My Owner replied to my report for the stroking assignment I had to do on the weekend. I was surprised, that she was pleased that I couldn't resist and cum. She wants me to be helplessly aroused and unable to resist.
I was missing being horny so much, that I offered to ruin the next orgasms she allows me. This should make sure, that I don't loose too much of my arousal. Domina decided, that my next 10 orgasms will be ruined, this will be a new experience for me and I'm looking forward to find out how how this frustration will feel.
I have added a new chapter to my story. Domina is teasing me while we are shopping...
Angry with myself
I had planned to stay chaste when I edged the last time for Domina's assignment last night. Edging felt so good and I rode the edge for a while. My thoughts started to conflict, I wanted to stay on the edge, but I also knew, that I should stop. Then, at one point it happened and I stopped one stroke too late. I felt like I failed, although I was allowed to cum and was angry with myself...
I have also listen to the new session again and while I was consciously listening and accepting her programming, I already forgot a lot of details. What I remember is, how cozy I felt in the deep trance she had put me and how much I love to be programmed by my Owner. I knew before, that repetition is the key to success, but this session reinforced my need to listen again and again.
I have also listen to the new session again and while I was consciously listening and accepting her programming, I already forgot a lot of details. What I remember is, how cozy I felt in the deep trance she had put me and how much I love to be programmed by my Owner. I knew before, that repetition is the key to success, but this session reinforced my need to listen again and again.
A new assignment
I finished another chapter of my story yesterday. My Owner already read it, she likes my fantasies and gave me some hints about what could happen next.
I have put the whole story on a separate page to make it easier to follow...
When I checked my emails this morning, I found a new assignment. Domina wanted me to drink a lot of water today and every time, I needed to pee, I had to edge first.
I got out of my bed, did my morning mantra and since I already had to pee, my first edge, too.
I was fixing things outside today and since I was working in the sun, I quickly got thirsty. It didn't take long until I had to pee and this time, edging was much more difficult than in the morning. I was not very horny and my body had more important needs at that time. When I finally managed to reach the edge, I was desperate to release the pressure from my bladder, but my stiff cock made it difficult. It took a while until I could relax enough to be able to pee.
Tonight, at 8pm Her time, I'm allowed to decide to cum or sacrifice my orgasm. I'll need to stay up a little longer today and wait until it's 8pm at Her place, but I don't mind doing that for her. And I already know, that I will not cum.
I have also listened to the new session Reinforced Repetition in the afternoon. It's so difficult to tell anything about this file. I went so deep that I don't remember anything after the induction. The only thing I know is that I didn't want to wake up when it ended. I stayed in a light trance for a long time afterwards.
I have put the whole story on a separate page to make it easier to follow...
When I checked my emails this morning, I found a new assignment. Domina wanted me to drink a lot of water today and every time, I needed to pee, I had to edge first.
I got out of my bed, did my morning mantra and since I already had to pee, my first edge, too.
I was fixing things outside today and since I was working in the sun, I quickly got thirsty. It didn't take long until I had to pee and this time, edging was much more difficult than in the morning. I was not very horny and my body had more important needs at that time. When I finally managed to reach the edge, I was desperate to release the pressure from my bladder, but my stiff cock made it difficult. It took a while until I could relax enough to be able to pee.
Tonight, at 8pm Her time, I'm allowed to decide to cum or sacrifice my orgasm. I'll need to stay up a little longer today and wait until it's 8pm at Her place, but I don't mind doing that for her. And I already know, that I will not cum.
I have also listened to the new session Reinforced Repetition in the afternoon. It's so difficult to tell anything about this file. I went so deep that I don't remember anything after the induction. The only thing I know is that I didn't want to wake up when it ended. I stayed in a light trance for a long time afterwards.
Cleaning schedule
Domina Shelle's instructions for today contained cleaning, dressed as her maid. It's not an unusual or rare command, but today, I felt different about it. I just couldn't wait to get home, dress up and start with my chores.
I have created a cleaning schedule a couple of weeks ago and started to track my work and my Owner can access the reports online. It's adds to my motivation to know, that she can monitor my chores and makes sure, that I don't slack off.
My bathroom was due today and I cleaned it with great enthusiasm. The little story that I wrote for her was in my mind all the time and I knew that I was pleasing her by working as her sissy maid. I paid attention to a lot of details, I polished every single tile, the faucets, the tub and shower. When I was finished, everything was gleaming and I felt very happy.
My schedule makes sure, that I clean everything often enough, so that the basics are finished quickly and I can pay attention to additional things each time. I'm spending more time on cleaning every week than I did in a whole month before and it never feels like a burden. Domina Shelle's positive reinforcement makes me enjoy my work.
My Owner also answered to the story I sent her. She loves it and she said, that reading it made her a little wet. Hearing that made me happy and horny! I'm thinking about continuing the story and I'm collecting ideas now...
I have created a cleaning schedule a couple of weeks ago and started to track my work and my Owner can access the reports online. It's adds to my motivation to know, that she can monitor my chores and makes sure, that I don't slack off.
My bathroom was due today and I cleaned it with great enthusiasm. The little story that I wrote for her was in my mind all the time and I knew that I was pleasing her by working as her sissy maid. I paid attention to a lot of details, I polished every single tile, the faucets, the tub and shower. When I was finished, everything was gleaming and I felt very happy.
My schedule makes sure, that I clean everything often enough, so that the basics are finished quickly and I can pay attention to additional things each time. I'm spending more time on cleaning every week than I did in a whole month before and it never feels like a burden. Domina Shelle's positive reinforcement makes me enjoy my work.
My Owner also answered to the story I sent her. She loves it and she said, that reading it made her a little wet. Hearing that made me happy and horny! I'm thinking about continuing the story and I'm collecting ideas now...
A little fantasy
Yesterday, my Owner sent me a wonderful assignment. She wanted me to describe, how I would run her a bath, care for her hair and nails and pamper her if I were to serve as her maid for a day. I enjoyed this task a lot and it also turned me on writing about my fantasies.
This is what I sent her, I hope, that she will like it:
It's still early in the morning, when I'm woken up by the silence in my headphones. You always make me listen to Your voice while I sleep and You have set up the play-list so, that I awake early enough to be ready to serve You when You awake. I sit up on the blanket at the foot of Your bed and unhook the chain to my collar. I'm careful not to make loud noises and wake You up. I silently crawl to the bathroom, because You have locked ballet-boots onto my feet like you do every night.
There's a chain with a keyring in the bathroom, that allows me to unlock the boots. I get into the shower, still on my knees and turn the water on. You want me to only use cold water, because that prevents me from wasting time in the shower. I quickly wash my hair and cream my body with lavender scented soap. I step out of the shower and dry myself off before shaving my body and putting my maid uniform on. It's extra frilly today, because it is Sunday and my heels are also an inch higher than usual. I use the keys on the chain to lock everything on and get to the kitchen as fast as my heels allow.
I start the coffee-machine first and then prepare some toast and eggs. I also make some fresh orange juice while I'm waiting for the coffee. Finally, I put everything on a tray and bring it to the bedroom. I kneel down at the side of the bed, still holding the tray and while I wait for You to wake up, I silently whisper my mantra and adore my beautiful sleeping Owner. I feel so happy and privileged in this moment!
My arms have started to get heavy, when you finally roll over in Your bed and face me. You slowly open Your eyes and smile at me. 'Good morning my little maid!' you say and take the tray from me.
You take a sip of coffee and pull up the sheets a little, so that Your feet are free. You snap Your fingers and point at them and I immediately know, what to do. My mind goes blank while I kiss your feet and suck on Your toes and my cock tries to get hard in it's tight chastity cage.
You finish Your breakfast and tell me to run You a bath. I take the tray back to the kitchen and then go back to the bathroom. I let the water run into the tub and make extra sure, that the temperature is exactly like You want. I add some lavender scented bubble bath and while the water is running in, I light some candles and put rose petals on the edge of the tub. I finally dim the light a bit and get back onto my knees. My hands rest on my thighs with the palm facing up and my head is bowed down as I patiently wait for You.
It doesn't take long until you enter the room. Your feet appear in my field of vision and I see you turning around. You let your gown slide down, knowing that I will catch it and put it away carefully.
You are standing before me in all your naked beauty, but I don't dare to look up without Your permission. You slip under the foam and enjoy Your bath while I wait patiently. After a few minutes, you raise one of your feet out of the water. I quickly put a folded towel onto the edge of the tub, so you can rest your foot on it. You don't have to tell me, what to do, I know, that You want me to do Your nails now and I immediately go to work by removing the old nail polish. Then I make sure, that Your nails are smooth and in perfect shape before applying new polish. I have chosen a bright red that matches the color of the skirt, that I laid out for You.
While I'm caring for Your feet, You make sure to tease me all the time. 'Awwww, is my little maid marta AROUSED? I know how HARD and HORNY my feet make you...". My cock is straining against it's cage and You giggle. You love seeing me in that state, knowing how compliant it makes me.
You continue teasing me, while I care for Your hands and once I'm done, I can't think straight any more.
You sit up in the tub, revealing Your perfect breasts. I'm getting really frustrated with arousal now, my mouth is slightly opened and I'm almost drooling. 'You will do anything for Me to be unlocked for a little while, won't You?'. I reply automatically without thinking: 'I will do anything for You, my Owner. You command and I obey.". You smile, knowing that there will be no resistance from me.
You turn a bit in the tub, so that I can wash your hair. It feels wonderful in my hands and smells so good that I can't resist and hold it to my face. "Stop that, silly maid! Did I tell you to do that?" you shout, but You are giggling silently. Everything is going like You planned.
After I'm done with Your hair, You enjoy the soothing bath a little longer while I kneel in my waiting position again. I'm so horny now, but my head is bowed down and I can't see You. You wait until You notice, that I have calmed down a bit before You stand up in the tub. This is the signal for me to get a big fluffy towel and carefully rub Your skin dry. My cock is aching again, but You turn the heat up another notch by handing me a bottle of body-lotion. I can't believe my luck! I know, that my arousal will become unbearable, but this is such an honor, that I don't care.
While I'm massaging the lotion into Your soft skin, I'm so turned on, that I don't even notice Your words. "You are mine, maid marta. You can't escape, You don't want to escape. No thoughts, no questions, only obedience.". The world is spinning around me. I'm just functioning for You. I barely notice You clipping a leash to my collar and leading me back to the bedroom. You snap Your fingers and I wake up just enough to be able to help You get dressed. I kneel down and hold a pair of lacy black panties so that You can step in. As I pull them up Your legs, You take a little step forward, making sure, that my face is close to Your pussy. I can smell, how aroused You are and I can't hold back a moan. Next comes a matching bra and a pair of sheer black stockings. As I carefully roll them up Your legs, You rest Your foot in my lap and move it a little. I'm almost on the edge now, but You make sure, that I can't go over. Next comes your dress. It's a nice spring day and I have laid out a red dress with a flower pattern. As I kneel behind You and reach up to close the zipper, You pretend to stumble a little and press Your firm ass into my face. I'm almost going mad with desire now and I barely notice Your giggling.
Finally, You sit down to allow me to put on Your shoes. It's a pair of black leather ankle boots with open toes. As You stand up, You 'accidentally' step onto my leash so that it runs between the foot and the heel of Your right shoe. 'Ooops!' You say, as you tug on the leash, forcing my head down towards Your feet. I know what to do and start kissing Your toes before polishing the leather with my tongue. You repeat the procedure with the other shoe, before You finally snap Your fingers and tell me to stand up. I'm awake now, but still a little wobbly on my feet. A catch a glimpse of the clock and notice, that it's almost time for lunch.
You take a step back and inspect me. 'Look at you, you little clumsy maid! Your uniform is all wet and wrinkled!'. You are right, I didn't notice, how wet I got myself when I helped You with Your bath. 'Get undressed. Now!' I rush to the bathroom, unlock my uniform and put it in the washing machine. When I return to the bedroom, You stop me at the door and blindfold me. I smell the scent of latex as You lead me into the middle of the room. You cuff my hands to a hook in the ceiling and leave me for a moment. As You return, I feel a little tap on my right calve and I automatically lift my foot. I feel You roll latex stockings up my legs and then You help me into a pair of boots. As You lace them up tightly, I notice, that the heels are extremely high. I can barely stand in them. Next, I feel wrap something stiff around my body. It's a corset, but this one goes from my ankles up to under my chin. As You pull the laces tight, my feet are like glued together and my head is forced into posture. You finally dress me in a long maid uniform and lock it on. As You release my hands, You ask 'You said, that You will do anything to get your poor little cock unlocked, remember? I want You to prove that today...'
This is what I sent her, I hope, that she will like it:
It's still early in the morning, when I'm woken up by the silence in my headphones. You always make me listen to Your voice while I sleep and You have set up the play-list so, that I awake early enough to be ready to serve You when You awake. I sit up on the blanket at the foot of Your bed and unhook the chain to my collar. I'm careful not to make loud noises and wake You up. I silently crawl to the bathroom, because You have locked ballet-boots onto my feet like you do every night.
There's a chain with a keyring in the bathroom, that allows me to unlock the boots. I get into the shower, still on my knees and turn the water on. You want me to only use cold water, because that prevents me from wasting time in the shower. I quickly wash my hair and cream my body with lavender scented soap. I step out of the shower and dry myself off before shaving my body and putting my maid uniform on. It's extra frilly today, because it is Sunday and my heels are also an inch higher than usual. I use the keys on the chain to lock everything on and get to the kitchen as fast as my heels allow.
I start the coffee-machine first and then prepare some toast and eggs. I also make some fresh orange juice while I'm waiting for the coffee. Finally, I put everything on a tray and bring it to the bedroom. I kneel down at the side of the bed, still holding the tray and while I wait for You to wake up, I silently whisper my mantra and adore my beautiful sleeping Owner. I feel so happy and privileged in this moment!
My arms have started to get heavy, when you finally roll over in Your bed and face me. You slowly open Your eyes and smile at me. 'Good morning my little maid!' you say and take the tray from me.
You take a sip of coffee and pull up the sheets a little, so that Your feet are free. You snap Your fingers and point at them and I immediately know, what to do. My mind goes blank while I kiss your feet and suck on Your toes and my cock tries to get hard in it's tight chastity cage.
You finish Your breakfast and tell me to run You a bath. I take the tray back to the kitchen and then go back to the bathroom. I let the water run into the tub and make extra sure, that the temperature is exactly like You want. I add some lavender scented bubble bath and while the water is running in, I light some candles and put rose petals on the edge of the tub. I finally dim the light a bit and get back onto my knees. My hands rest on my thighs with the palm facing up and my head is bowed down as I patiently wait for You.
It doesn't take long until you enter the room. Your feet appear in my field of vision and I see you turning around. You let your gown slide down, knowing that I will catch it and put it away carefully.
You are standing before me in all your naked beauty, but I don't dare to look up without Your permission. You slip under the foam and enjoy Your bath while I wait patiently. After a few minutes, you raise one of your feet out of the water. I quickly put a folded towel onto the edge of the tub, so you can rest your foot on it. You don't have to tell me, what to do, I know, that You want me to do Your nails now and I immediately go to work by removing the old nail polish. Then I make sure, that Your nails are smooth and in perfect shape before applying new polish. I have chosen a bright red that matches the color of the skirt, that I laid out for You.
While I'm caring for Your feet, You make sure to tease me all the time. 'Awwww, is my little maid marta AROUSED? I know how HARD and HORNY my feet make you...". My cock is straining against it's cage and You giggle. You love seeing me in that state, knowing how compliant it makes me.
You continue teasing me, while I care for Your hands and once I'm done, I can't think straight any more.
You sit up in the tub, revealing Your perfect breasts. I'm getting really frustrated with arousal now, my mouth is slightly opened and I'm almost drooling. 'You will do anything for Me to be unlocked for a little while, won't You?'. I reply automatically without thinking: 'I will do anything for You, my Owner. You command and I obey.". You smile, knowing that there will be no resistance from me.
You turn a bit in the tub, so that I can wash your hair. It feels wonderful in my hands and smells so good that I can't resist and hold it to my face. "Stop that, silly maid! Did I tell you to do that?" you shout, but You are giggling silently. Everything is going like You planned.
After I'm done with Your hair, You enjoy the soothing bath a little longer while I kneel in my waiting position again. I'm so horny now, but my head is bowed down and I can't see You. You wait until You notice, that I have calmed down a bit before You stand up in the tub. This is the signal for me to get a big fluffy towel and carefully rub Your skin dry. My cock is aching again, but You turn the heat up another notch by handing me a bottle of body-lotion. I can't believe my luck! I know, that my arousal will become unbearable, but this is such an honor, that I don't care.
While I'm massaging the lotion into Your soft skin, I'm so turned on, that I don't even notice Your words. "You are mine, maid marta. You can't escape, You don't want to escape. No thoughts, no questions, only obedience.". The world is spinning around me. I'm just functioning for You. I barely notice You clipping a leash to my collar and leading me back to the bedroom. You snap Your fingers and I wake up just enough to be able to help You get dressed. I kneel down and hold a pair of lacy black panties so that You can step in. As I pull them up Your legs, You take a little step forward, making sure, that my face is close to Your pussy. I can smell, how aroused You are and I can't hold back a moan. Next comes a matching bra and a pair of sheer black stockings. As I carefully roll them up Your legs, You rest Your foot in my lap and move it a little. I'm almost on the edge now, but You make sure, that I can't go over. Next comes your dress. It's a nice spring day and I have laid out a red dress with a flower pattern. As I kneel behind You and reach up to close the zipper, You pretend to stumble a little and press Your firm ass into my face. I'm almost going mad with desire now and I barely notice Your giggling.
Finally, You sit down to allow me to put on Your shoes. It's a pair of black leather ankle boots with open toes. As You stand up, You 'accidentally' step onto my leash so that it runs between the foot and the heel of Your right shoe. 'Ooops!' You say, as you tug on the leash, forcing my head down towards Your feet. I know what to do and start kissing Your toes before polishing the leather with my tongue. You repeat the procedure with the other shoe, before You finally snap Your fingers and tell me to stand up. I'm awake now, but still a little wobbly on my feet. A catch a glimpse of the clock and notice, that it's almost time for lunch.
You take a step back and inspect me. 'Look at you, you little clumsy maid! Your uniform is all wet and wrinkled!'. You are right, I didn't notice, how wet I got myself when I helped You with Your bath. 'Get undressed. Now!' I rush to the bathroom, unlock my uniform and put it in the washing machine. When I return to the bedroom, You stop me at the door and blindfold me. I smell the scent of latex as You lead me into the middle of the room. You cuff my hands to a hook in the ceiling and leave me for a moment. As You return, I feel a little tap on my right calve and I automatically lift my foot. I feel You roll latex stockings up my legs and then You help me into a pair of boots. As You lace them up tightly, I notice, that the heels are extremely high. I can barely stand in them. Next, I feel wrap something stiff around my body. It's a corset, but this one goes from my ankles up to under my chin. As You pull the laces tight, my feet are like glued together and my head is forced into posture. You finally dress me in a long maid uniform and lock it on. As You release my hands, You ask 'You said, that You will do anything to get your poor little cock unlocked, remember? I want You to prove that today...'
Dazed and Confused
Weekend! Time for a new file! I don't care anymore, what the sessions are about, every new one is something very special. It's impressive, how my Owner manages to release files of such high quality every week.
Her newest file is called Dazed and confused. After taking me into deep trance, she made me stroke slowly and at the same time, she created a strong urge to cum. She even gave the option to cum, but as her chastity slave, I was not allowed to. My body told me, that I needed to cum, but my mind said no.
Unfortunately, I was interrupted a couple of minutes before the session ended, so I don't know the whole file yet, but I will listen again tonight to find out.
I also had an interesting dream again... Domina Shelle had posted a picture of her feet on Twitter and they reappeared in this dream. We were in a pool and Lady Helena repeatedly pushed my head under the water a made me worship Domina Shelle's feet. I was gasping for air, but at the same time, I enjoyed every moment. The dream was very short unfortunately, I would have liked to experience everything a bit longer...
Her newest file is called Dazed and confused. After taking me into deep trance, she made me stroke slowly and at the same time, she created a strong urge to cum. She even gave the option to cum, but as her chastity slave, I was not allowed to. My body told me, that I needed to cum, but my mind said no.
Unfortunately, I was interrupted a couple of minutes before the session ended, so I don't know the whole file yet, but I will listen again tonight to find out.
I also had an interesting dream again... Domina Shelle had posted a picture of her feet on Twitter and they reappeared in this dream. We were in a pool and Lady Helena repeatedly pushed my head under the water a made me worship Domina Shelle's feet. I was gasping for air, but at the same time, I enjoyed every moment. The dream was very short unfortunately, I would have liked to experience everything a bit longer...
Masturbation control
When I checked my mails this morning, I found a message from my Owner. She had send me a new training loop file that she wants me to listen to for a week. I was looking forward to fall for her voice the whole day, like I always do, when there's a new session.
When I returned home, I had received another message. I signed up for a whole month of masturbation control and this were the first instructions. My task for today was to throw a dice, multiply the number by 100 and get to the edge with that many strokes while being on my knees and wearing my maid uniform and nipple clamps. I had to do this 5 times.
I was lucky and my first throw was a six, but counting the strokes distracted me to much and I was unable to reach the edge. After a short break, I threw the dice again and this time, it showed a 4. Again, this was not enough to get me to the edge and the 3 on the 3rd try didn't help either.
I decided to listen to the training loop before trying again, hoping that this would boost my arousal and make it easier to edge. I was indeed very horny when I woke from trance, but I was unlucky and threw only a 1. Again not enough to be able to edge.
But my arousal stayed and I was lucky with a 5. After half of the strokes, I felt like I would be able to edge this time and I really made it with the very last stroke. Stopping right at that moment without being able to enjoy the edge for more than a second was incredibly frustrating. I was totally worked up now, but I had used up all chances to stroke.
After calming down a bit, I sent a report to Domina Shelle. If I had been lucky and reached 2200 strokes, she would have granted me a free chance to beg for an orgasm, but unlucky as I was, I had to pay a stroking fee instead. I wasn't too sad about that, because I think, that I haven't earned it after I failed to edge. And anyway, she has trained me to want what she wants and this includes cumming. I don't want to cum unless she wants me to and I will just wait until she decides that the time has come.
When I returned home, I had received another message. I signed up for a whole month of masturbation control and this were the first instructions. My task for today was to throw a dice, multiply the number by 100 and get to the edge with that many strokes while being on my knees and wearing my maid uniform and nipple clamps. I had to do this 5 times.
I was lucky and my first throw was a six, but counting the strokes distracted me to much and I was unable to reach the edge. After a short break, I threw the dice again and this time, it showed a 4. Again, this was not enough to get me to the edge and the 3 on the 3rd try didn't help either.
I decided to listen to the training loop before trying again, hoping that this would boost my arousal and make it easier to edge. I was indeed very horny when I woke from trance, but I was unlucky and threw only a 1. Again not enough to be able to edge.
But my arousal stayed and I was lucky with a 5. After half of the strokes, I felt like I would be able to edge this time and I really made it with the very last stroke. Stopping right at that moment without being able to enjoy the edge for more than a second was incredibly frustrating. I was totally worked up now, but I had used up all chances to stroke.
After calming down a bit, I sent a report to Domina Shelle. If I had been lucky and reached 2200 strokes, she would have granted me a free chance to beg for an orgasm, but unlucky as I was, I had to pay a stroking fee instead. I wasn't too sad about that, because I think, that I haven't earned it after I failed to edge. And anyway, she has trained me to want what she wants and this includes cumming. I don't want to cum unless she wants me to and I will just wait until she decides that the time has come.
Realm of Unconsciousness
My beloved Owner released her new file Realm of Unconsciousness already on Friday and I couldn't wait long to listen to it. The induction is a little different in this session. I remember a noise in a low tune, somewhere between the sound of waves and static noise. Later into the trance, she allowed me to stroke very slowly while repeating "no thoughts, no mind, no person". This distracted me from consciously listening to her voice and I have no idea, what she did to me. She gave me the choice to cum or stay chaste at the end and I resisted the urge to cum. Although I don't remember any suggestions, I felt more connected to her after listening.
I listened again on Saturday, like Domina Shelle had instructed and this time, I couldn't resist and took the opportunity to cum. It's interesting... when I'm awake, I love to stay chaste, even if I'm horny beyond belief and in the past, I could also resist opportunities to cum, but since some time, my thinking has changed and it's very difficult for me to resist.
I slept long today and would have spent a lazy day on the sofa, but my daily instructions included cleaning my flat. I wasn't very motivated, but I was unable to disobey. Something in me urged me to start cleaning and once I had started, I was in 'maid mode'. I paid attention to all the details and I actually enjoyed it, because I know, that it pleases my Owner. It was like a program had been activated. My normal inner voice had become silent and I was only thinking about getting everything perfect.
I listened again on Saturday, like Domina Shelle had instructed and this time, I couldn't resist and took the opportunity to cum. It's interesting... when I'm awake, I love to stay chaste, even if I'm horny beyond belief and in the past, I could also resist opportunities to cum, but since some time, my thinking has changed and it's very difficult for me to resist.
I slept long today and would have spent a lazy day on the sofa, but my daily instructions included cleaning my flat. I wasn't very motivated, but I was unable to disobey. Something in me urged me to start cleaning and once I had started, I was in 'maid mode'. I paid attention to all the details and I actually enjoyed it, because I know, that it pleases my Owner. It was like a program had been activated. My normal inner voice had become silent and I was only thinking about getting everything perfect.
What a coincidence!
I had a strange dream last night. Like so often, I don't remember many details, but I can recall, that I was somewhere in public. It was some kind of event or party and while everyone was wearing normal clothing, I was dressed in a skin-tight latex catsuit. Of course, I was embarrassed, but nobody seemed to notice. Then a woman approached me and started to run her hands all over the latex and wherever she touched it, it became rigid. Soon, I was completely unable to move and trapped in the catsuit. She turned around and left me standing there like a mannequin in a shop window.
I was really surprised, when Domina Shelle posted the playground trigger that makes me stand like a mannequin for a few minutes. What a coincidence!
I was really surprised, when Domina Shelle posted the playground trigger that makes me stand like a mannequin for a few minutes. What a coincidence!
My Collaring
I had my collaring ceremony with my Owner today. This was a very special moment for me. I promised to always serve and obey her, while she allowed me to stroke. At the end of the ceremony, she told me to cum and it felt better than ever before!
After she hung up, it took a moment for everything to sink in, but then my emotions overwhelmed me. I was giggling and crying tears of joy! I'm feeling so happy!!!
After she hung up, it took a moment for everything to sink in, but then my emotions overwhelmed me. I was giggling and crying tears of joy! I'm feeling so happy!!!
Voice in my dreams
I listened to Voice in your Head right before sleeping last night. After the file had ended, I quickly fell asleep. I woke up later in the night and I felt like I just had listened to a session and my Owner's voice was still echoing in my head. After a moment, I realized, that I was not wearing headphones and just had a dream. I soon fell asleep again, knowing that my Domina controls my thought, regardless if I'm awake or sleeping...
Voice in my head
My owner sent me the personalized file for the collaring today. This file prepares me for the ceremony, not only by expressing what she expects from me as her collared slave, but also by submerging me into a detailed and sexy fantasy about the ceremony. I enjoyed the file a lot and I'll definitely listen again before my official collaring on Tuesday.
Domina Shelle also released a new file today. Voice in your Head is exactly what the title says. At one point, my mind drifted away and when I focused again, her voice was right there in my head, as if it had replaced my inner voice. It felt like a pressure in my brain that was pushing away my own thoughts and will.
She also mentioned mental chastity. I already had noticed, that my desires had started to shift from wanting to stay chaste to accepting and desiring what she wants. I don't care if she tells me to cum next week, next month or next year, I'll just want to obey her decision. I had wondered if one of her files had initiated that change and now I'm pretty sure, that this is the case and it's part of her training.
Domina Shelle also released a new file today. Voice in your Head is exactly what the title says. At one point, my mind drifted away and when I focused again, her voice was right there in my head, as if it had replaced my inner voice. It felt like a pressure in my brain that was pushing away my own thoughts and will.
She also mentioned mental chastity. I already had noticed, that my desires had started to shift from wanting to stay chaste to accepting and desiring what she wants. I don't care if she tells me to cum next week, next month or next year, I'll just want to obey her decision. I had wondered if one of her files had initiated that change and now I'm pretty sure, that this is the case and it's part of her training.
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