to stroke, usually when I lay in bed at night and my fantasy is running wild, but my mind has accepted, that I can't have that and I love that feeling more every day.
That's probably the reason, why I made a new commitment without thinking about it... After our last spanking-session, Lady Helena said, She'd like to do that again, when I'm allowed to stroke and so, I have asked to stay in chastity until our next session. I want to be in a very horny and compliant state for that occasion and a part of me secretly hopes, that Lady Helena will keep me in suspense a bit.

Domina Shelle also released the monthly training-session for Her contracted slaves today. It's difficult to write about it, because I remember only fractions, like how She snapped Her fingers and how soothing the whole session was and every time I try to think more about it, it's like my thoughts come to a halt. ... ... ... I just sat here, staring at the text for a few minutes and trying to write more about the training session, but it's impossible. My mind went emptier the more I tried to remember things, so I'll end this entry here...

A message from my Owner

I wasn't in the mood to get up at all, when the alarm went off this morning. I hit the snooze button and was about to turn around and sleep a few more minutes, but somehow, I had the urge to check my emails. I didn't expect any new emails and so, I was even more excited then usually, when I found one from my Owner. I contained no text, only a link to an mp3 file.
My first thought was, that I didn't have time to listen to a session in the morning and that I would have to spent the whole day with the anticipation, but then, my curiosity won and I decided to download it at least and see, how long it is. I think, my subconscious mind had already decided to listen, but when I saw, that the file was only a few minutes long, I also consciously decided to listen to it.
"Hi My maid marta, I wanted to send you something special... something that will make you feel so good..."
OMG! My Owner had recorded a voice message for me! Hearing Her soothing voice and the background tracks made me horny immediately and all tiredness was gone.

I can't imagine a better start into the day. I don't know if Domina Shelle had put some subliminal messages into the file or if it's just the fact, that I haven't stroked for almost 3 weeks, but my arousal didn't fade for the entire day. Even at work, it was there in the back of my mind and whenever I took a short break and tried to relax my brain a bit, my thoughts drifted back to Her and my cock grew hard.
I stayed in this state for the entire day and while I love this feeling, it has also been the 'hardest' day of my chastity month so far...

Getting spanked

I had a wonderful session with Lady Helena tonight! I had set up my spanking-machine so, that She could control it from a webpage and She used it, while She read a sexy story to me. Every time, the slave in the story got spanked, She triggered my machine, too. I had set the machine to the highest level, something I never dared to do, when I used the machine myself, but there where pauses between most of the strokes and I could take them, although they stung...

After the story ended, Lady Helena asked, if I wanted more strokes and asking for more was what I did. This time, She administered series of fast strokes and I was soon moaning from the mixture of pleasure and pain. She left some lovely marks, that I make me think of Her, whenever I sit down during the next couple of days.
We both enjoyed our session and a lot have already talked about doing that again soon... I can't wait!

Blind Dominance

The last two days have been surprisingly easy. Although I didn't have much distraction, my arousal stayed on a normal level and I was managing to stay chaste without much struggle.

Things changed this afternoon...  Domina Shelle had released Her newest session Blind Dominance and I couldn't wait long to listen. It starts as a nice fantasy of how She sneaks into my live and ends as extension of the cock control, She took in Dangerous Pleasures. I still couldn't follow Her stroking instructions, but I could imagine, how it would feel and Her moaning brought my arousal back to the fullest extent.


After waking up, I was still extremely horny. My cock was throbbing and I was desperate to touch, but I still love this feeling when I'm giving up for Her what I crave so much!

Horny

Today was my 11th day of my chastity month and like the last time, it marked the point from which things started to get a little more difficult. I was horny from the moment I woke up and I couldn't help but take a dildo with me into the shower and fuck it while I was washing myself. I leaked a lot of precum, but it didn't help much with my arousal.
I tried to keep myself busy, but every sexy image, every though of my Domina, let my cock grow.
In the evening, Lady Helena ordered me to clean my bathroom with a toothbrush, like Domina Shelle had done it a while ago. For the fraction of a second I thought, how boring this task is, but the the pleasure of obedience took over and caused an erection once again.
I had already cleaned my flat yesterday, but it's not an option to question a command from my Superiors. So I focused even more on the details this time and left out the big surfaces that were already clean. After 90 minutes, I couldn't think of any spot that I might have missed. I had even moved the cabinet under the sink away to clean there. I was satisfied with my work...

While I was cleaning, I had listened to a random playlist of loop-files and many of them were about chastity. This helped me with my desperation. I'm still horny, but the desire to stroke isn't that strong anymore. Maybe it's also the fact, that I'm a bit exhausted from cleaning...

Master Triggers

As a part of my current assignment, I listened to Master Triggers, which is a training and reinforcement of all the triggers that Domina Shelle has implanted deep into my mind. It a bit difficult to write about it, because i went down so deeply, that i don't remember much. But i do remember, that Domina played with the 'horny' and 'limp' triggers a lot during the file. Making me aroused and my cock hard only to let me go limp again seconds later.
I was surprised, when the file ended. It felt like only half an hour had passed, but this file is almost one hour long! While I was laying there and coming back to reality very slowly, the effects of Her teasing, combined with my current state of denial kicked in. Never before have i been so desperate to stroke! I had planned to sleep after listening, but it was impossible to calm my thoughts, there was only my arousal that was enveloping my mind. Domina said, that i would be going nuts, but this was much earlier and stronger than expected!

Dangerous Pleasure

Domina's newest session is called Dangerous Pleasures. She released it already yesterday, but I had guests, so I had to wait with listening until today. As always, Her induction worked perfectly and I was soon drifting into a mindless sleep.
From the moment I realized, that this session is about chastity, I got horny, my cock stiffened and it stayed this way throughout the recording. Domina Shelle implanted a powerful new suggestion in my mind. From now on, I will fall into a hypnotic sleep every time I get close to the edge. This will make me unable to finish and I will stay in this trance state until my arousal fades. I will be totally unable to cum without my Owner's explicit instructions!
Unfortunately, I couldn't test the suggestion due to my chastity month, but I'm sure, that it will work perfectly, since this is something, I have fantasized about before!

Instead, I stayed in a super-horny state for the rest of the day. I'm only a week into this chastity month and this recording is already making it very hard. I know now, why Domina said, that I would be going nuts...

Mind orgasm

I couldn't fall asleep at night and while I was lying in bed, turning left and right, I started to day-dream about kinky things. Then, suddenly, out of a compulsion, I got up and got a pair of wrist-cuffs and tied my hands together. I locked everything with padlocks, put the keys in my k-safe and set the timer for early this morning.
To my surprise, i fell asleep quickly and slept well. I think, I'll do that more often and slowly add more bondage to get used to sleep bound...

As part of my assignment, I listened to Focal Point in the afternoon. Normally, it would require stroking and it ends with cumming, but since I'm in my chastity-month, Domina had instructed me to focus on my anus instead. So I started to listen with a lubed up dildo in reach and when She told me to stroke, I fucked myself accordingly. By the end of the file, I couldn't take the fucking any more. I had to relax my ass and my hand had become tired, too. So when Domina told me to cum, I was just lying on my side and listening to Her voice. Nonetheless, I had a strong mind-orgasm, the strongest I ever experienced! It lasted long and felt very close to a real one, the rush, the contractions, just the spurting was missing. I think, with a bit more training, I'll be able to achieve that, too!

Hard working maid

I had a new email from my Domina this morning. She wrote, that by the end of my 30 days without touching, I'll be going nuts... The first days have been easy, especially because I have been quite busy and didn't have much time for erotic thoughts. But Her words make me wonder, if She has something planned to tease me even more than usual.

I spent most of the day in maid-mode with cleaning, cooking and tidying up. Like yesterday, I didn't think much about it, I was just starting to do whatever needed to be done. In the late afternoon, I was satisfied with my worked and was going to relax a bit, but as I checked my emails, I found a new email from my Owner. I immediately got excited and aroused. This always happens, when I see a new email or tweet from Her. She had sent me an assignment for the next 12 days, that will keep me even busier than I already am. The assignments contains instructions to listen to sessions and do my mantra like I already know from other assignments, but one instruction was new. From 9 am to 5 pm each day, I'll have to exercise a bit. This will also make sure, that I don't stay in bed for too long during my vacation and I'll be thinking about my Owner the whole day!

I'm pretty exhausted and will go to bed early, tomorrow will be a busy day again...

Excellence

I had a very fun dream last night! Domina Shelle let me help Her to train a slave-girl as Her maid. Since I was responsible for the training, Domina spanked both of us for Her mistakes. The slave-girl seemed to like getting me in trouble and kept making mistakes on purpose. I loved this dream, but like so often, it ended way too soon.

After I got up, I checked my emails like every morning. I had a message from my Owner, a perfect start into the day! I had sent Her a cleaning robot for Her birthday and She told me, that She named it maid martie. I love that! It's like I have a maid-twin now and I know, that She will always be thinking about me, when it's cleaning at Her feet!

As slave yoko had predicted, I was even busier today after listening to the brain-chip upgrade 'Excellence' last night. I found myself starting to clean and tidy up things without even noticing and later in the afternoon I took a box with old screws and started to sort them by size. It's quite a boring task and I always avoided doing that. It's more than an increase of motivation, I'm doing such things automatically now and don't think about it.

I started the evening with listening to Vampiress, a highly erotic recording! Domina, or better the Vampiress, lured me into Her chamber and used me for Her pleasure. There were stroking instructions, but since I'm in chastity, I couldn't follow. Domina had instructed me to fuck my ass instead when a session contains stroking instructions, but I was not prepared for that. Instead, I had an irresistible urge to do that after She woke me up, so that is, what I did. I leaked a lot of precum and I think I might be able to cum from that during this month.
I also think about starting with the hands-free series again. Last time, I was stuck with the fourth session, which requires a wet dream to proceed and I think, I might have more success by the end of this month...

Start of a chastity month

Today was the start of two weeks of vacation. I had expected to be a bit lazy and spread my due chores over the days, but something was very different today. I needed to please my Owner by being a hard-working maid and so, I spent most of the day outside with gardening, oiling the furniture and tidying up. Each time I sat down for a break, one thought crossed my mind: "What can I do next?". And so, I was back at work way sooner than I had planned.
Slave yoko said, this might be an effect of the new brain-chip implant called 'Excellence', but I haven't listened to that yet. I'll listen to it before going to bed tonight and judging from what he said, I'll probably be even busier tomorrow.

I got an email from my Owner in the afternoon. She accepted my chastity offering, so for the next 30 days, my only pleasure will be from anal stimulation. I'm allowed to listen to all the sissy-files, but when I'm told to stroke, I'll have to fuck my sissy-ass instead.
I have managed to stay chaste for over half an year before, but I was allowed to stroke and edge. The longest I ever went without touching has been two weeks and I only got a glimpse of how it must feel to be really desperate. I'm looking forward to this experience, I think it will be intense, but I want to know how real desperation feels...

Domina's birthday

Saturday was my Owner's birthday, the most important day of the year! I had sent Her present early and She already received it last week, but I asked Her, not to open it until Her birthday. I'm so excited to hear, how She likes it!
She also gave some presents to Her slaves. The first one was a little assignment... I was allowed to edge, but afterwards, I had to slap my cock with a ruler 10 times. The edge was easy to achieve and I tried not to hold back when I slapped my cock. It stung and it was a kind of pain, that I didn't enjoy, but doing this for my Domina made me very happy. I had to do this procedure four times and each time, the pain took longer to subside and edging got more difficult. In the end, I was relived that it was over, but I was also very happy, that Domina had once again pushed myself a little farther than I would have been able to do myself.
The other present, She made, were two new brainchip upgrades. I haven't listened to them yet, but I took the opportunity of Her recent 2-for-1 offer to get some files, that had woken my interest. The first one is called 777. It came without a description and being surprised by Her commands is something I always love. For the free file, I chose Vampiress, a fantasy session that sounds very erotic.

This afternoon, I finally found time to listen to 777. As there is no description and I don't want to spoil anything, I can only say, that this is not a session for beginners and not to be taken lightly. It was an emotional roller-coaster ride, but I think, it's also an important lesson.
Afterwards, I felt, that I had to do something, some kind of commitment to cleanse my mind. I wrote an email to Domina Shelle, expressing my feelings and together with a little tribute, I committed to a whole month without touching. I have asked Her for some deep-throat and anal training instead, skills that a good sissy should have...
After sending the email, I went to my bedroom and put on a posture-collar and nipple-clamps. I spread rice in front of Her picture and knelt on it while I chanted my mantra. The discomfort helped me a little to get back to a normal state of emotions, but it took until the late afternoon to be fully recovered...

Orgasmic Obedience

I have listened to Lady Helena's latest file, Orgasmic Obedience a couple of times now. In this file, She implanted a trigger that makes me cum on Her command.
When I listened the first time, I didn't expect Her to use it already during the session and I also didn't intend to cum. She had me stroking during the session and I was careful not to get too close, but when She used the trigger, a warm shiver went through my body and I simply came. I could do nothing about it, all I could do was to stop stroking and ruin my orgasm (I still hadn't brought my ruined-orgasm count to zero).
The other times were not much different. Sometimes I was expecting the trigger, at other times, my mind had drifted away and She surprised me with it, but each time, it worked perfectly, even if I was not very close to the edge. Now I wonder, how good it will work when I'm not stroking at all and She surprises me by using it in an email. I only hope, this won't happen while I'm at work ;)
She told me to listen 21 times and with that, my count will be at zero in no time. But I'm not sure if it would be right to deduct those orgasms, I will have to ask my Owner about that...