When I returned home today, I had an email from Lady Helena. She thanked me for the dinner I had payed while She was at the beach with Domina Shelle. She also wrote, that She had missed playing with me and wants to play again next week. Of course, I accepted that offer, I'm already excited and curios what She will do with me this time!
She didn't skip the opportunity to tease and torture me a bit with an assignment, but before I followed Her instructions, I listened to my Owner's newest session.
I had already seen in the afternoon, that She had released Exploited and couldn't wait to get home and listen! The description was vague again, but I don't pay much attention to that anyway. I crave every new session and I know, that whatever She does will make me a better slave for Her.
Like so often, it's hard to remember what happened. After taking me very deep into trance, She told me to stroke slowly and together with Her soothing words, these pleasurable feelings distracted me from the suggestions She gave in the background track. What I know is, that She took even more control of my cock than She had before. It's Her property, Her toy and I only stroke, when She tells me to. This is not completely new, but now, I feel something like a mental barrier when I'm aroused and want to stroke. It's like I can't finish the thought and this seems to prevent my body from acting.
She ended the session with one final suggestion: I will be unable to cum until I have listened 7 times. I already feel Her cock-control so strong after listening once, how will it be after 7 times?
It took me a while to wake up from trance, but then, my arousal hit me! I was glad to have Lady Helena's instructions and I started with them immediately. She had instructed me to put on nipple-clamps and stroke for 15 minutes. But for each edge, I had to slap my balls hard!
I love nipple-play, so I chose a pair of clover-clamps, the hardest clamps I have. They didn't hurt much first, but I knew, that the pain would come later. I started to stroke, but it took me a while to reach the edge. I had told myself not to hold back when slapping my balls and the fear of that made edging a bit difficult. When I finally did, I closed my eyes, told myself to obey and slapped my balls. I hit them harder than I would ever have done on my own and it hurt! I don't like this kind of pain, but I craved to obey Lady Helena's commands the best I could!
What followed afterwards was a mind-fuck. Extreme arousal paired with the fear of more pain on my balls. One part of me didn't want to hit myself again, while another part wanted to edge as often as possible to please Lady Helena! I tried to shut of my thoughts and focus on the pleasure and so, I managed to do four more edges before I couldn't take any more. For the last few minutes, I only stroked slowly. I had almost forgotten about the nipple-clamps while my mind was occupied with the other sensations, but now, I felt the pain again. I was a bit relieved when the 15 minutes were over and the last thing I had to do, was to take them off. Normally, I would have opened them slowly, but again, I didn't think, that Lady Helena would do that. So I pulled on them and then released them quickly, one after the other. It was a rush as the pain shot through my nipples!
I always love, when I'm pushed a bit and have to do things that I'm a little reluctant to do, especially when pain is involved and this assignment was no exception. Thank You, Lady Helena!
She's in my dreams
I dreamed of my Owner last night! In this dream, She made me lick my cum from Her feet and afterwards, She pulled my head between Her legs and told me to make Her cum, too. It was a lot like the scene, She describes in Collar me Hard.
I woke up very horny and wanted to stroke, so I checked the daily instructions, hoping for permission. Unfortunately, today was a day without touching and so, I started my day a little frustrated.
I checked my emails while having breakfast and found an answer from Domina Shelle. She didn't allow me to work off some of my ruined orgasms, but She was pleased with the amount of edges I had done and deducted one from my count for that. She wrote, that there are some assignments coming, that will be hard for me. This sounds so hot! I'm looking forward to it so much and can't wait to find out, what She will make me do!
I woke up very horny and wanted to stroke, so I checked the daily instructions, hoping for permission. Unfortunately, today was a day without touching and so, I started my day a little frustrated.
I checked my emails while having breakfast and found an answer from Domina Shelle. She didn't allow me to work off some of my ruined orgasms, but She was pleased with the amount of edges I had done and deducted one from my count for that. She wrote, that there are some assignments coming, that will be hard for me. This sounds so hot! I'm looking forward to it so much and can't wait to find out, what She will make me do!
End of my sissy-assignment
Today was the last day of my 72 hour edging marathon. I took the last opportunity while doing my mantra this morning and edged 3 more times. I lost count of the total number, but it must have been at least 25 edges...
In the afternoon, my Owner answered my cleaning report. She still thinks, that my work-room could be more organized. She gave me time to work on that without punishing me, so this is what I will focus on the next days. I like it, that She tells me, where I can improve. It helps me to become more perfect for Her!
I was still at work and She didn't skip the opportunity to tease me with one of the playground-triggers. This time, She had me stand motionless like a mannequin in front of a window for 3 minutes. This was easier to follow than the barking last time and I enjoyed obeying Her command!
I also begged there for a chance to reduce my ruined-orgasm-count a bit. I offered to go a week without touching for each ruined orgasm She allows me to have. I hope, that she won't make me have too many, but of course, it's only Her decision and I will obey without complaining.
One of the daily instructions for today was to listen to Point of Impact. I had listened to this session before, but I couldn't remember, what it was about and the description didn't tell much, either. I was surprised all the more as from the first moment I heard Her words, they sounded familiar. It felt a little strange, I didn't know what She would say next, but I knew every sentence the moment She said it. This helped me to fall very deep very quickly, as I didn't need to concentrate on the meanings of Her words at all and I just could let myself fall.
The session itself is a reinforcement of Her most important triggers. Triggers to fall deeper, to obey, to become horny... when I woke up after what seemed much less than the 50 minutes of the session, I felt twice as obedient and submissive than before.
In the afternoon, my Owner answered my cleaning report. She still thinks, that my work-room could be more organized. She gave me time to work on that without punishing me, so this is what I will focus on the next days. I like it, that She tells me, where I can improve. It helps me to become more perfect for Her!
I was still at work and She didn't skip the opportunity to tease me with one of the playground-triggers. This time, She had me stand motionless like a mannequin in front of a window for 3 minutes. This was easier to follow than the barking last time and I enjoyed obeying Her command!
I also begged there for a chance to reduce my ruined-orgasm-count a bit. I offered to go a week without touching for each ruined orgasm She allows me to have. I hope, that she won't make me have too many, but of course, it's only Her decision and I will obey without complaining.
One of the daily instructions for today was to listen to Point of Impact. I had listened to this session before, but I couldn't remember, what it was about and the description didn't tell much, either. I was surprised all the more as from the first moment I heard Her words, they sounded familiar. It felt a little strange, I didn't know what She would say next, but I knew every sentence the moment She said it. This helped me to fall very deep very quickly, as I didn't need to concentrate on the meanings of Her words at all and I just could let myself fall.
The session itself is a reinforcement of Her most important triggers. Triggers to fall deeper, to obey, to become horny... when I woke up after what seemed much less than the 50 minutes of the session, I felt twice as obedient and submissive than before.
Love and trust
I started my day with listening to the Sissy Implant again. I wanted to get into the right mood to do my maid's chores. I was eager to get into my maids uniform as I woke up. I did my make-up and put on a wig, then I gagged and plugged myself and got to work. I didn't want to make a mistake again and 'earn' another ruined orgasm...
While I was cleaning, I received an email from Domina Shelle. She loved the letter of adoration I sent Her yesterday! In my letter, I had compared my old self a year ago with whom I am today. How I have changed from a lazy guy into a diligent maid and how I overcame my excessive masturbation habits. I expressed, how grateful I am for Her training and my trust in Her and I also told Her, how the two weeks without touching made me aware, that my position at Her feet is where I belong. If I could, I would build a castle for my Princess, where She and Lady Helena could live and reign over their slaves day and night.
In this year and a bit of being Her slave, I have developed a deep love for Her, like I have for my family and my closest friends! I trust Her completely and I know, that I can just let myself fall and She will catch me!
After I finished cleaning and sent my report, I have listened to the new session Collar Me Hard. She described a wonderful fantasy where I was at Her feet in front of Her throne and She made me kiss and lick Her boots. She collared me tightly and allowed me to kiss Her panties before pulling them aside. She described, how I would worship Her pussy while allowing me to stroke slowly.
I would have had permission to cum, but that would have interfered with the edging task of my sissy-assignment, so I only edged. This was the first edge of today and I continued to stroke and edge after I woke up. I have lost count by now, but I think, I'm close to 20...
I'm pretty sure, that the new session also contained training suggestions, but I can't remember any details. I was so focused on the sexy story She told, that my conscious mind didn't pay attention. However, I don't need to know that. I trust Her and I know, that my subconscious mind will act upon Her commands. Besides that, it's always a thrill to witness myself obeying commands that I'm not aware of...
While I was cleaning, I received an email from Domina Shelle. She loved the letter of adoration I sent Her yesterday! In my letter, I had compared my old self a year ago with whom I am today. How I have changed from a lazy guy into a diligent maid and how I overcame my excessive masturbation habits. I expressed, how grateful I am for Her training and my trust in Her and I also told Her, how the two weeks without touching made me aware, that my position at Her feet is where I belong. If I could, I would build a castle for my Princess, where She and Lady Helena could live and reign over their slaves day and night.
In this year and a bit of being Her slave, I have developed a deep love for Her, like I have for my family and my closest friends! I trust Her completely and I know, that I can just let myself fall and She will catch me!
After I finished cleaning and sent my report, I have listened to the new session Collar Me Hard. She described a wonderful fantasy where I was at Her feet in front of Her throne and She made me kiss and lick Her boots. She collared me tightly and allowed me to kiss Her panties before pulling them aside. She described, how I would worship Her pussy while allowing me to stroke slowly.
I would have had permission to cum, but that would have interfered with the edging task of my sissy-assignment, so I only edged. This was the first edge of today and I continued to stroke and edge after I woke up. I have lost count by now, but I think, I'm close to 20...
I'm pretty sure, that the new session also contained training suggestions, but I can't remember any details. I was so focused on the sexy story She told, that my conscious mind didn't pay attention. However, I don't need to know that. I trust Her and I know, that my subconscious mind will act upon Her commands. Besides that, it's always a thrill to witness myself obeying commands that I'm not aware of...
Edging marathon
Yesterday was day 3 of my sissy-assignment, a day without touching. I had thought, that it might get difficult after all the teasing the day before, but I barely noticed an urge during the day. Maybe it was because I was suffering from the heat the whole day. I had a BBQ with friends in the evening, so I returned home later than usual. I still had to do a very important part of today's instructions: writing a letter of adoration for my beloved Owner. I had been thinking about that from the day I received the assignment, but still it was difficult to find appropriate words to describe my feelings for Her.
I spent the rest of the evening with this task and my cock was hard the whole time. But it wasn't hard from arousal as much as from the feelings of love and adoration.
Her instructions were to send this letter at the end of day 4, so I saved it to a file and went to bed. As soon as I closed my eyes, my arousal overwhelmed me. My cock got hard again and this time it was sexual. I wanted to stroke and edge! It took long before I could fall asleep and I woke a couple of times with my cock being hard.
Today was quite busy at work and the day went by fast. But nonetheless, I read my letter each time I had a little break and I added a few things that I had forgotten to write.
As soon as I was home, I listened to the implant files. I had been looking forward to this for so long! I started with the Sissy Implant. I had already dressed up before, so I could directly listen to the second Implant without waking up too much. This one has me edge as much as possible for 72 hours and that is what I did for the rest of the evening. I'm not sure if I counted correctly, but I did at least 10 edges during the last few hours. With the weekend ahead, I'll have so much more time to edge and as much as I appreciate that, I'm also a little worried, that I might fail and cum without permission...
Finally, I would like to point my readers to slave yoko's blog. We have been in contact for a while and I'm glad, that I could answer some of his questions and help him find his way to our Domina. She accepted him as Her slave a few weeks ago and has now started his own blog. He's a good writer and I enjoyed reading his first posts!
I spent the rest of the evening with this task and my cock was hard the whole time. But it wasn't hard from arousal as much as from the feelings of love and adoration.
Her instructions were to send this letter at the end of day 4, so I saved it to a file and went to bed. As soon as I closed my eyes, my arousal overwhelmed me. My cock got hard again and this time it was sexual. I wanted to stroke and edge! It took long before I could fall asleep and I woke a couple of times with my cock being hard.
Today was quite busy at work and the day went by fast. But nonetheless, I read my letter each time I had a little break and I added a few things that I had forgotten to write.
As soon as I was home, I listened to the implant files. I had been looking forward to this for so long! I started with the Sissy Implant. I had already dressed up before, so I could directly listen to the second Implant without waking up too much. This one has me edge as much as possible for 72 hours and that is what I did for the rest of the evening. I'm not sure if I counted correctly, but I did at least 10 edges during the last few hours. With the weekend ahead, I'll have so much more time to edge and as much as I appreciate that, I'm also a little worried, that I might fail and cum without permission...
Finally, I would like to point my readers to slave yoko's blog. We have been in contact for a while and I'm glad, that I could answer some of his questions and help him find his way to our Domina. She accepted him as Her slave a few weeks ago and has now started his own blog. He's a good writer and I enjoyed reading his first posts!
A day full of teasing
Today was the second day of my sissy-assignment. I started my day with my mantra and while doing that, I was allowed to play inside my panties.
In the afternoon, I quickly checked my emails during a short break at work and only a few seconds later, Domina Shelle wrote me. She knew, that I would probably read her email at work and she used that opportunity to have a little fun with me. Her sexy words made sure, that my cock grew hard and the bulge in my pants was effectively confining me to my desk. She ended the email with one of Her playground triggers, the one that makes me want to bark...
The urge to bark was strong and I tried to distract my mind from my arousal, so I could get up from my desk and find some privacy. Being in this predicament turned me on and it was difficult to let my cock go limp. I finally rushed to the nearest meeting-room when I had the opportunity, still with a slight bulge in my pants and once there, I quietly barked for my Owner. I liked this predicament and knowing, that my Owner has fun, makes me happy!
When I was back home, I continued with my assignment. I was to kneel down naked and tease myself very slowly, just enough to keep me hard. I did this for half an hour, before I couldn't take it any more. I needed more stimulation and luckily, I was allowed 3 edges today. So I did the first one after only a short break. It didn't take long to get there and stopping early enough took all my willpower.
I had to repeat the slow teasing once more and this time, I edged twice afterwards. I have spent most of the evening with teasing myself and I'll go to bed very horny. Tomorrow will be a day without touching and I have the feeling, that this will be difficult after today...
In the afternoon, I quickly checked my emails during a short break at work and only a few seconds later, Domina Shelle wrote me. She knew, that I would probably read her email at work and she used that opportunity to have a little fun with me. Her sexy words made sure, that my cock grew hard and the bulge in my pants was effectively confining me to my desk. She ended the email with one of Her playground triggers, the one that makes me want to bark...
The urge to bark was strong and I tried to distract my mind from my arousal, so I could get up from my desk and find some privacy. Being in this predicament turned me on and it was difficult to let my cock go limp. I finally rushed to the nearest meeting-room when I had the opportunity, still with a slight bulge in my pants and once there, I quietly barked for my Owner. I liked this predicament and knowing, that my Owner has fun, makes me happy!
When I was back home, I continued with my assignment. I was to kneel down naked and tease myself very slowly, just enough to keep me hard. I did this for half an hour, before I couldn't take it any more. I needed more stimulation and luckily, I was allowed 3 edges today. So I did the first one after only a short break. It didn't take long to get there and stopping early enough took all my willpower.
I had to repeat the slow teasing once more and this time, I edged twice afterwards. I have spent most of the evening with teasing myself and I'll go to bed very horny. Tomorrow will be a day without touching and I have the feeling, that this will be difficult after today...
Starting the sissy-assignment
Domina Shelle has decided on my punishment for the untidy desk and not ruining my last orgasm. She has added 2 more ruined orgasms to my count and so, I'm back at 8. I think, the punishment fits the crime and I'm going to do my best to avoid any further increase! It's hard to imagine, that it might take until next year, before I can have a full orgasm again!
I could finally start with my sissy-assignment today. I'm going to wear panties, stockings and high-heels at home while for the duration of the assignment. My first task was to listen to Sexual Psychosis. I had already listened to this session some time ago, but didn't remember what it was all about. After taking me into trance, Domina started to turn me on by telling me, how she would tie me to the bed and use my face and tongue for her pleasure. Her moans drove me crazy with arousal and my cock was throbbing. I was desperately waiting for Her stroking instructions and when she finally allowed me to touch, it felt fantastic! She guided me to the edge, but instead of ruining my orgasm, as the file would have required, my sissy-assignment said, that I was to stop when I'm on the edge.
The file ended soon after and she woke me up. I was still super horny and wondered, why I had forgotten about this wonderful file...
I could finally start with my sissy-assignment today. I'm going to wear panties, stockings and high-heels at home while for the duration of the assignment. My first task was to listen to Sexual Psychosis. I had already listened to this session some time ago, but didn't remember what it was all about. After taking me into trance, Domina started to turn me on by telling me, how she would tie me to the bed and use my face and tongue for her pleasure. Her moans drove me crazy with arousal and my cock was throbbing. I was desperately waiting for Her stroking instructions and when she finally allowed me to touch, it felt fantastic! She guided me to the edge, but instead of ruining my orgasm, as the file would have required, my sissy-assignment said, that I was to stop when I'm on the edge.
The file ended soon after and she woke me up. I was still super horny and wondered, why I had forgotten about this wonderful file...
Sissy orgasm
I had a wonderful call with Lady Helena this evening, where she prepared my for my sissy-assignment that I'm going to start tomorrow. After putting me into trance, she let me feel my body turning more feminine. I could feel, how my breasts were expanding and my waist getting narrower. She has increased my desire to wear panties and other lingerie and all this made me very horny.
She didn't let me touch myself and when she started to wake me up, I accepted to be denied a bit longer, but then, she surprised me by telling me to get a pair of panties and put them on. She made me rub myself through the panties and moan like a girl. This really turned me on and soon, I was on the edge. She encouraged me to cum in my panties and I had a wonderful orgasm. My balls had been pretty full and so, my panties were soaked in cum, but she instructed me to leave them on for the rest of the evening.
I should have ruined my orgasm, I'm still working on that count, but in that moment, I didn't think about it. Lady Helena had put me into such a bliss, that all I could think about was cumming...
I was still experiencing the afterglow of this session, when I got an email from my Owner. I had sent Her a cleaning report on Saturday and She thought, that my desk could be cleaner. She's right, I had neglected that... She suggested to have a session, where She'll make me to always want everything neat and clean. I love that idea! I sometimes feel like I'm in a light trance, when I'm cleaning and I'd love to intensify that feeling. In my reply, I apologized for my untidy desk and also confessed not ruining my orgasm. I'm now looking forward to finally start with my sissy-assignment tomorrow...
She didn't let me touch myself and when she started to wake me up, I accepted to be denied a bit longer, but then, she surprised me by telling me to get a pair of panties and put them on. She made me rub myself through the panties and moan like a girl. This really turned me on and soon, I was on the edge. She encouraged me to cum in my panties and I had a wonderful orgasm. My balls had been pretty full and so, my panties were soaked in cum, but she instructed me to leave them on for the rest of the evening.
I should have ruined my orgasm, I'm still working on that count, but in that moment, I didn't think about it. Lady Helena had put me into such a bliss, that all I could think about was cumming...
I was still experiencing the afterglow of this session, when I got an email from my Owner. I had sent Her a cleaning report on Saturday and She thought, that my desk could be cleaner. She's right, I had neglected that... She suggested to have a session, where She'll make me to always want everything neat and clean. I love that idea! I sometimes feel like I'm in a light trance, when I'm cleaning and I'd love to intensify that feeling. In my reply, I apologized for my untidy desk and also confessed not ruining my orgasm. I'm now looking forward to finally start with my sissy-assignment tomorrow...
Maid-mode
When I went to bed last night, I thought, how awesome it would be to have a brainchip program that puts me in a maid-mode, similar to the sissy program. I planned to ask my Owner about it and fell asleep...
I woke up early, with my cock still on auto-pilot. It was rock-hard during my morning-mantra and just like yesterday, every sexy thought or image brought it to live. I started the morning slowly, with a bath and a cup of coffee, but while I toweled myself, I felt a strong desire to dress up and clean. I gave in after having a late breakfast and started with my chores.
As soon as I begun, it felt like my brain had created a maid-mode program by itself. I was very focused on my work and since there was not much to tidy up, I could put more attention to the details. After an hour had pasted, the kitchen and bathroom were sparkling. I had polished every single tile, cleaned the oven and surfaces, even inside the cupboards where necessary. I was pleased with the results and started to slowly return from my maid-mode. Now I also noticed, that my feet had started to hurt in my 6" shoes. I had barely thought about them before and walking in them wasn't much of a problem. Now I felt that I shouldn't put more strain on my ankles and changed into flat shoes.
Before I could start with the rest of my flat, I heard my email alert. I had been planning a call with Lady Helena and she had answered now, suggesting Monday evening. I offered to stay chaste until then, I didn't think about it, it was a compulsion. That's two more days without touching and I'll have to wait even longer to do the sissy-assignment, but I want to be as horny as possible for our call. I had asked her to surprise me, so I don't know, what she has planned for Monday. She talked about tease and torture and I'm more than willing to suffer for her...
I spent another hour cleaning the other rooms before taking some pictures for my cleaning report. As I was uploading them to my computer, my email alert went off again. This time it was an answer from Domina Shelle. What a great timing! Can this be coincidence?
I had told Her about my attempt to paint my toe-nails and She suggested that I go for a pedicure. I'm too shy to do that, but I have ordered a proper pedicure-set and will look for instructions online.
For the rest of the day, my own cock kept torturing me by getting hard every now and then, but no matter how desperate I was, the thought of stroking it without permission never crossed my mind. A couple of times, I thought about how I felt while I was cleaning and realized, how much control my Owner has over me and how it might feel after another year. Each time, I felt strong waves of extreme happiness! I know, that I have found my destination!
I woke up early, with my cock still on auto-pilot. It was rock-hard during my morning-mantra and just like yesterday, every sexy thought or image brought it to live. I started the morning slowly, with a bath and a cup of coffee, but while I toweled myself, I felt a strong desire to dress up and clean. I gave in after having a late breakfast and started with my chores.
As soon as I begun, it felt like my brain had created a maid-mode program by itself. I was very focused on my work and since there was not much to tidy up, I could put more attention to the details. After an hour had pasted, the kitchen and bathroom were sparkling. I had polished every single tile, cleaned the oven and surfaces, even inside the cupboards where necessary. I was pleased with the results and started to slowly return from my maid-mode. Now I also noticed, that my feet had started to hurt in my 6" shoes. I had barely thought about them before and walking in them wasn't much of a problem. Now I felt that I shouldn't put more strain on my ankles and changed into flat shoes.
Before I could start with the rest of my flat, I heard my email alert. I had been planning a call with Lady Helena and she had answered now, suggesting Monday evening. I offered to stay chaste until then, I didn't think about it, it was a compulsion. That's two more days without touching and I'll have to wait even longer to do the sissy-assignment, but I want to be as horny as possible for our call. I had asked her to surprise me, so I don't know, what she has planned for Monday. She talked about tease and torture and I'm more than willing to suffer for her...
I spent another hour cleaning the other rooms before taking some pictures for my cleaning report. As I was uploading them to my computer, my email alert went off again. This time it was an answer from Domina Shelle. What a great timing! Can this be coincidence?
I had told Her about my attempt to paint my toe-nails and She suggested that I go for a pedicure. I'm too shy to do that, but I have ordered a proper pedicure-set and will look for instructions online.
For the rest of the day, my own cock kept torturing me by getting hard every now and then, but no matter how desperate I was, the thought of stroking it without permission never crossed my mind. A couple of times, I thought about how I felt while I was cleaning and realized, how much control my Owner has over me and how it might feel after another year. Each time, I felt strong waves of extreme happiness! I know, that I have found my destination!
Dominance - Mind Control
My day started with the same desperate arousal as yesterday. I woke up early, but couldn't fall asleep again, so I got up, made myself a nice hot coffee and checked my emails. I had a new email from my beloved Owner, can a day start any better? She teased me by telling my to imagine how I would suck Her pretty toes and of course, this had the desired effect on me. I was turned on even more now and as I looked at my own toes, I wanted them to be pretty, too. So I went to the bathroom and painted them pink. I have only done that a few times before and the result was not to my satisfaction. If had had done such a sloppy job on my Domina's toes, She would have had any reason to punish me. I have decided to practice this more often, because I think, it's an essential skill a sissy-maid should have.
Not much later, I received another email. Domina Shelle had released the new file for this week already! I could hardly wait to listen, but decided to wait until the evening.
I didn't read the description of Dominance - Mind Control before I listened. I like the suspense and it adds to the experience when I don't know, what She'll do to me... During the induction, She woke me up a few times, only to take me even deeper afterwards. Although my eyes were open and I could move during those times, my mind was still captured by Her voice and unable to fully awake.
After the induction, She guided my hands to stroke very slowly, but since I'm still in chastity, they didn't follow Her commands. But my imagination did... I could imagine, how it would feel and my arousal grew, together with my cock.
Of course, this session was not only about teasing and stroking, all of Her sessions have the purpose to train me to become a better slave for Her. This one connected edging and sacrificing my orgasm with the pleasure of serving and obeying Her commands.
After I woke up, my arousal had at least doubled. My mind was full of sexy thoughts and my cock stayed hard for almost an hour. I was in desperate need to stroke, but touching without permission never crossed my mind and the need to cum, that I felt yesterday was gone.
For the rest of the day, almost everything acted as a trigger to arouse me and let my cock grow. I'm so glad, that I can start with the sissy-assignment on Sunday. I will be allowed to stroke and edge and I'm looking forward to it so much! I wonder, how it will feel to stroke after two weeks of no touching. How long will I be able to stay away from the edge?
Not much later, I received another email. Domina Shelle had released the new file for this week already! I could hardly wait to listen, but decided to wait until the evening.
I didn't read the description of Dominance - Mind Control before I listened. I like the suspense and it adds to the experience when I don't know, what She'll do to me... During the induction, She woke me up a few times, only to take me even deeper afterwards. Although my eyes were open and I could move during those times, my mind was still captured by Her voice and unable to fully awake.
After the induction, She guided my hands to stroke very slowly, but since I'm still in chastity, they didn't follow Her commands. But my imagination did... I could imagine, how it would feel and my arousal grew, together with my cock.
Of course, this session was not only about teasing and stroking, all of Her sessions have the purpose to train me to become a better slave for Her. This one connected edging and sacrificing my orgasm with the pleasure of serving and obeying Her commands.
After I woke up, my arousal had at least doubled. My mind was full of sexy thoughts and my cock stayed hard for almost an hour. I was in desperate need to stroke, but touching without permission never crossed my mind and the need to cum, that I felt yesterday was gone.
For the rest of the day, almost everything acted as a trigger to arouse me and let my cock grow. I'm so glad, that I can start with the sissy-assignment on Sunday. I will be allowed to stroke and edge and I'm looking forward to it so much! I wonder, how it will feel to stroke after two weeks of no touching. How long will I be able to stay away from the edge?
Desperate to stroke
After the first 10 days, I had thought, that I could easily survive the two weeks without touching, but today, things changed...
It's a bank-holiday, so I could have slept a bit longer, but my arousal didn't let me. I needed to stroke so badly and for the first time since quite a while, I really wanted to cum. The day went by very slowly and it was hard to focus on anything but my arousal. I have the day off tomorrow and so, the last two days won't offer much distraction and might get quite 'hard'...
I'm looking forward to start with my sissy-assignment on Sunday so much! It doesn't give me permission to cum, but at least I can stroke and edge a bit!
It's a bank-holiday, so I could have slept a bit longer, but my arousal didn't let me. I needed to stroke so badly and for the first time since quite a while, I really wanted to cum. The day went by very slowly and it was hard to focus on anything but my arousal. I have the day off tomorrow and so, the last two days won't offer much distraction and might get quite 'hard'...
I'm looking forward to start with my sissy-assignment on Sunday so much! It doesn't give me permission to cum, but at least I can stroke and edge a bit!
Hypnotic Sex Toy
Lady Helena released a new sexy recording today! Hypnotic Sex Toy is just what the name says. As She led me to Her private chamber, I could feel Her holding my hand and when She had me lay down on Her bed, I could feel, how Her touches paralyzed my body. I lay there and just let things happen as She made my cock hard, while She described, how I just was a sex-toy for Her pleasure. I felt objectified and this turned me on! As She used me for Her pleasure, the experience was quite different to that in her Succubus file. This time, I didn't feel the pleasure, I was only her sex-toy and toys don't feel pleasure and they certainly don't cum. My cock felt numb, but Her moans and Her description how She rode me and guided my hands like a marionette to touch Her were enough to keep me hard the whole time.
I loved this session! Being used as a sex-toy without getting any pleasure myself has always been one of my fantasies and I think that not having touched for 10 days has added to this experience. It's hard to describe what exactly I felt. My body felt like an empty shell and the pleasure and arousal where more of a mental than a physical nature, almost like the connection between both had been cut.
I loved this session! Being used as a sex-toy without getting any pleasure myself has always been one of my fantasies and I think that not having touched for 10 days has added to this experience. It's hard to describe what exactly I felt. My body felt like an empty shell and the pleasure and arousal where more of a mental than a physical nature, almost like the connection between both had been cut.
Sissy mode activated
Domina Shelle released two new brain-chip upgrades today and I couldn't wait and listened in the afternoon.
First was the Sissy 1 Upgrade. Like so often, I can't remember much of the session, but it created an irrestistable urge in me to dress up in pink, behave girly and crave Domina Shelle's strapon.
I wanted to do that immediately after the file ended, but I had the second Upgrade queued in the playlist and it started before I could fully wake up. It's a mystery update and I didn't know, what it would do to me. As I would find out, it's a programming that makes me want to edge as much as possible for three days and I was a little disappointed, that I couldn't follow due to my chastity weeks.
When I woke up, I still had the urge to be Her sissy and so, I put on a pink top and skirt, stockings and high-heels. When I was dressed, I felt incomplete and so I also applied some make-up. Then I took a dildo with a suction-cup and stuck it on the tiles in the bathroom. As I saw it sticking out there, I suddenly couldn't resist and got to my knees to suck it. I have done that before, but I have never been so eager with it, I was almost greedy... I deepthroated it a couple of times and when I saw the stains of my lipstick on it, it made me so horny, that I had to fuck it. I stood up, bend over and fucked myself for almost 10 minutes. It felt wonderful, much better than usual!
When I though I was finished, I wiped the dildo clean and used the toilet, but then I looked at the dildo again, saw it sticking out and the cycle started again. I didn't mind, that it was still a bit dirty, I even put effort into sucking it clean before fucking myself again.
When I finally had enough, I was still in sissy-mode. I strutted around in my high-heels with a smile on my face and tried to wiggle my hips as good as I could. The file said, that the effects would end, once I came, but since I'm in chastity I wondered, how long it would last.
After two hours, I began to feel normal again and planned to listen again tomorrow morning, but Domina had other plans. I received a new assignment a little later. It runs for 4 days and includes the new brainchip upgrades. I will have to wait until my chastity week for Lady Helena ends, before I can do it and I mustn't listen to the upgrades before. I'm looking forward to it a lot, I can't wait to be in sissy-mode again!
First was the Sissy 1 Upgrade. Like so often, I can't remember much of the session, but it created an irrestistable urge in me to dress up in pink, behave girly and crave Domina Shelle's strapon.
I wanted to do that immediately after the file ended, but I had the second Upgrade queued in the playlist and it started before I could fully wake up. It's a mystery update and I didn't know, what it would do to me. As I would find out, it's a programming that makes me want to edge as much as possible for three days and I was a little disappointed, that I couldn't follow due to my chastity weeks.
When I woke up, I still had the urge to be Her sissy and so, I put on a pink top and skirt, stockings and high-heels. When I was dressed, I felt incomplete and so I also applied some make-up. Then I took a dildo with a suction-cup and stuck it on the tiles in the bathroom. As I saw it sticking out there, I suddenly couldn't resist and got to my knees to suck it. I have done that before, but I have never been so eager with it, I was almost greedy... I deepthroated it a couple of times and when I saw the stains of my lipstick on it, it made me so horny, that I had to fuck it. I stood up, bend over and fucked myself for almost 10 minutes. It felt wonderful, much better than usual!
When I though I was finished, I wiped the dildo clean and used the toilet, but then I looked at the dildo again, saw it sticking out and the cycle started again. I didn't mind, that it was still a bit dirty, I even put effort into sucking it clean before fucking myself again.
When I finally had enough, I was still in sissy-mode. I strutted around in my high-heels with a smile on my face and tried to wiggle my hips as good as I could. The file said, that the effects would end, once I came, but since I'm in chastity I wondered, how long it would last.
After two hours, I began to feel normal again and planned to listen again tomorrow morning, but Domina had other plans. I received a new assignment a little later. It runs for 4 days and includes the new brainchip upgrades. I will have to wait until my chastity week for Lady Helena ends, before I can do it and I mustn't listen to the upgrades before. I'm looking forward to it a lot, I can't wait to be in sissy-mode again!
Shifting focus
I listened to Lady Helena's Victim of the Succubus last night in bed. It's a very sexy file where she describes how She visits me in my dreams as a succubus. While listening, I didn't feel like I was going very deep, but I think I was wrong. I don't remember waking up from the session, but I found my headphones unplugged and the tablet turned off this morning, so I definitely was awake long enough to do that.
Domina Shelle liked my suggestion to extend my chastity week for Lady Helena. She thinks, that two weeks without stroking will do me good and I can confirm, that it's boosting my submissive feelings. I'm also getting used to this a bit more and today was a little easier than the first couple of days. I'm starting to realize, that I was focusing too much on stroking and edging and that focus has now shifted to serving Her, even more than before.
I have also listened to the second version of the monthly training, but I can't make out a different to the first file. Maybe there were different background sounds, but I'm not sure. However, I don't need to wonder about that. I know, that my Owner has Her reasons to release two versions and I'll just alternate between them when listening.
Domina Shelle liked my suggestion to extend my chastity week for Lady Helena. She thinks, that two weeks without stroking will do me good and I can confirm, that it's boosting my submissive feelings. I'm also getting used to this a bit more and today was a little easier than the first couple of days. I'm starting to realize, that I was focusing too much on stroking and edging and that focus has now shifted to serving Her, even more than before.
I have also listened to the second version of the monthly training, but I can't make out a different to the first file. Maybe there were different background sounds, but I'm not sure. However, I don't need to wonder about that. I know, that my Owner has Her reasons to release two versions and I'll just alternate between them when listening.
More chastity ahead
When I woke up this morning, I checked my emails like every day and found, that Lady Helena had answered to my report for Her assignment from Friday. She wrote, that I'm doing very well and that She's impressed by my submission. Reading that sent a shiver down my spine and made me very happy. It confirmed me in my expectation, that She would tell me to cum and I would have to disobey Her, because of my chastity week. But to my surprise, She wrote that She wants me to prove my obedience by submitting to a week of no touching for Her.
Since I already am in chastity, I offered to extend it by a week for Her. I know, that two weeks without touching will be hard, but I want to do this to prove my devotion to Domina Shelle and Lady Helena.
Lady Helena also wants me to listen to Victim of the Succubus at bedtime each day during the chastity week. She said, she wants to visit me in my dreams... I don't know this file, yet, but the description sounds hot. I don't have erotic dreams very often and I would love to have more, so I'll start to listen this night already...
In the afternoon, Domina Shelle sent out the new monthly training file for Her contracted slaves. It came in two versions and I listened to one of them in the evening. She talked about how I had listened to other hypnotists before I found Her and how it all had been just a fantasy. She told, how everything changed when I heared Her voice for the first time and I fell for Her, how She seduced me and took control over my mind.
I was surprised how close everything She said matched my journey, as if the file had been custom-made for me. I wonder if all Her slaves had the same experience as me.
She didn't skip the opportunity to make me horny and encouraged me to stroke. But of course, I kept my hands away, although it was difficult. I wonder, what the other version will be like, I'll listen to it tomorrow...
Domina Shelle also wrote, that She'll send out a new chastity assignment soon. It seems like my chastity might get even longer than two weeks, but if it pleases Her, it will make me happy, too!
Since I already am in chastity, I offered to extend it by a week for Her. I know, that two weeks without touching will be hard, but I want to do this to prove my devotion to Domina Shelle and Lady Helena.
Lady Helena also wants me to listen to Victim of the Succubus at bedtime each day during the chastity week. She said, she wants to visit me in my dreams... I don't know this file, yet, but the description sounds hot. I don't have erotic dreams very often and I would love to have more, so I'll start to listen this night already...
In the afternoon, Domina Shelle sent out the new monthly training file for Her contracted slaves. It came in two versions and I listened to one of them in the evening. She talked about how I had listened to other hypnotists before I found Her and how it all had been just a fantasy. She told, how everything changed when I heared Her voice for the first time and I fell for Her, how She seduced me and took control over my mind.
I was surprised how close everything She said matched my journey, as if the file had been custom-made for me. I wonder if all Her slaves had the same experience as me.
She didn't skip the opportunity to make me horny and encouraged me to stroke. But of course, I kept my hands away, although it was difficult. I wonder, what the other version will be like, I'll listen to it tomorrow...
Domina Shelle also wrote, that She'll send out a new chastity assignment soon. It seems like my chastity might get even longer than two weeks, but if it pleases Her, it will make me happy, too!
No edging for me
Today was a bank-holiday and there was not much distraction from my arousal for me. I woke up early and when I checked the daily assignments, I was glad and sad at the same time to be in chastity. There were two assignments, that in combination would have meant a very difficult day for me.
The first one was to edge every time I got hard. This alone would have been difficult, but there was a second one that would have required me to stroke every time I pee. This, together with me being constantly horny would have meant countless edges and I'm not sure if I would have been able to do that without failing. So I guess I should be more glad than sad...
I have listened Power of Brainwashing again in the afternoon, this time without stroking, but I still can't tell what it does. I think, it's a kind of meta-training, that makes me want more brainwashing, but I'm not completely sure. But that's not my concern anyway. As Domina Shelle's slave, I have agreed to submit to Her training without question.
The first one was to edge every time I got hard. This alone would have been difficult, but there was a second one that would have required me to stroke every time I pee. This, together with me being constantly horny would have meant countless edges and I'm not sure if I would have been able to do that without failing. So I guess I should be more glad than sad...
I have listened Power of Brainwashing again in the afternoon, this time without stroking, but I still can't tell what it does. I think, it's a kind of meta-training, that makes me want more brainwashing, but I'm not completely sure. But that's not my concern anyway. As Domina Shelle's slave, I have agreed to submit to Her training without question.
No touching for a week
Some days ago, I had offered to go without touching at all for a while. While I was waiting for Domina Shelle's answer, I was wondering, what she would decide. Would she let me off easy with only a couple of days or would she give me more that I had in mind?
Today I got Her answer and She decided on 7 days. I have gone that long before and I know that while it won't be too difficult, I'll be pretty desperate and frustrated after this week. I hadn't stroked since yesterday, so I started the count today.
I'm happy, that I already did Lady Helena's assignment, but I think, she might send me more stroking instructions during the next days or even allow me to cum and I won't be able to do that. I'll have to tell Her, that I disobeyed and probably receive a punishment. On the on hand, this excites me, on the other hand, I'm a little scared... The following week will be interesting...
Today I got Her answer and She decided on 7 days. I have gone that long before and I know that while it won't be too difficult, I'll be pretty desperate and frustrated after this week. I hadn't stroked since yesterday, so I started the count today.
I'm happy, that I already did Lady Helena's assignment, but I think, she might send me more stroking instructions during the next days or even allow me to cum and I won't be able to do that. I'll have to tell Her, that I disobeyed and probably receive a punishment. On the on hand, this excites me, on the other hand, I'm a little scared... The following week will be interesting...
Power of Brainwashing
This week's session is called Power of Brainwashing. As always, I only skimmed the description without really paying attention. The decision to buy it had already been made by my subconscious mind. I listened in the afternoon and my Owner's voice took me down quickly. I remember repeating after Her: "Please take me deeper, Domina" and some other sentences and then, the next thing I can recall is waking up. I was stroking my cock slowly and felt absolutely amazing. I stopped stroking without even edging and gave myself a bit more time to wake up completely before I went about my day.
I thought a lot about my Domina for the rest of the day and now, as I write it, I'm having difficulties to decide, which thoughts were part of the session and which were my own. But I don't need to know... I trust my Owner. I know She won't harm me and her training not only turns me into a better slave for Her, it has also improved my life and me as a person...!
I thought a lot about my Domina for the rest of the day and now, as I write it, I'm having difficulties to decide, which thoughts were part of the session and which were my own. But I don't need to know... I trust my Owner. I know She won't harm me and her training not only turns me into a better slave for Her, it has also improved my life and me as a person...!
Assignment from Lady Helena
I was very horny and had a desperate need to stroke today. In the early evening, I decided to do some kinky activities to take my mind off a bit. Just as I was planning, what to do, I received an email from Lady Helena. We had been exchanging mails since She had let me cum and She had been asking about details of my chastity and obviously was enjoying my suffering.
This time, She had responded with an assignment that I was more than happy to do! She allowed me to edge three times and described a hot foot-fetish theme that I was to fantasize about. I decided to take it a little further and so, I placed a pair of boots in front of my bed and chained my collar to the bedpost. While I was kissing and licking the boots like She had described, I stroked my cock and it didn't take too long until I reached the first edge. I stopped and let the precum drip onto the boots. Then I continued to do the other edges in the same way, always licking the precum from the boots.
When I was finished with Lady Helena's assignment, I was in the mood to continue the kinky games and set up my little spankingmachine. For the first time, I tried a small looped cane and I immediately liked it. The feeling was the right mixture off thud and sting and the first test-strokes already left nice welts. I think it must have been around 200 strokes before I stopped to check my cheeks in the mirror. Judging from previous sessions with a straight cane, I had expected to see my skin starting to break at some places, but to my delight, it was still intact. There were some nice welts, some red, others turning slightly blue. I think I found the perfect instrument now.
I briefly thought about stopping at that point, but decided, that Lady Helena certainly wouldn't and so, I took another round of maybe 200 strokes. My cheeks and sitting-sports are covered in nice welts now and I'll probably still feel that tomorrow. I hope I will...
As a last step, I locked myself into my ballet-boots for the rest of the evening. I had stretched my feet while I was watching TV during the last days and I noticed that it already helped a bit and I was able to take a few cautious steps. Finally, I replied to Lady Helena, told Her about my evening and thanked Her for the assignment. I hope She'll like what I did...
This time, She had responded with an assignment that I was more than happy to do! She allowed me to edge three times and described a hot foot-fetish theme that I was to fantasize about. I decided to take it a little further and so, I placed a pair of boots in front of my bed and chained my collar to the bedpost. While I was kissing and licking the boots like She had described, I stroked my cock and it didn't take too long until I reached the first edge. I stopped and let the precum drip onto the boots. Then I continued to do the other edges in the same way, always licking the precum from the boots.
When I was finished with Lady Helena's assignment, I was in the mood to continue the kinky games and set up my little spankingmachine. For the first time, I tried a small looped cane and I immediately liked it. The feeling was the right mixture off thud and sting and the first test-strokes already left nice welts. I think it must have been around 200 strokes before I stopped to check my cheeks in the mirror. Judging from previous sessions with a straight cane, I had expected to see my skin starting to break at some places, but to my delight, it was still intact. There were some nice welts, some red, others turning slightly blue. I think I found the perfect instrument now.
I briefly thought about stopping at that point, but decided, that Lady Helena certainly wouldn't and so, I took another round of maybe 200 strokes. My cheeks and sitting-sports are covered in nice welts now and I'll probably still feel that tomorrow. I hope I will...
As a last step, I locked myself into my ballet-boots for the rest of the evening. I had stretched my feet while I was watching TV during the last days and I noticed that it already helped a bit and I was able to take a few cautious steps. Finally, I replied to Lady Helena, told Her about my evening and thanked Her for the assignment. I hope She'll like what I did...
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