first of all: Merry Christmas to all of my readers! (even if it's almost over)
My Christmas weekend normally would have started on Friday with being allowed to cum as the final instruction of the Christmas assignment, but my custom file had put me back into chastity and Domina Shelle wanted me to follow those instructions, rather than the Christmas assignment.
I don't mind and in fact, She has done me a favor with that. I was allowed to cum only two months ago and i don't need to again already.
I sent a report about the assignment to Domina and Lady Helena on Saturday. I hope, that they are satisfied with my performance, although i didn't edge as much in the last days as i did at the start. I just didn't want to edge any more and it was difficult to obey, probably an effect of listening to Power of suggestion last week...
This week, there were two new files. Hohoho - naughty or nice and a new Brain Chip mystery update. I listened to the first on on Saturday and left the other for later.
Naughty or Nice is a little Christmas treat from Domina Shelle and comes in two versions, one of them was labeled with 'Chastity', so i chose that. In this super-hot file, Domina describes what would be the ultimate reward for any slave. Being allowed to pleasure Her while She sits on my face! Needless to mention, how horny that got me!
It was no surprise and didn't change my situation, that the file ended with putting me into chastity over Christmas... i suppose, that the other version ends with permission to cum, but i won't find out...
After returning from the family visits, i finally could listen to the Brain Chip upgrade. It's a Guinea Pig version again and so i only knew, that it would install a new fetish. Although the last upgrade was a little edgy, i didn't hesitate to listen to this one. I quickly understood what it was about and one of the pictures that Domina Shelle had posted this week appeared before my inner eye.
The fetish was one that i already had, so it was boosted by a million times. I don't want to spoil anything, so i won't go into details, but while i was waking up, i was craving to view that picture and following my programming, it got me horny. Also when i watched TV later, my attention was drawn to this detail and reminded me of my Owner...
My birthday present
Today was day 10 of the Christmas assignment. Two days left and i'm looking forward to not having to edge any more, this is driving me crazy! I started the day with putting on red stockings and panties like required by the assignment and continued working on my remote control devices. I added thigh-cuffs to the stirrups on the spanking bench and another electromagnet to the far end, so my hands will be locked overhead. So when my superiors are using the fucking machine on me, i'll be unable to move away or free myself.
My kneeling-post now has a strap that goes around the knees and another one around my chest. I did a quick test with the timer set to 5 minutes and that was already very uncomfortable. Most of my weight is on my knees in this position and i'm unable to shift my position by more than a few centimeters. I think i'll add some compartments where my knees are to fill in rice... I'm already looking forward to be locked into it by Domina Shelle or Lady Helena.
Yesterday, Domina Shelle sent me the custom file that She made for me as a birthday-present. I had asked Her for a session that i could listen to while being tied up with a timed release and She outdid Herself with it!
I was too tired Yesterday to try it, but this evening, i tied my feet and hands to the sides of the bed, set the timer to one hour, put a blindfold on and started the file.
Before putting me into trance, She set the mood by telling me, that i'd wake up in the morning, still tied up and the timer hadn't freed me. I played along and struggled against the restraints until She told me to relax and started to put me into trance.
Soon i was in my role as maid marta, inside a nicely decorated room and watched myself in a mirror. I saw a beautiful girl wearing a short black dress and it didn't take long before Domina entered the room. We undressed each other and She led me to the bed where She had me lie down on my back.
She started to caress and tease me and i could relate very well relate to the descriptions of how She touched my breasts and nipples. After a while, She traced Her fingernail downwards, applying just enough pressure to invoke a slight pain, followed by Her soft lips and tongue. I was in a bliss, i could vividly imagine every touch and got hornier with every word.
She finally reached my pussy and started to fondle me with Her fingers before putting on Her strap-on. When She started to fuck me, i could feel the sensation behind my balls like if Her dildo was moving inside my body. But She didn't let me cum, She put me in chastity for the next seven days instead... i would be required to cum on Friday as the end of the Christmas assignment, so i'm not sure, what instruction to follow, but it's a lucky coincident that we'll have a call that day, so She can decide. I would not mind to stay chaste for Her...
After denying me, Domina ended the session by whispering some more phrases that made me even hornier, made me want to clean and to serve Her, than i was left restrained...
I stayed in a light trance and soon, i had lost all perception of time. I started to wonder when the release would be triggered, struggled a bit against the restraints and normally and savored the burning arousal inside me. I started to get the impression that the 20 minutes that would have been left after the session should be over already and started to wonder if my release had failed. A total mindfuck!
Finally, my hands were freed and i started to wake up completely.
I couldn't imagine a more perfect session! It has everything i like, bondage, feminization, chastity and maid training suggestions. I will listened to it often, it's the perfect addition to any selfbondage-session!
I'm very very grateful that Domina made this session for me, She put so much work into it and i can't thank Her enough. SHE'S AWESOME!!!!!
My kneeling-post now has a strap that goes around the knees and another one around my chest. I did a quick test with the timer set to 5 minutes and that was already very uncomfortable. Most of my weight is on my knees in this position and i'm unable to shift my position by more than a few centimeters. I think i'll add some compartments where my knees are to fill in rice... I'm already looking forward to be locked into it by Domina Shelle or Lady Helena.
Yesterday, Domina Shelle sent me the custom file that She made for me as a birthday-present. I had asked Her for a session that i could listen to while being tied up with a timed release and She outdid Herself with it!
I was too tired Yesterday to try it, but this evening, i tied my feet and hands to the sides of the bed, set the timer to one hour, put a blindfold on and started the file.
Before putting me into trance, She set the mood by telling me, that i'd wake up in the morning, still tied up and the timer hadn't freed me. I played along and struggled against the restraints until She told me to relax and started to put me into trance.
Soon i was in my role as maid marta, inside a nicely decorated room and watched myself in a mirror. I saw a beautiful girl wearing a short black dress and it didn't take long before Domina entered the room. We undressed each other and She led me to the bed where She had me lie down on my back.
She started to caress and tease me and i could relate very well relate to the descriptions of how She touched my breasts and nipples. After a while, She traced Her fingernail downwards, applying just enough pressure to invoke a slight pain, followed by Her soft lips and tongue. I was in a bliss, i could vividly imagine every touch and got hornier with every word.
She finally reached my pussy and started to fondle me with Her fingers before putting on Her strap-on. When She started to fuck me, i could feel the sensation behind my balls like if Her dildo was moving inside my body. But She didn't let me cum, She put me in chastity for the next seven days instead... i would be required to cum on Friday as the end of the Christmas assignment, so i'm not sure, what instruction to follow, but it's a lucky coincident that we'll have a call that day, so She can decide. I would not mind to stay chaste for Her...
After denying me, Domina ended the session by whispering some more phrases that made me even hornier, made me want to clean and to serve Her, than i was left restrained...
I stayed in a light trance and soon, i had lost all perception of time. I started to wonder when the release would be triggered, struggled a bit against the restraints and normally and savored the burning arousal inside me. I started to get the impression that the 20 minutes that would have been left after the session should be over already and started to wonder if my release had failed. A total mindfuck!
Finally, my hands were freed and i started to wake up completely.
I couldn't imagine a more perfect session! It has everything i like, bondage, feminization, chastity and maid training suggestions. I will listened to it often, it's the perfect addition to any selfbondage-session!
I'm very very grateful that Domina made this session for me, She put so much work into it and i can't thank Her enough. SHE'S AWESOME!!!!!
Tortured by Lady Helena
I had a mind-blowing call with Lady Helena this evening. After chatting a bit, we were ready to start and i was looking forward to get spanked, when She suddenly announced, that She wanted to use my other remote controlled toys, too. So i wired myself up to my e-stim device, with one channel on the base of my cock, the other on the tip and the common channel on a buttplug. I also tightened the shock collar around my balls. After kneeling down and bending over the spanking-bench, i put my hands into fist-mitts and Lady Helena activated the electromagnet to lock them into place.
I was now pretty helpless with my arms stretched out in front of me, i could only move a bit to the left and right, so the spanking-machine wouldn't always hit the same spot.
Lady Helena started to hypnotize me and had me in a slight trance quickly. She began to tell a story where i came to Her house and She drugged me and took me to Her basement. She strapped me to a spanking-bench, but not to punish me. She wanted to do an experiment...
After a couple of spanks, She sat on my back and started to play with my cock. She turned up the e-stim device in that very moment and without any communication other than my breathing getting heavier, She turned it to the perfect level to make my cock grow hard.
She continued the story with telling me how She smeared something sticky onto my cock and balls, then She got up to fetch something from a shelf. I was blindfolded in this story, so i couldn't see what it was, but She let me feel a tickling on my feet and began to explain that She was experimenting with ants. A special kind of ant with a very painful bite, She said. At that moment, i knew what was coming and this frightened me a little.
Lady Helena continued to describe how they crawled up my leg and suddenly i screamed. "Oh, did they bite you?" She laughed. She had activated the shock-collar and i think, She had turned it up to a higher level than we had tested before. She continued to tell, how the ants crawled up my legs, not sparing me of painful shocks until they reached my cock and balls.
At this moment, She turned up the volume of the e-stim device to a level that made me afraid i would cum (both, Domina Shelle and Lady Helena had explicitly said, that i'm was allowed to). But again, She found the perfect level to make me drip and keep me frustratingly horny.
She said, that maybe a spanking would chase the ants away and started the spanking-machine, but of course it didn't and i experienced a couple more bites/shocks that felt even more painful than before.
I was relieved when She started to count me up and surprising me with another shock while doing it.
"Oh, the unlocking doesn't work, but the timer is set to only 6 hours..." She nagged me, but i could hear from the tone of Her voice that She was only kidding. I heared the click of the relays and i was free.
Lady Helena asked me if i'd like some more spanks and of course i agreed. i needed to replace the paddle that we had used, because a part had broken off and She decided on the wooden spoon. To my horror, She wanted to spank my balls! 10 more strokes and after each one i should thank Her and wish Her Merry Christmas. It was a little difficult to get into a proper position in front of the spanking-machine, but then the spanks started. Lady Helena had allowed me to turn the strength down, but the spanks were hard and fast and all i could between them was scream, no time to thanks Her nor wish Her Merry Christmas. Lady Helena was very amused by my reaction and didn't punish me further.
The session was amazing and we both had a lot of fun.
I hate the shock-collar, because the pain is of a stingy kind that i don't like and the the shocks come without warning and catch me unprepared, but at the same time, i like how helpless this makes me feel.
Lady Helena loves it, because She can make me scream with it. She suggested to try it on my balls the next time. It scares me, but i couldn't say no to Her, so that will be my fate.
While i was cleaning up and disconnecting everything after our session, i noticed, that the shock-collar remote was turned up all the way to 9. When i tested for myself, i did that at level 5, occasionally 6 and i only once dared to press the button when it was on 7...
Christmas assignment
Since Monday, i am doing a Christmas assignment for Domina Shelle and Lady Helena. Besides other small tasks, i had to edge as often as possible each day, starting with 10 minutes on Monday and increasing the time by one minute each day. First, i enjoyed the edging, but it soon became very frustrating and stopping at the right moment became easier each time.
The rest of the days, i have been very horny, wanting to stroke slowly and enjoying it instead of hurrying to get close to the edge, but the edging was the only touching allowed.
Saturday night, i listened to Domina's new file Power of Suggestion. There are two versions, but since i'm doing the assignment, i had to choose the chastity-version. I didn't mind it, though, i always like Domina's chastity files!
The session is the perfect tease. Domina induced vivid images of Her slavegirls teasing me, while i was helplessly paralyzed. I would have loved to listen again today, but it's a day of rest. No touching, no listening to hypnosis and i should try not to think of my Owner and Lady Helena. Of course, this is impossible, the two are always present in the back of my mind.
I have also worked on my remote control box. I padded the spanking-bench and built a small fucking-machine that's mounted to the other end of the bench. I also connected my e-stim device.
I can't wait to try all the toys with my Owner and Lady Helena!
The rest of the days, i have been very horny, wanting to stroke slowly and enjoying it instead of hurrying to get close to the edge, but the edging was the only touching allowed.
Saturday night, i listened to Domina's new file Power of Suggestion. There are two versions, but since i'm doing the assignment, i had to choose the chastity-version. I didn't mind it, though, i always like Domina's chastity files!
The session is the perfect tease. Domina induced vivid images of Her slavegirls teasing me, while i was helplessly paralyzed. I would have loved to listen again today, but it's a day of rest. No touching, no listening to hypnosis and i should try not to think of my Owner and Lady Helena. Of course, this is impossible, the two are always present in the back of my mind.
I have also worked on my remote control box. I padded the spanking-bench and built a small fucking-machine that's mounted to the other end of the bench. I also connected my e-stim device.
I can't wait to try all the toys with my Owner and Lady Helena!
Seduction Trap
Domina Shelle released Her newest file Seduction Trap on Saturday and i have listened twice so far. As always, i fell deep and could vividly imagine the erotic images She described. At the same time as making me horny, She installed suggestions that make me want to serve Her even better.
Is this file seductive? For sure! But is it really a trap? All Her files have an element of deepening my devotion to Her, so i didn't expect anything else from this one. So i was not surprised by the effects.
Tomorrow i will start with an assignment that Domina and Lady Helena created. It will run until the 22nd and there is a normal version and one for sissies. Both of them are for free!
We will have a call on Wednesday, Domina will be the first to test-drive my remote control box. I'm already excited, i'm sure that this will be an amazing session.
On Friday, it's Lady Helena's turn, i think i will spend the weekend with a very sore bottom!
Is this file seductive? For sure! But is it really a trap? All Her files have an element of deepening my devotion to Her, so i didn't expect anything else from this one. So i was not surprised by the effects.
Tomorrow i will start with an assignment that Domina and Lady Helena created. It will run until the 22nd and there is a normal version and one for sissies. Both of them are for free!
We will have a call on Wednesday, Domina will be the first to test-drive my remote control box. I'm already excited, i'm sure that this will be an amazing session.
On Friday, it's Lady Helena's turn, i think i will spend the weekend with a very sore bottom!
A strange dream
I have spent the weekend working on my remote control system. I built a spanking-bench and a kneeling-post, both with magnetic locks for my hands, so i will be unable to escape the torture that Domina Shelle and Lady Helena will be inflicting on me. I have also added a servo-motor with a lever that can be mounted above my bed and be used to pull on nipple-clamps. I haven't tested it yet, but i'm pretty sure that it's strong enough to pull even clover-clamps off. Now i can barely wait to try it with my superiors. Domina Shelle said, that She wants to be the first to try it, so Lady Helena will have to wait a bit...
Saturday evening, i listened to Domina's newest session. It's a brain-chip implant called Guinea Pig and She only wrote that it will install a new fetish, so i was very curious to find out what this would be. I don't want to spoil the surprise, so i'm not going to write about details, but even if it's something that i normally don't like, i found myself browsing for pictures afterwards and getting aroused by them. I'm once again amazed about the power of Domina's suggestions and also a bit relieved, that it will wear off after 3 days, even if it's something rather harmless.
Last night i listened to the hands-free training like i have done most nights lately. After the file had ended, i tried to fall asleep, but i was so horny and my thoughts were running wild, that i couldn't. No wonder after more than a month of chastity, with only very few stroking... But i want to test my limits this time and won't give up.
When i finally fell asleep, i had a strange dream. It was from the perspective of my male self, but there was also maid marta. We were sitting in front of a mirror and Domina asked us, whether we are the same person. While maid marta agreed, i wasn't sure. Did my mind want me to tell, that i secretly want to slip deeper into this role? So far, i have enjoyed the role-play and being treated like a girl, but i don't feel female... i'm going to asked my Owner for advise...
Saturday evening, i listened to Domina's newest session. It's a brain-chip implant called Guinea Pig and She only wrote that it will install a new fetish, so i was very curious to find out what this would be. I don't want to spoil the surprise, so i'm not going to write about details, but even if it's something that i normally don't like, i found myself browsing for pictures afterwards and getting aroused by them. I'm once again amazed about the power of Domina's suggestions and also a bit relieved, that it will wear off after 3 days, even if it's something rather harmless.
Last night i listened to the hands-free training like i have done most nights lately. After the file had ended, i tried to fall asleep, but i was so horny and my thoughts were running wild, that i couldn't. No wonder after more than a month of chastity, with only very few stroking... But i want to test my limits this time and won't give up.
When i finally fell asleep, i had a strange dream. It was from the perspective of my male self, but there was also maid marta. We were sitting in front of a mirror and Domina asked us, whether we are the same person. While maid marta agreed, i wasn't sure. Did my mind want me to tell, that i secretly want to slip deeper into this role? So far, i have enjoyed the role-play and being treated like a girl, but i don't feel female... i'm going to asked my Owner for advise...
Remote controlled
It has been a bit since the last update, so here's a quick wrap-up...
The hands-free training is showing first effects. I'm dreaming more than usual. At first, the dreams were not of a sexual nature, but i remember one dream on Friday night, were i was trying on different chastity-belts and the night after, i dreamed of cross-dressing. I don't know in which context this was, but i take it as a good sign and hope to have more dreams of that kind.
Yesterday i found a small package from Domina Shelle in my mailbox. Her panties had arrived! There was a little card included that contained the instructions to slip into my maid-uniform and kneel while i sniff them. Her scent, mixed with Her perfume instantly made me horny and i had a hard time resisting to touch myself. I'm looking forward to our next call, where She'll use my magnetic cuffs to tie me up remotely and tease me while i'll have Her panties on my face.
Speaking of the remote controlled toys... i have started to put everything into a nice case with a proper webpage to control them and i'm adding more options. I'm documenting it on a seperate page.
Lady Helena is already keen to have me under Her control. She said, i'm in much trouble in our next session. I love the kind of trouble She means...!
The hands-free training is showing first effects. I'm dreaming more than usual. At first, the dreams were not of a sexual nature, but i remember one dream on Friday night, were i was trying on different chastity-belts and the night after, i dreamed of cross-dressing. I don't know in which context this was, but i take it as a good sign and hope to have more dreams of that kind.
Yesterday i found a small package from Domina Shelle in my mailbox. Her panties had arrived! There was a little card included that contained the instructions to slip into my maid-uniform and kneel while i sniff them. Her scent, mixed with Her perfume instantly made me horny and i had a hard time resisting to touch myself. I'm looking forward to our next call, where She'll use my magnetic cuffs to tie me up remotely and tease me while i'll have Her panties on my face.
Speaking of the remote controlled toys... i have started to put everything into a nice case with a proper webpage to control them and i'm adding more options. I'm documenting it on a seperate page.
Lady Helena is already keen to have me under Her control. She said, i'm in much trouble in our next session. I love the kind of trouble She means...!
Hypnotic Brainwashing
On Saturday, Domina Shelle released Her newest file Dominance - A Hypnotic Brainwashing. I have listened a couple of times, but i'm still not capable to grasp, what it does to me. I remember going deeper and deeper and deeper and i know, that there are training suggestions in it, but i can't describe the effect. I have noticed, that i have been looking at Her pictures more often while thinking about the pleasure of being Her slave and i think my submissiveness has deepened. Whatever it is, i'm sure the file has the intended effect on my and i'm comfortable with submitting fully to what my Owner is doing, even if i don't understand.
Domina also sent an assignment to Her slaves... Edging as often as possible for one hour and then on the next day, cumming as often as possible during another hour. Since i'm in chastity for as long as i possibly can, i was a little disappointed, that i couldn't follow it. The forced draining would certainly have been interesting, but i don't regret making that chastity commitment.
I have used the Sunday afternoon to practice with the Hand Free Training and had the files running in the background while i was doing other things. I still haven't had a wet dream, but i remember having dreamed a lot during the last two nights.
Today was the first time since a while that chastity has been hard again. Especially in the evening, i was very horny and would have loved to stroke a bit, but in such moments, the feeling of being in my Owner's control is extra-strong and i love this! I think, doing the hands-free training in combination with being locked in mental chastity will be an intense experience...
Domina also sent an assignment to Her slaves... Edging as often as possible for one hour and then on the next day, cumming as often as possible during another hour. Since i'm in chastity for as long as i possibly can, i was a little disappointed, that i couldn't follow it. The forced draining would certainly have been interesting, but i don't regret making that chastity commitment.
I have used the Sunday afternoon to practice with the Hand Free Training and had the files running in the background while i was doing other things. I still haven't had a wet dream, but i remember having dreamed a lot during the last two nights.
Today was the first time since a while that chastity has been hard again. Especially in the evening, i was very horny and would have loved to stroke a bit, but in such moments, the feeling of being in my Owner's control is extra-strong and i love this! I think, doing the hands-free training in combination with being locked in mental chastity will be an intense experience...
New chastity commitment
Domina Shelle had teased me for a couple of days about being locked up in mental chastity again. In my first replies, i wrote that i like being locked up and that i couldn't wait, but She kept teasing me. This went on until i started to beg for it and She seemed to have waited for that, because this evening, i received Her reply in which She told me that i'll have to beg to be unlocked and that She knows, that i'll wait as long as i can.
She didn't phrase that last part as a command, but it feels like one and at the same time, i take it as a challenge. I committed myself to stay locked up for the rest of the year and i'll probably make a new commitment then...
I reinforced my chastity by listening to Brain Fried at bed-time. I'm not sure whether i fell asleep or if i only went very very deep, but i remember only the first and last minutes of the file...
I also asked Domina Shelle for permission to start with the Hands Free series again. Cumming hands-free on command sounds intriguing and i already had tried the series a year ago, but that time i got stuck, because i had no success with having a wet dream which would be required to proceed to the last part. I think, this might have been because i was following Domina's stroking instructions and hope to have more success while being locked up...
She didn't phrase that last part as a command, but it feels like one and at the same time, i take it as a challenge. I committed myself to stay locked up for the rest of the year and i'll probably make a new commitment then...
I reinforced my chastity by listening to Brain Fried at bed-time. I'm not sure whether i fell asleep or if i only went very very deep, but i remember only the first and last minutes of the file...
I also asked Domina Shelle for permission to start with the Hands Free series again. Cumming hands-free on command sounds intriguing and i already had tried the series a year ago, but that time i got stuck, because i had no success with having a wet dream which would be required to proceed to the last part. I think, this might have been because i was following Domina's stroking instructions and hope to have more success while being locked up...
Puppy training
I gave Domina Shelle the chance to also extract a gift code from me, because i thought i shouldn't spoil Lady Helena without spoiling Her, too. I didn't expect, how easy it would be for Her...
She had allowed me to beg for a pair of Her panties where She had cum in and i also begged Her to be allowed to sign with 'maid marta' again (She had me sign with my puppy-name since a while and i was missing being maid marta...). So She just told me, that if i want that, i have to show Her, how much i love Her and give Her the code. I hadn't accepted that, but there's nothing to argue about Her approach, She's always right... so i didn't hesitate to give Her the code.
Yesterday morning, i had an email from Her and She thanked me and sent me Her new file Tranceformation - Sissy Puppy for free and also the new session for Her contracted slaves.
The later one is called 'Trigger Hand wash' and i listened to it in the afternoon. In this session, Domina Shelle conditions me to associate washing my hands with pleasing Her. There were amnesia triggers involved, so i can't remember more details and when i woke up, i didn't notice any changes.
This morning, i found another email from my Owner. She used my commitment to be Her volunteer to ask me to pay for Her nail appointment. I'm not into findom, but i love to do that for Her once in a while and She never abuses this.
After lunch, i started to clean my flat. I wasn't very motivated at first, but as soon as my hands got wet, i suddenly was very motivated. This is probably due to the trigger. I spent more then two hours with cleaning and then took photos for my cleaning-report.
Afterwards, i finally listened to the puppy-training file. Its only 15 minutes long, so i was surprised by how powerful it is. I soon found myself barking and behaving like a puppy. I was not playing along, i really felt like Her puppy! Then She told me, that using furniture feels wrong for a dog and She told me to sit on the floor. I obeyed Her instructions and sat like a dog, with my paws up and tongue hanging out. I was panting and eagerly waiting for Her next command.
She had me play dead next and then laying on my back before She began to wake me up while giving me post-hypnotic suggestions and making me horny.
I couldn't wait to be woken, because She had told me to hump a pillow afterwards. The moment the file ended, i wiped the headphones off with my paw, used my teeth to get a pillow into position and then began to hump it. I was panting again and slightly drooling with my tongue hanging out.
I still need explicit permission from my Owner to cum and so i couldn't make a mess like She had allowed in the file. I just humped until i lost interest.
In the past, files where i was told to do something afterwards didn't work as good as the ones that contain mental conditioning, but this one was different. I love it! I have asked Domina for a call where we do some puppy-play and i'm already looking forward to it!
She had allowed me to beg for a pair of Her panties where She had cum in and i also begged Her to be allowed to sign with 'maid marta' again (She had me sign with my puppy-name since a while and i was missing being maid marta...). So She just told me, that if i want that, i have to show Her, how much i love Her and give Her the code. I hadn't accepted that, but there's nothing to argue about Her approach, She's always right... so i didn't hesitate to give Her the code.
Yesterday morning, i had an email from Her and She thanked me and sent me Her new file Tranceformation - Sissy Puppy for free and also the new session for Her contracted slaves.
The later one is called 'Trigger Hand wash' and i listened to it in the afternoon. In this session, Domina Shelle conditions me to associate washing my hands with pleasing Her. There were amnesia triggers involved, so i can't remember more details and when i woke up, i didn't notice any changes.
This morning, i found another email from my Owner. She used my commitment to be Her volunteer to ask me to pay for Her nail appointment. I'm not into findom, but i love to do that for Her once in a while and She never abuses this.
After lunch, i started to clean my flat. I wasn't very motivated at first, but as soon as my hands got wet, i suddenly was very motivated. This is probably due to the trigger. I spent more then two hours with cleaning and then took photos for my cleaning-report.
Afterwards, i finally listened to the puppy-training file. Its only 15 minutes long, so i was surprised by how powerful it is. I soon found myself barking and behaving like a puppy. I was not playing along, i really felt like Her puppy! Then She told me, that using furniture feels wrong for a dog and She told me to sit on the floor. I obeyed Her instructions and sat like a dog, with my paws up and tongue hanging out. I was panting and eagerly waiting for Her next command.
She had me play dead next and then laying on my back before She began to wake me up while giving me post-hypnotic suggestions and making me horny.
I couldn't wait to be woken, because She had told me to hump a pillow afterwards. The moment the file ended, i wiped the headphones off with my paw, used my teeth to get a pillow into position and then began to hump it. I was panting again and slightly drooling with my tongue hanging out.
I still need explicit permission from my Owner to cum and so i couldn't make a mess like She had allowed in the file. I just humped until i lost interest.
In the past, files where i was told to do something afterwards didn't work as good as the ones that contain mental conditioning, but this one was different. I love it! I have asked Domina for a call where we do some puppy-play and i'm already looking forward to it!
Don't challenge Lady Helena
Before i start with today's events, let me quickly tell what happened yesterday... when i returned home, there was a new email from my Owner in my inbox. I wasn't waiting for any reply, so i was very curious. When i read the email, i was in for a surprise. Domina Shelle replied to an email that She had me write while waking up from trance a few days earlier. I had completely forgotten about that! I remembered again writing "my mind belongs to You, Domina", but i still don't remember any suggestions that let me forget about it...
Today was the big day where Lady Helena would torture a code for a gift-card out of me. I was exited about this since we had made the appointment a week ago, but after i had set up everything and was waiting for Her, i got more nervous with every minute. Then i saw Her go online and there was no way back for me. She told me to kneel on a hard surface with clamps on my balls and mantra until She called. That nothing unusual as a start of a session, so i calmed down a bit.
I think i was already kneeling for 10 minutes when She finally called and She informed me right away, that She would get the code before She would even let me lay down. At that point i was still determined to stay strong and not give up too easy, but Lady Helena gave me no chance at all. She knew exactly, that i was expecting a slow torture while being tied to my bed, but She didn't grant me that comfort.
She had me apply nipple-clamps, those nasty ones that She had used last week and that i fear. I don't know why, but i put them on the very tip off my nipples... Then She told me to remove the clamps on my balls and while She was counting to 10, i had to slap my balls with every number. It hurt, but i was still able to resist and when Lady Helena asked me, i refused to give Her the code.
"OK, I have all day... and we'll increase the count every time..." was Her answer. And with that, She started to count to 20. I had already noticed last week, that i deliver harder slaps than i would do on my own, when Lady Helena instructs me and so, i was moaning with every hit. I could tell by Her giggling, that She was enjoying my suffering immensely and before the set was over, i had given up any hopes to be able to win. But there was still a little resistance inside me and so i kept refusing to give Her to code.
The next set was 30. Well, not really 30... After 29, Lady Helena started over at 21. She kept repeating numbers, jumped back and i quickly lost count... by the time the set was done, my knees hurt badly and i tried my luck by offering Her the first number of the code for a little rest for my knees, but She refused. She had found a weak spot and was using that against me.
We were about half through the next set, 40 strokes, when i suddenly heared Lady Helena talk to someone. "I'm torturing Your little maid marta right now...". She was talking to my beloved Owner!
When She put Domina Shelle on speaker and i could hear Her greeting me, all the pain was forgotten for a moment, but only until i heared Lady Helena ask Domina Shelle to say 21. I knew what to do when i heared the number and i hit extra hard for my Owner.
Lady Helena turned off the speaker and they talked for a few moments, letting me suffer in my uncomfortable position, then the counting went on. I lost track, how many times Lady Helena skipped back to 31, but every time She did, a moan of desperation escaped my mouth. I was only waiting for this set to be over. I was broken and when Lady Helena asked, i gave up and told Her the code.
She finally allowed to to give my knees a rest and once i was sitting, the pain from the clamps returned to my focus. I begged to take them off and Lady Helena granted my wish. I had them on for about 20 minutes and taking them off was the worst pain i ever felt on my nipples!
I had learned my lesson: "Don't challenge Lady Helena"
Lady Helena finished the call by letting me tie myself down, with my feet spread and my hands above my head. She activated the electromagnet, fixating my hands to the headboard and began hypnotizing me. I had made sure, that i was unable to reach the cable, so my only way out was to either wait for Her releasing me or cutting my wrist-cuffs, something i would avoid at all costs.
After taking me into trance and paralyzing me, She pinned my head and waist down with additional hypnotic restraints and let me drift off into sleep as She ended the call and released my hands.
I fantasized for a while about Her teasing me, like She had instructed, but soon, my nipples woke me up. They still hurt like they were clamped and i can still feel a slight pain 90 minutes later. Last week, they were still a little sore after three days, how long will it be this time?
Despite all the suffering, this was an amazing session (or was it because of the suffering?). Lady Helena has pushed my limits again and surprised me with Her wicked ways. She was playful the whole time, but never left a doubt that She's in charge and not to be messed with! I'm already looking forward to next time!
Today was the big day where Lady Helena would torture a code for a gift-card out of me. I was exited about this since we had made the appointment a week ago, but after i had set up everything and was waiting for Her, i got more nervous with every minute. Then i saw Her go online and there was no way back for me. She told me to kneel on a hard surface with clamps on my balls and mantra until She called. That nothing unusual as a start of a session, so i calmed down a bit.
I think i was already kneeling for 10 minutes when She finally called and She informed me right away, that She would get the code before She would even let me lay down. At that point i was still determined to stay strong and not give up too easy, but Lady Helena gave me no chance at all. She knew exactly, that i was expecting a slow torture while being tied to my bed, but She didn't grant me that comfort.
She had me apply nipple-clamps, those nasty ones that She had used last week and that i fear. I don't know why, but i put them on the very tip off my nipples... Then She told me to remove the clamps on my balls and while She was counting to 10, i had to slap my balls with every number. It hurt, but i was still able to resist and when Lady Helena asked me, i refused to give Her the code.
"OK, I have all day... and we'll increase the count every time..." was Her answer. And with that, She started to count to 20. I had already noticed last week, that i deliver harder slaps than i would do on my own, when Lady Helena instructs me and so, i was moaning with every hit. I could tell by Her giggling, that She was enjoying my suffering immensely and before the set was over, i had given up any hopes to be able to win. But there was still a little resistance inside me and so i kept refusing to give Her to code.
The next set was 30. Well, not really 30... After 29, Lady Helena started over at 21. She kept repeating numbers, jumped back and i quickly lost count... by the time the set was done, my knees hurt badly and i tried my luck by offering Her the first number of the code for a little rest for my knees, but She refused. She had found a weak spot and was using that against me.
We were about half through the next set, 40 strokes, when i suddenly heared Lady Helena talk to someone. "I'm torturing Your little maid marta right now...". She was talking to my beloved Owner!
When She put Domina Shelle on speaker and i could hear Her greeting me, all the pain was forgotten for a moment, but only until i heared Lady Helena ask Domina Shelle to say 21. I knew what to do when i heared the number and i hit extra hard for my Owner.
Lady Helena turned off the speaker and they talked for a few moments, letting me suffer in my uncomfortable position, then the counting went on. I lost track, how many times Lady Helena skipped back to 31, but every time She did, a moan of desperation escaped my mouth. I was only waiting for this set to be over. I was broken and when Lady Helena asked, i gave up and told Her the code.
She finally allowed to to give my knees a rest and once i was sitting, the pain from the clamps returned to my focus. I begged to take them off and Lady Helena granted my wish. I had them on for about 20 minutes and taking them off was the worst pain i ever felt on my nipples!
I had learned my lesson: "Don't challenge Lady Helena"
Lady Helena finished the call by letting me tie myself down, with my feet spread and my hands above my head. She activated the electromagnet, fixating my hands to the headboard and began hypnotizing me. I had made sure, that i was unable to reach the cable, so my only way out was to either wait for Her releasing me or cutting my wrist-cuffs, something i would avoid at all costs.
After taking me into trance and paralyzing me, She pinned my head and waist down with additional hypnotic restraints and let me drift off into sleep as She ended the call and released my hands.
I fantasized for a while about Her teasing me, like She had instructed, but soon, my nipples woke me up. They still hurt like they were clamped and i can still feel a slight pain 90 minutes later. Last week, they were still a little sore after three days, how long will it be this time?
Despite all the suffering, this was an amazing session (or was it because of the suffering?). Lady Helena has pushed my limits again and surprised me with Her wicked ways. She was playful the whole time, but never left a doubt that She's in charge and not to be messed with! I'm already looking forward to next time!
A mean trigger
It's always a great start into the day to wake up and find a new email from one of my superiors and today, i had one from Lady Helena. After our session on Tuesday, i had told there, that having clothespins on my tongue is another thing that i can stand very long, hoping that She'll push my limits a bit again like She did with the tweezer clamps.
She understood my indirect begging and i think She's as keen to expand my pain threshold as i am.
I think, i have impressed Her a bit with my suffering, because She not only allowed me to participate in Her boot-camp, but She wrote that i have to. I'm so happy that She'll let me take part, although Her wording sounded like She is not going to go easy on me...
I thanked Her immediately and also suggested a little game that will bring me to my limits on Tuesday. I'm going to put a gift-card on a web-page, protect it with a code and if She can make me tell Her the code, the gift-card is Her's.
She loves the idea and left no doubt, that i will tell Her. I know, that i have no chance and that She won't show mercy, but i will try to resist as long as possible.
There are also new sessions to listen to. Domina has released SissyGasm and a session for Her contracted slaves. I haven't listened to them yet, but from the description, i get that SissyGasm will increase the arousal i feel from stimulating my nipples. This might come handy on Tuesday...
Lady Helena has also released a new file and this is the reason why i haven't listened to the other sessions afterwards like i had planned. In Masturbator, She installed a new trigger that, like the name of the session suggests, causes me to masturbate regardless where and in what situation i am. That alone would have been great, but the trigger also makes me unable to stop until i cum.
This put me in quite a predicament after She woke me up and triggered me, since Domina Shelle forbid me to cum before Christmas and only with Her explicit permission. Her commands override Lady Helena's instructions and so i found myself stroking and stroking, but being unable to cum.
The temptation was high to just cum, confess and accept the punishment, but my body obeyed perfectly and let me slow down in the right moments without me having conscious control over it.
It took more than two hours before i was able to stop. I knew, that i needed to do something to prevent me from starting again and so i put on three pairs of tight latex shorts, a catsuit and over that another catsuit made from thick rubber. I cuddled up under a latex sheet and spent the rest of the evening in state between trance and being awake, my mind full of kinky thoughts...
She understood my indirect begging and i think She's as keen to expand my pain threshold as i am.
I think, i have impressed Her a bit with my suffering, because She not only allowed me to participate in Her boot-camp, but She wrote that i have to. I'm so happy that She'll let me take part, although Her wording sounded like She is not going to go easy on me...
I thanked Her immediately and also suggested a little game that will bring me to my limits on Tuesday. I'm going to put a gift-card on a web-page, protect it with a code and if She can make me tell Her the code, the gift-card is Her's.
She loves the idea and left no doubt, that i will tell Her. I know, that i have no chance and that She won't show mercy, but i will try to resist as long as possible.
There are also new sessions to listen to. Domina has released SissyGasm and a session for Her contracted slaves. I haven't listened to them yet, but from the description, i get that SissyGasm will increase the arousal i feel from stimulating my nipples. This might come handy on Tuesday...
Lady Helena has also released a new file and this is the reason why i haven't listened to the other sessions afterwards like i had planned. In Masturbator, She installed a new trigger that, like the name of the session suggests, causes me to masturbate regardless where and in what situation i am. That alone would have been great, but the trigger also makes me unable to stop until i cum.
This put me in quite a predicament after She woke me up and triggered me, since Domina Shelle forbid me to cum before Christmas and only with Her explicit permission. Her commands override Lady Helena's instructions and so i found myself stroking and stroking, but being unable to cum.
The temptation was high to just cum, confess and accept the punishment, but my body obeyed perfectly and let me slow down in the right moments without me having conscious control over it.
It took more than two hours before i was able to stop. I knew, that i needed to do something to prevent me from starting again and so i put on three pairs of tight latex shorts, a catsuit and over that another catsuit made from thick rubber. I cuddled up under a latex sheet and spent the rest of the evening in state between trance and being awake, my mind full of kinky thoughts...
Hard nipple torture
Like last year, Domina Shelle released a special recording for Halloween this Saturday. It's called Princess Vampire and like the name suggests, it's a very erotic story about a Princess who seduces men at night and makes them Her blood slaves.
But there's more to this file... Domina wrote, that there's a secret message hidden inside. I listened on Sunday, but didn't find any message, i didn't even feel like i had been very deep in trance.
Today i noticed, that i have been thinking about ways how to please my Owner almost permanently. I have spent already two afternoons writing an erotic story for Her. I already wrote one part for the Farm Assignment and Domina told me that She got wet while reading it. She even allowed me to beg for a pair of Her panties, one She has cum in, while we were talking on Saturday, so i want to send Her a continuation of the story when i beg Her.
This evening, i had an amazing call with Lady Helena. I had mounted an electromagnet to the headboard of my head and fixed a set of cuffs to a metal-plate. Lady Helena could turn it on and off remotely and with my feet cuffed to the foot of my bed, i would be totally helpless for Her.
Before we started our call, She instructed me to cuff my feet and put clamps on my nipples and another on the skin between my balls.
After talking a bit, She had me cuff my hands, too and then She activated the magnet, rendering me totally helpless. She started to hypnotize me and guided me to Her chamber that i already knew from Her recordings. But then, the sound suddenly stopped. I remained still at first, but when the sound didn't come back, i opened my eyes and saw Her offline. I panicked a bit, although i was sure, that i'd be able to break free at the costs of damaging my headboard. I began to search for another way out and quickly found, that i could reach the cable. Shortly after ripping it out and releasing myself, Lady Helena was back online and calling again. We had to improvise now without the magnet working and to be honest, this was even better than what we had planned.
I had told Lady Helena about a pair of very nasty nipple-clamps i have. I only tried them twice and their bite is so nasty that i couldn't stand it for more than a few seconds. They scare me, but knowing that She might use them made me as excited as it made me nervous.
She told me to put them on and that i'd need to beg Her if i wanted them off. I was frightened, but obeyed. The pain set in immediately and it didn't take long until i started to beg. But Lady Helena let me suffer, telling me that i wasn't really begging yet and when She said "you like that, don't you?" i had to agree.
Two minutes later, i was seriously begging, but still, hearing Lady Helena laugh turned me on. My memories are a bit blurry from this point on, but i know, that She said, that it's already been 5 minutes. I'm not sure if She released me after saying that or a bit later, but when She finally did, i was relieved, although taking the clamps of hurt even more than wearing them.
She didn't give me much of a break and when She told me to put them on again, my heart sank a bit. I think, i put them a little more on the tip of my nipples, because this time, they hurt even more. Lady Helena allowed me to stroke this time while saying my mantra and this helped a bit, but i was soon begging again. Maybe She didn't keep me begging as long as before, maybe it felt shorter because i had a little distraction, but taking the clamps of sent an even stronger wave of pain through my nipples. I was not sure if i wanted another round, but did i have a choice?
Again, Lady Helena gave me only a short break before the clamps went back on. This time, She used the playground trigger that makes me bark and every time i did, the movement of my chest caused the clamps to bite into my nipples. Being in puppy-mode meant that i couldn't beg and so i tried to communicate and beg by barking. Lady Helena counted down 3 minutes and having a target helped me a lot, although it felt like the clamps had pierced my skin (turned out they hadn't).
After this round, Lady Helena told me to get 3 ice-cubes. Two of them went into my ass and with the 3rd, i was allowed to ease the pain in my nipples a bit. It helped a lot, but i was scared, that the clamps might also hurt a lot more afterwards. Luckily, Lady Helena released me and we agreed to try out original session next Tuesday.
After we ended our call, i was feeling euphoric. Being pushed further than i've gone before had released so much adrenaline, that it took me a while until i was able to think straight again. I wrote Lady Helena an email, because i hadn't been able to express my gratitude for this experience properly while i was still in that state of euphoric bliss. I also told Her about another way of torture that i can't stand for long... maybe she'll use that information, i would certainly be happy to suffer for Her again.
But there's more to this file... Domina wrote, that there's a secret message hidden inside. I listened on Sunday, but didn't find any message, i didn't even feel like i had been very deep in trance.
Today i noticed, that i have been thinking about ways how to please my Owner almost permanently. I have spent already two afternoons writing an erotic story for Her. I already wrote one part for the Farm Assignment and Domina told me that She got wet while reading it. She even allowed me to beg for a pair of Her panties, one She has cum in, while we were talking on Saturday, so i want to send Her a continuation of the story when i beg Her.
This evening, i had an amazing call with Lady Helena. I had mounted an electromagnet to the headboard of my head and fixed a set of cuffs to a metal-plate. Lady Helena could turn it on and off remotely and with my feet cuffed to the foot of my bed, i would be totally helpless for Her.
Before we started our call, She instructed me to cuff my feet and put clamps on my nipples and another on the skin between my balls.
After talking a bit, She had me cuff my hands, too and then She activated the magnet, rendering me totally helpless. She started to hypnotize me and guided me to Her chamber that i already knew from Her recordings. But then, the sound suddenly stopped. I remained still at first, but when the sound didn't come back, i opened my eyes and saw Her offline. I panicked a bit, although i was sure, that i'd be able to break free at the costs of damaging my headboard. I began to search for another way out and quickly found, that i could reach the cable. Shortly after ripping it out and releasing myself, Lady Helena was back online and calling again. We had to improvise now without the magnet working and to be honest, this was even better than what we had planned.
She told me to put them on and that i'd need to beg Her if i wanted them off. I was frightened, but obeyed. The pain set in immediately and it didn't take long until i started to beg. But Lady Helena let me suffer, telling me that i wasn't really begging yet and when She said "you like that, don't you?" i had to agree.
Two minutes later, i was seriously begging, but still, hearing Lady Helena laugh turned me on. My memories are a bit blurry from this point on, but i know, that She said, that it's already been 5 minutes. I'm not sure if She released me after saying that or a bit later, but when She finally did, i was relieved, although taking the clamps of hurt even more than wearing them.
She didn't give me much of a break and when She told me to put them on again, my heart sank a bit. I think, i put them a little more on the tip of my nipples, because this time, they hurt even more. Lady Helena allowed me to stroke this time while saying my mantra and this helped a bit, but i was soon begging again. Maybe She didn't keep me begging as long as before, maybe it felt shorter because i had a little distraction, but taking the clamps of sent an even stronger wave of pain through my nipples. I was not sure if i wanted another round, but did i have a choice?
Again, Lady Helena gave me only a short break before the clamps went back on. This time, She used the playground trigger that makes me bark and every time i did, the movement of my chest caused the clamps to bite into my nipples. Being in puppy-mode meant that i couldn't beg and so i tried to communicate and beg by barking. Lady Helena counted down 3 minutes and having a target helped me a lot, although it felt like the clamps had pierced my skin (turned out they hadn't).
After this round, Lady Helena told me to get 3 ice-cubes. Two of them went into my ass and with the 3rd, i was allowed to ease the pain in my nipples a bit. It helped a lot, but i was scared, that the clamps might also hurt a lot more afterwards. Luckily, Lady Helena released me and we agreed to try out original session next Tuesday.
After we ended our call, i was feeling euphoric. Being pushed further than i've gone before had released so much adrenaline, that it took me a while until i was able to think straight again. I wrote Lady Helena an email, because i hadn't been able to express my gratitude for this experience properly while i was still in that state of euphoric bliss. I also told Her about another way of torture that i can't stand for long... maybe she'll use that information, i would certainly be happy to suffer for Her again.
What a day!
Sometimes there are days, that feel like a milestone in my submission to my beloved Owner. Yesterday was one of them...
In the early afternoon, when i finally could be sure to be undisturbed, i started by listening to Blind Dominance. I had listened to this file already, but back then, i was in chastity and couldn't follow through with the instructions.
In this file, Domina Shelle describes a fantasy, where She sneaks into my life and at one point, She instructed me to stroke. But there was a twist... the hornier i got, the slower i had to stroke. Even though i had no intention to cum when i started listening, i was so turned on and frustrated by the end of the file, that i was eager to follow the final instructions. Domina instructed me to speed up stroking while Her voice faded away and the file ended. She said, that I'd be unable to stop until i came... i still didn't want to cum at that point, but i had no choice...
While i was still stroking after the file had ended, i started to think about another assignment for today. Domina had described a scene, where She sit's on Her bed and i kneel between Her legs. She wanted me to fantasize about what would happen next, write it down and send it to Her. I was in the perfect mood to do this and my fantasies were all about how She'd use this situation to tease and frustrate me. While i was denied in my fantasy, in reality, i had no choice, but to continue stroking until i came.
Later in the evening, i had a call with Domina Shelle. We were going to unwrap our packages from the shopping-spree we had done a while ago. I regretted a bit having cum earlier, because i wanted to be horny for Her, but hearing Her voice immediately fixed that. Within seconds, i was so horny again, that i could barely control my hands. Luckily, She didn't let me wait long and let me stroke. But when She asked me, whether i wanted to cum, i begged Her to deny me. And that's what She did... i'm not going to cum without Her explicit permission and this will not be before Christmas...
Domina was first to open Her packages. Hearing the joy in Her voice as She unpacked Her new shoes and panties brought a huge smile on my face and made me feel extremely happy!
Then it was my turn. I got three pairs of panties, one red, one turquoise and a pink one with attached garters. And i also got two pairs of stockings, black and brown.
I told my Owner, that i was going to wear the panties with the garters and stockings to bed and that i was planning to tie myself up while listening to some of Her sessions.
She liked the idea, knowing how horny this would make me and asked me, if i had already decided on a file. I hadn't and so i asked Her for a suggestion. She not only chose a session for me, but She sent me even four files! Two of them were completely new to me and one is a remastered version of a file i have. She is so generous!!!
After we finished our call, i began to prepare a set of medical restraints to tie myself up with. Initially i had planned to use a time-release, but Domina's playlist was 3 and a half hours long and i knew, that i wouldn't be able to lay on my back with little ability to shift position for that long. So i kept the magnetic key in reach and started listening.
The restraints must have helped me to go deep into trance, because i can't remember a thing of the first session, not even the induction. I only knew, that i woke up at some point and needed to move badly. I'm used to sleep on my side and couldn't stand lying on my back any more. So i released myself and continued listening. I was gone again immediately and woke up much later in the night, with the playlist still running on loop.
As Domina Shelle had predicted, i was super-horny, but only half awake and so, i fell back to sleep immediately after removing the headphones. The rest of my night was filled with very kinky dreams. I remember very little details, just that there was some toilet-slavery involved, but when i woke up, i felt a burning arousal. I love it, when Domina's plan comes together...
In the early afternoon, when i finally could be sure to be undisturbed, i started by listening to Blind Dominance. I had listened to this file already, but back then, i was in chastity and couldn't follow through with the instructions.
In this file, Domina Shelle describes a fantasy, where She sneaks into my life and at one point, She instructed me to stroke. But there was a twist... the hornier i got, the slower i had to stroke. Even though i had no intention to cum when i started listening, i was so turned on and frustrated by the end of the file, that i was eager to follow the final instructions. Domina instructed me to speed up stroking while Her voice faded away and the file ended. She said, that I'd be unable to stop until i came... i still didn't want to cum at that point, but i had no choice...
While i was still stroking after the file had ended, i started to think about another assignment for today. Domina had described a scene, where She sit's on Her bed and i kneel between Her legs. She wanted me to fantasize about what would happen next, write it down and send it to Her. I was in the perfect mood to do this and my fantasies were all about how She'd use this situation to tease and frustrate me. While i was denied in my fantasy, in reality, i had no choice, but to continue stroking until i came.
Later in the evening, i had a call with Domina Shelle. We were going to unwrap our packages from the shopping-spree we had done a while ago. I regretted a bit having cum earlier, because i wanted to be horny for Her, but hearing Her voice immediately fixed that. Within seconds, i was so horny again, that i could barely control my hands. Luckily, She didn't let me wait long and let me stroke. But when She asked me, whether i wanted to cum, i begged Her to deny me. And that's what She did... i'm not going to cum without Her explicit permission and this will not be before Christmas...
Domina was first to open Her packages. Hearing the joy in Her voice as She unpacked Her new shoes and panties brought a huge smile on my face and made me feel extremely happy!
Then it was my turn. I got three pairs of panties, one red, one turquoise and a pink one with attached garters. And i also got two pairs of stockings, black and brown.
I told my Owner, that i was going to wear the panties with the garters and stockings to bed and that i was planning to tie myself up while listening to some of Her sessions.
She liked the idea, knowing how horny this would make me and asked me, if i had already decided on a file. I hadn't and so i asked Her for a suggestion. She not only chose a session for me, but She sent me even four files! Two of them were completely new to me and one is a remastered version of a file i have. She is so generous!!!
After we finished our call, i began to prepare a set of medical restraints to tie myself up with. Initially i had planned to use a time-release, but Domina's playlist was 3 and a half hours long and i knew, that i wouldn't be able to lay on my back with little ability to shift position for that long. So i kept the magnetic key in reach and started listening.
The restraints must have helped me to go deep into trance, because i can't remember a thing of the first session, not even the induction. I only knew, that i woke up at some point and needed to move badly. I'm used to sleep on my side and couldn't stand lying on my back any more. So i released myself and continued listening. I was gone again immediately and woke up much later in the night, with the playlist still running on loop.
As Domina Shelle had predicted, i was super-horny, but only half awake and so, i fell back to sleep immediately after removing the headphones. The rest of my night was filled with very kinky dreams. I remember very little details, just that there was some toilet-slavery involved, but when i woke up, i felt a burning arousal. I love it, when Domina's plan comes together...
Blue balled
The Farm Assignment kept me pretty busy today. When i returned home from work, i quickly had some dinner and then started with listening to Mistress of Minds. It's a strong brainwashing file as well as a very erotic fantasy.
After being taken into trance, i found myself at a beautiful beach, still being taken deeper and deeper by the sound of the sea as the story unfolded. It continued with me finding and old lamp in the sand and when i rubbed the sand off it, the Mistress of the lamp appeared.
I'm not going to tell anything about what happened next, because this would spoil some of the surprise, but toward the end, i found myself lying on a bed, experiencing an intense rush of pleasure.
My whole body was trembling, almost on the edge of orgasm while i was repeating what Domina told me. She kept me there until i thought, i wouldn't be able to take it any second longer. Then She finally began to count and when She reached the number 3, i had a mind orgasm like never before. I hadn't touched at all during the session, but this orgasm was more intense then any full orgasm i have had before.
My perception of time was distorted at that point, but i think, that i lay there, twitching in pleasure, for at least 20 seconds. This experience felt like having multiple orgasms at once, just without ejaculating. When Domina Shelle started to wake me up, i didn't want to leave. I wanted to stay in that blissful post-orgasmic state and i couldn't follow Her pace of counting me up from sleep. I had to literally shake it off to be able to return to my normal live, or how She called it, the illusion of it.
Another task for today was to keep my cock hard for at least 60 minutes, in four sessions of 15 minutes, while thinking and fantasizing about things, Domina had prescribed. I wished, i had started with that before listening, this would have allowed for a longer break between sessions, but so, i had to do all of them with only short beaks in between. Domina had only allowed an edge at the end of the last session and so, i only stroked fast enough to keep my cock hard during the first 15 minutes.
During the next two sessions, i could not stand the slow stroking and i had to go faster, always being careful, not to get close to the edge. I took a little longer break before the last session and started slow again, carefully getting myself to the edge during the 15 minutes. Domina had allowed me to choose, what to do next. When i read this instruction, i had decided, not to cum, because my last orgasm was just a week ago and i'm just back to an aroused and submissive state. But while i was stroking, i felt that urge to just do that few fast strokes more and let the tension out, but i managed to resist.
Needless to say, that i was quite blue-balled after having that intense mind-orgasm and stroking for more than an hour, but that's what i love my Owner for. Without Her guidance, i would never be able to experience these prolonged heights of pleasure. She has helped me so much to develop my self-control. Thank You, Domina Shelle!
After being taken into trance, i found myself at a beautiful beach, still being taken deeper and deeper by the sound of the sea as the story unfolded. It continued with me finding and old lamp in the sand and when i rubbed the sand off it, the Mistress of the lamp appeared.
I'm not going to tell anything about what happened next, because this would spoil some of the surprise, but toward the end, i found myself lying on a bed, experiencing an intense rush of pleasure.
My whole body was trembling, almost on the edge of orgasm while i was repeating what Domina told me. She kept me there until i thought, i wouldn't be able to take it any second longer. Then She finally began to count and when She reached the number 3, i had a mind orgasm like never before. I hadn't touched at all during the session, but this orgasm was more intense then any full orgasm i have had before.
My perception of time was distorted at that point, but i think, that i lay there, twitching in pleasure, for at least 20 seconds. This experience felt like having multiple orgasms at once, just without ejaculating. When Domina Shelle started to wake me up, i didn't want to leave. I wanted to stay in that blissful post-orgasmic state and i couldn't follow Her pace of counting me up from sleep. I had to literally shake it off to be able to return to my normal live, or how She called it, the illusion of it.
Another task for today was to keep my cock hard for at least 60 minutes, in four sessions of 15 minutes, while thinking and fantasizing about things, Domina had prescribed. I wished, i had started with that before listening, this would have allowed for a longer break between sessions, but so, i had to do all of them with only short beaks in between. Domina had only allowed an edge at the end of the last session and so, i only stroked fast enough to keep my cock hard during the first 15 minutes.
During the next two sessions, i could not stand the slow stroking and i had to go faster, always being careful, not to get close to the edge. I took a little longer break before the last session and started slow again, carefully getting myself to the edge during the 15 minutes. Domina had allowed me to choose, what to do next. When i read this instruction, i had decided, not to cum, because my last orgasm was just a week ago and i'm just back to an aroused and submissive state. But while i was stroking, i felt that urge to just do that few fast strokes more and let the tension out, but i managed to resist.
Needless to say, that i was quite blue-balled after having that intense mind-orgasm and stroking for more than an hour, but that's what i love my Owner for. Without Her guidance, i would never be able to experience these prolonged heights of pleasure. She has helped me so much to develop my self-control. Thank You, Domina Shelle!
Farm Assignment
Domina Shelle has released a new Farm Assignment. I had been looking forward to it, since She had announced it. Like the previous times, there are several small assignments for each day, as well as one or more files to listen to.
One of today's files was part 8 of Shelle's School for men, one of the few chastity recordings that I didn't know already. I lay down in the evening and listened and after the induction had taken me down deeply, a bell rang and it was time to be taught by my sexy teacher.
I don't recall exactly, in which order things happened, but at one point, Domina told me to stroke while counting up to 10. With each number, i got closer to the edge, expecting to be allowed to cum on 10, but then, Domina told me to stop at the last moment. I had expected that a bit initially, but while counting, She made me get the impression, that She would let me cum before locking me in chastity. She did that a second time later and once again, She managed to light some hope to be allowed to cum while She was counting.
While Domina was talking about chastity and the effects it has on a slave, it felt, like She was reading my mind. I had experienced exactly what she described after She had allowed me to cum last week. Feeling less obedient, being lazy and craving to be denied more. It had taken me a few days until I was fully back to 'slave-mode' and listening to this recording came at the perfect time.
Of course, She didn't wake me up without locking me in mental chastity. Like several times before, I'll be unable to stroke my cock without permission for the next week, but there's one addition this time... whenever I will touch my cock, i will be counting up to 30 fast and then let go of it. So, whenever i will use the bathroom or shower, i will be reminded of my virtual chastity cage.
This has been an awesome start into my week on Domina Shelle's Farm and I'm looking forward for what's to come...!
One of today's files was part 8 of Shelle's School for men, one of the few chastity recordings that I didn't know already. I lay down in the evening and listened and after the induction had taken me down deeply, a bell rang and it was time to be taught by my sexy teacher.
I don't recall exactly, in which order things happened, but at one point, Domina told me to stroke while counting up to 10. With each number, i got closer to the edge, expecting to be allowed to cum on 10, but then, Domina told me to stop at the last moment. I had expected that a bit initially, but while counting, She made me get the impression, that She would let me cum before locking me in chastity. She did that a second time later and once again, She managed to light some hope to be allowed to cum while She was counting.
While Domina was talking about chastity and the effects it has on a slave, it felt, like She was reading my mind. I had experienced exactly what she described after She had allowed me to cum last week. Feeling less obedient, being lazy and craving to be denied more. It had taken me a few days until I was fully back to 'slave-mode' and listening to this recording came at the perfect time.
Of course, She didn't wake me up without locking me in mental chastity. Like several times before, I'll be unable to stroke my cock without permission for the next week, but there's one addition this time... whenever I will touch my cock, i will be counting up to 30 fast and then let go of it. So, whenever i will use the bathroom or shower, i will be reminded of my virtual chastity cage.
This has been an awesome start into my week on Domina Shelle's Farm and I'm looking forward for what's to come...!
Feet and nylons
Saturday, time for a new session! Domina Shelle had already teased me a bit about it, but She didn't tell much about the content. When i read the description of Addiction Therapy, the words feet and nylons instantly doubled my interest.
The induction was very familiar from previous sessions and so, it took me into trance very quickly. At one point, it felt like when you are tired and slowly drift off into sleep and then suddenly snap back into reality and then i was back again on the white leather couch of my sexy therapist. She placed such sexy images of Her nylon-covered feet into my mind, if i hadn't had a fetish for feet and nylons already, i would have one now.
Domina had instructed, that before listening, i should decide whether i would cum or only edge and this made me believe, that there would be stroking instructions during the session, but i either was so deep that i missed them,or there were none. However, Domina Shelles description of how She would press Her feet into my face and my crotch brought me close to the edge without touching and i would have had a powerful mind-orgasm if i hadn't decided to only edge... i did regret that a bit in this moment...
After waking up, the images of feet and nylons remained in my mind. I took a pair of Domina's worn pantyhose and rubbed them onto my face, smelling them and this brought my thoughts back to the session. Next time i listen, i will have them close by, i'm sure,this will make the experience even better...
The induction was very familiar from previous sessions and so, it took me into trance very quickly. At one point, it felt like when you are tired and slowly drift off into sleep and then suddenly snap back into reality and then i was back again on the white leather couch of my sexy therapist. She placed such sexy images of Her nylon-covered feet into my mind, if i hadn't had a fetish for feet and nylons already, i would have one now.
Domina had instructed, that before listening, i should decide whether i would cum or only edge and this made me believe, that there would be stroking instructions during the session, but i either was so deep that i missed them,or there were none. However, Domina Shelles description of how She would press Her feet into my face and my crotch brought me close to the edge without touching and i would have had a powerful mind-orgasm if i hadn't decided to only edge... i did regret that a bit in this moment...
After waking up, the images of feet and nylons remained in my mind. I took a pair of Domina's worn pantyhose and rubbed them onto my face, smelling them and this brought my thoughts back to the session. Next time i listen, i will have them close by, i'm sure,this will make the experience even better...
Permission to cum
My assignment ended yesterday night and i had been looking forward to be allowed to ask for permission to stroke. I had become pretty desperate, but i still enjoyed how this felt. I told my Owner about my feelings and that i would abide by Her every decision and this morning, i had a reply for Her. She allowed me to cum while listening to Her voice!
I couldn't wait to get home in the evening and as soon as i did, i put on my headphones and listened to Misdirected again. The session had already been awesome when i listened without stroking, but this time, it was even better. Stroking and cumming seemed to boost the effect of the amnesia suggestions, too. I had a wonderful orgasm while the file ended, but everything before is even blurrier than it was when i listened before...
I didn't take very long until i started to miss being horny. I begged Domina Shelle to be locked up again and i can't wait to start a new journey into chastity...
I couldn't wait to get home in the evening and as soon as i did, i put on my headphones and listened to Misdirected again. The session had already been awesome when i listened without stroking, but this time, it was even better. Stroking and cumming seemed to boost the effect of the amnesia suggestions, too. I had a wonderful orgasm while the file ended, but everything before is even blurrier than it was when i listened before...
I didn't take very long until i started to miss being horny. I begged Domina Shelle to be locked up again and i can't wait to start a new journey into chastity...
Guinea Pig
For the last couple of days, i have followed my assignment as close as possible. Each afternoon, when I returned home, I undressed, cleaned my shoes and put on my sissy clothes. From that moment on, i felt being under Domina's total control. With each day, my arousal increased, but i still had enough distraction to be able to stand it.
With the weekend starting this morning, these distractions were missing and when I woke up, still wearing panties and stockings, i almost couldn't stand it any more. i wanted to touch so badly and would have appreciated any sensation on my cock. My hand wandered down to my panties, but i couldn't slip it inside. While i knew what i wanted, it was like i was unable to translate it into actions. It's a strange feeling when you want to do something, but every time you try, your thoughts are stopping before you can act...
A while ago, Domina had asked for volunteers to be Her guinea pig and since them, i had been looking forward to this. Today, She released Indoctrination which is such a guinea pig session. She didn't give the slightest clue of the contents, but not knowing, what would happen made it even more exciting. She wrote, that She went into trance herself while recording it, so i was already expecting a very powerful session when i lay back and listened.
The induction took me deep as always and soon my body was relaxed and heavy. Looking back, i had also lost sense of time. With 77 minutes, the session is very long, so i guess, that at least half an hour had passed, but it felt like only a few minutes.
After the induction, powerful binaural sounds started to play and knocked me completely out. In a playful voice, Domina Shelle told me, that she would now play with my mind, making me realize, that i was helpless and at Her mercy. I got excited and horny and opened my mind for Her.
I don't recall much of what She did afterwards, but i know, that She strengthened Her control over me and after waking up, i could feel, that my submission and need to please Her had increased once again. I started to think about how lucky i am to be allowed to serve such a beautiful and powerful woman like my Owner and i almost got overwhelmed with emotions. She is putting so much effort into training Her slaves and since i'm serving Her, i have improved so much, not only as a slave, but also in my vanilla live. I'm feeling so happy, i can't thank Her enough...
With the weekend starting this morning, these distractions were missing and when I woke up, still wearing panties and stockings, i almost couldn't stand it any more. i wanted to touch so badly and would have appreciated any sensation on my cock. My hand wandered down to my panties, but i couldn't slip it inside. While i knew what i wanted, it was like i was unable to translate it into actions. It's a strange feeling when you want to do something, but every time you try, your thoughts are stopping before you can act...
A while ago, Domina had asked for volunteers to be Her guinea pig and since them, i had been looking forward to this. Today, She released Indoctrination which is such a guinea pig session. She didn't give the slightest clue of the contents, but not knowing, what would happen made it even more exciting. She wrote, that She went into trance herself while recording it, so i was already expecting a very powerful session when i lay back and listened.
The induction took me deep as always and soon my body was relaxed and heavy. Looking back, i had also lost sense of time. With 77 minutes, the session is very long, so i guess, that at least half an hour had passed, but it felt like only a few minutes.
After the induction, powerful binaural sounds started to play and knocked me completely out. In a playful voice, Domina Shelle told me, that she would now play with my mind, making me realize, that i was helpless and at Her mercy. I got excited and horny and opened my mind for Her.
I don't recall much of what She did afterwards, but i know, that She strengthened Her control over me and after waking up, i could feel, that my submission and need to please Her had increased once again. I started to think about how lucky i am to be allowed to serve such a beautiful and powerful woman like my Owner and i almost got overwhelmed with emotions. She is putting so much effort into training Her slaves and since i'm serving Her, i have improved so much, not only as a slave, but also in my vanilla live. I'm feeling so happy, i can't thank Her enough...
A new assignment
I woke up early and like I do every morning, I read the daily assignments and checked my emails. I was delighted to find a reply from my Owner. She was pleased with my report for the weekend-assignment, but She also told me, that She won't unlock me, yet. Instead, She gave me a new assignment for the next 7 days.
This one will keep me busier and even more focused than the last one. The biggest change is, that I'm not allowed to wear any male clothing at home, so I'll either have to be naked or in my sissy clothing.
Then, after these 7 days, I'll be allowed to beg and maybe Domina will let me cum...
Since it's close to Halloween, Domina also told me to give myself a puppy name and the first name is was thinking about was Paco. It turned out, that this was a good choice... Domina Shelle loves it since Her mom had a dog with the same name...
I think, She might be planning some kind of puppy-play for Halloween and there will also be a new Farm Assignment. I'm excited already, this will be a lot of fun for sure!
This one will keep me busier and even more focused than the last one. The biggest change is, that I'm not allowed to wear any male clothing at home, so I'll either have to be naked or in my sissy clothing.
Then, after these 7 days, I'll be allowed to beg and maybe Domina will let me cum...
Since it's close to Halloween, Domina also told me to give myself a puppy name and the first name is was thinking about was Paco. It turned out, that this was a good choice... Domina Shelle loves it since Her mom had a dog with the same name...
I think, She might be planning some kind of puppy-play for Halloween and there will also be a new Farm Assignment. I'm excited already, this will be a lot of fun for sure!
Total amnesia
My weekend-assignment ended on Sunday evening and I sent a report to my Owner this morning. I pondered a bit about asking for permission to stroke or edge, but since I had forgotten to do a few tasks of the assignment, I decided against. While I'm really desperate to stroke a bit, I also enjoy this feeling of being denied and I don't feel any desire to cum.
In the evening, I listened to Misdirected again. Even though I knew what was coming, most of the recording felt like I had never listened to it before. All the details seemed new and during the induction, I had the impression, that I wouldn't be able to wake up and stop what was happening, even if I had wanted to. I loved, how helpless this made me feel and realizing this helped me to fall even quicker.
After I woke up, it once again felt like there was a blockade in my mind, that prevented me to try and think about what had happened. It seemed like the memories were pushed farther away the more I tried to grasp them and soon, all the detail were gone.
I remember noticing something during the induction that I thought would be worth to write about and I actively tried to remember it, but now, I have no clue, what that was. It's feels awesome to be controlled like this and I love my Owner for this!
In the evening, I listened to Misdirected again. Even though I knew what was coming, most of the recording felt like I had never listened to it before. All the details seemed new and during the induction, I had the impression, that I wouldn't be able to wake up and stop what was happening, even if I had wanted to. I loved, how helpless this made me feel and realizing this helped me to fall even quicker.
After I woke up, it once again felt like there was a blockade in my mind, that prevented me to try and think about what had happened. It seemed like the memories were pushed farther away the more I tried to grasp them and soon, all the detail were gone.
I remember noticing something during the induction that I thought would be worth to write about and I actively tried to remember it, but now, I have no clue, what that was. It's feels awesome to be controlled like this and I love my Owner for this!
Misdirected
I had a surprise in my Inbox yesterday morning, an assignment from my Owner...
I was excited immediately, because in the past, Her assignments had always contained some stroking instructions, but She made it explicit, that I must not touch.
My tasks are not difficult or time-consuming, but they make sure, that I'll be thinking about Domina the whole weekend and after one day of doing the assignment, I can say, that not only does it keep my mind focused on Domina Shelle, it also allows me less distraction from chastity.
This afternoon, I listened to Domina's new session. Misdirected is different from the sessions I know. She used a confusion technique to take me into trance, saying things like 'don't focus on how relaxed you get'. Of course, trying not to focus did the opposite and without really noticing it, I was soon in a deep trance.
The next thing I remember is Domina erasing my memories about the session. It wasn't the first time, I have experienced amnesia suggestions, but I always had a rough idea of what She had done to me. This time is different... I don't even remember Her conditioning me in any way, but I'm sure She did... all i know is, that I'm thinking about ways to please my Owner even more now.
The session ended with stroking instructions, that I couldn't follow, but Her words brought me to the edge without touching.
It took a while to regain my senses after the session ended and I just lay there for a couple of minutes, suffering from my arousal and unable to think straight. Even if I can't remember much, I love how I felt afterwards and can't wait to listen again...
I was excited immediately, because in the past, Her assignments had always contained some stroking instructions, but She made it explicit, that I must not touch.
My tasks are not difficult or time-consuming, but they make sure, that I'll be thinking about Domina the whole weekend and after one day of doing the assignment, I can say, that not only does it keep my mind focused on Domina Shelle, it also allows me less distraction from chastity.
This afternoon, I listened to Domina's new session. Misdirected is different from the sessions I know. She used a confusion technique to take me into trance, saying things like 'don't focus on how relaxed you get'. Of course, trying not to focus did the opposite and without really noticing it, I was soon in a deep trance.
The next thing I remember is Domina erasing my memories about the session. It wasn't the first time, I have experienced amnesia suggestions, but I always had a rough idea of what She had done to me. This time is different... I don't even remember Her conditioning me in any way, but I'm sure She did... all i know is, that I'm thinking about ways to please my Owner even more now.
The session ended with stroking instructions, that I couldn't follow, but Her words brought me to the edge without touching.
It took a while to regain my senses after the session ended and I just lay there for a couple of minutes, suffering from my arousal and unable to think straight. Even if I can't remember much, I love how I felt afterwards and can't wait to listen again...
No release
Tuesday was a bank-holiday and I had used the free time to do my maid duties and clean thoroughly. Like every time, I took photos and send them to Domina Shelle for inspection. I was secretly hoping to get permission to stroke a bit as a reward for doing a good job.
When I checked my email on Wednesday morning, I had two from my Owner and I instantly got horny. But those emails were not related to my cleaning report... Domina Shelle informed me, that She hadn't received the package with the shoes and panties from our shopping-tour. I sorted out everything and took care, that She'll get replacements, but this means, that I'll have to wait even longer until we'll open our packages together. Every time I see mine, I feel like a kid before Christmas and want to open them!
This morning, I got Domina's reply to my cleaning report. She was pleased, but didn't mention anything about stroking. I wondered, if I should have begged, but came to the conclusion, that it would have been inappropriate after less than 2 weeks of chastity.
I'm really surprised, how much harder chastity is without a deadline! But I asked for it... it's funny, how I keep making the same 'mistake' and ask for things that stretch my limits a bit, although I never have regretted it really...
When I checked my email on Wednesday morning, I had two from my Owner and I instantly got horny. But those emails were not related to my cleaning report... Domina Shelle informed me, that She hadn't received the package with the shoes and panties from our shopping-tour. I sorted out everything and took care, that She'll get replacements, but this means, that I'll have to wait even longer until we'll open our packages together. Every time I see mine, I feel like a kid before Christmas and want to open them!
This morning, I got Domina's reply to my cleaning report. She was pleased, but didn't mention anything about stroking. I wondered, if I should have begged, but came to the conclusion, that it would have been inappropriate after less than 2 weeks of chastity.
I'm really surprised, how much harder chastity is without a deadline! But I asked for it... it's funny, how I keep making the same 'mistake' and ask for things that stretch my limits a bit, although I never have regretted it really...
Power of Hypnotic Control
I'm back in chastity for only a week, but I can already say, that I totally underestimated the effect of not having a deadline. It's a total game-changer and the uncertainty adds to my arousal. My beloved Owner could release me tomorrow, next week, in a month, I have no clue at all. But I love the effect, I'm feeling completely owned and powerless and I'm eager to please Domina, more than ever before, hoping I might be allowed some stroking as a reward...
Yesterday, She released the new recording for this week. It's called Power of Hypnotic Control and like the name suggests, it's a proof of Her power. The induction is a little different to what I'm used to. Domina uses ASMR to induce trance and somehow, Her whispers made it very easy to concentrate on Her words. I sometimes have difficulties concentrating and my thoughts drift off, but Her whispers somehow made me listen more closely and focused.
In addition, She woke me up a few times during the induction. On the first time, I woke up fully, but quickly started to drift back again, as She continued to speak. The other times, the line between trance and being awake was blurry and despite having my eyes open and being able to move, I think I was still fully under Domina Shelle's control.
In the second part of the recording, Domina spoke with Her normal voice and She began to tease me. Once more, I couldn't follow the stroking instructions due to being in chastity and I also missed the opportunity to cum. Instead, it only served to make me hornier.
I have to more free days ahead now and I really need to find some distraction or I'll go insane...
Yesterday, She released the new recording for this week. It's called Power of Hypnotic Control and like the name suggests, it's a proof of Her power. The induction is a little different to what I'm used to. Domina uses ASMR to induce trance and somehow, Her whispers made it very easy to concentrate on Her words. I sometimes have difficulties concentrating and my thoughts drift off, but Her whispers somehow made me listen more closely and focused.
In addition, She woke me up a few times during the induction. On the first time, I woke up fully, but quickly started to drift back again, as She continued to speak. The other times, the line between trance and being awake was blurry and despite having my eyes open and being able to move, I think I was still fully under Domina Shelle's control.
In the second part of the recording, Domina spoke with Her normal voice and She began to tease me. Once more, I couldn't follow the stroking instructions due to being in chastity and I also missed the opportunity to cum. Instead, it only served to make me hornier.
I have to more free days ahead now and I really need to find some distraction or I'll go insane...
Slave's live
Domina Shelle's new session is titled My slaves's live. Like the title suggests, it outlines the things, She expects from Her slaves and it is a great guideline for Her subjects. I only had time to listen once so far and I need to listen again to fully understand the power of this file, but one listen was already enough to boost my submissive feelings and love for my Owner.
In the evening, I received an email from Domina Shelle. She informed me, that I'm locked in chastity again for Her, but this time, She didn't tell me, how long it would be. Last time, having a deadline helped me a lot, but having none adds an additional thrill. I could feel an incredible excitement from the very moment I read Her decision and it didn't cease until now. I have interesting days coming...
In the evening, I received an email from Domina Shelle. She informed me, that I'm locked in chastity again for Her, but this time, She didn't tell me, how long it would be. Last time, having a deadline helped me a lot, but having none adds an additional thrill. I could feel an incredible excitement from the very moment I read Her decision and it didn't cease until now. I have interesting days coming...
Tricked myself
The last four days of listening to Eruption have brought me into a state of constant burning arousal, that I have never experienced before. My first thought when coming home in the evening was to listen and get a chance to stroke and I spent most of my free time doing that.
Today was the 5th day and as much as I was looking forward to being allowed to cum and end this torture, I decided to listen without cumming first and save that up for bedtime. So I spent the evening listening and stroking a couple of times, like the days before.
I went to bed a bit earlier than usual, put on my headphones and started the recording. Something felt different, but I pushed that thought aside and continued to listen and relax. After a while, it occurred to me... I had started Brain Fried without thinking about it! It was already close to the point where Domina would lock my cock up and I stopped the file immediately. Without waking up too much, I switched to the right file and soon, I was deep in trance again.
Finally, when Domina instructed me to stroke, my cock felt numb. Despite all my arousal, I was almost unable to get to the edge and without my Owner repeating 'cum for me', I wouldn't have been able to...
In the end, it felt very strange, not the overwhelming eruption I had been looking forward to and not the relief of arousal that I would have needed. While probably not being the effect that Domina had intended, I'm partly happy about what happened. I still feel part of the pent up arousal and can go back into chastity in this state. And begging my Owner to be locked up again is what I did afterwards...
Today was the 5th day and as much as I was looking forward to being allowed to cum and end this torture, I decided to listen without cumming first and save that up for bedtime. So I spent the evening listening and stroking a couple of times, like the days before.
I went to bed a bit earlier than usual, put on my headphones and started the recording. Something felt different, but I pushed that thought aside and continued to listen and relax. After a while, it occurred to me... I had started Brain Fried without thinking about it! It was already close to the point where Domina would lock my cock up and I stopped the file immediately. Without waking up too much, I switched to the right file and soon, I was deep in trance again.
Finally, when Domina instructed me to stroke, my cock felt numb. Despite all my arousal, I was almost unable to get to the edge and without my Owner repeating 'cum for me', I wouldn't have been able to...
In the end, it felt very strange, not the overwhelming eruption I had been looking forward to and not the relief of arousal that I would have needed. While probably not being the effect that Domina had intended, I'm partly happy about what happened. I still feel part of the pent up arousal and can go back into chastity in this state. And begging my Owner to be locked up again is what I did afterwards...
Teased insane
I already imagined, that four days of listening to Eruption would get hard when I first listened, but I had no idea. I started my day like most Sundays, sleeping long and having a cup of coffee on the sofa, but today, it didn't take long until my arousal kicked in and I couldn't help, but listen to the session and stroke. If I would have had enough time, I would have listened again for sure, but I was visiting family today, so I had to hurry up and eat and shower before leaving.
When I got back in the evening, I could think of nothing else, but putting on my headphones and slipping into the blissful sexy trance, that Domina Shelle provides. This time, I set the file on loop and I listened again and again until I couldn't take it any more. When I finally stopped, more than 3 hours had passed and it was almost time to go to bed. My cock was sore, but I was still horny and felt an urge to stroke.
This have been only the first 24 hours of this insane tease and it's already way harder than I thought. How can I survive this? I'm going to go nuts!
When I got back in the evening, I could think of nothing else, but putting on my headphones and slipping into the blissful sexy trance, that Domina Shelle provides. This time, I set the file on loop and I listened again and again until I couldn't take it any more. When I finally stopped, more than 3 hours had passed and it was almost time to go to bed. My cock was sore, but I was still horny and felt an urge to stroke.
This have been only the first 24 hours of this insane tease and it's already way harder than I thought. How can I survive this? I'm going to go nuts!
Forced to be horny
Domina Shelle's new file is called Eruption. Judging from the title, I was expecting a hot teasing session with a happy ending, but Domina always has a surprise up Her sleeve and this time was no exception.
The session started with Her talking about brainwashing while She was taking me into trance and soon, She also started to talk about being horny. It didn't take long, before I was at a point where I thought, I might erupt any moment and since Domina hadn't mentioned stroking, I started to expect to either be denied touching or made to cum hands-free.
I knew, that I was wrong, when She allowed me to stroke and I was so overwhelmed with arousal, that I only barely understood, how wicked the instructions that were about to follow are.
It's very simple... listening to this session will make me horny and being horny will make me crave to listen again. I will be caught in this vicious cycle for four full days without being able to cum and only on the fifth day, I'll obey the cum-command that's embedded into the session.
The session contained no wake up command, but as soon as it ended, I automatically pressed play again. This time, I was already so horny, that I got close to the edge a couple of times. But each time I did, I blanked out completely and when I regained senses some moments later, I realized, that I had stopped stroking and the whole cycle started again.
By the end of the session, I was dying to cum and I had to force myself not to listen another time, because I still had chores to do. I remained horny the rest of the day and couldn't help, but listen again in the evening. I'm feeling so helpless, being caught in Domina's web of teasing and forced to torture myself with arousal...
The session started with Her talking about brainwashing while She was taking me into trance and soon, She also started to talk about being horny. It didn't take long, before I was at a point where I thought, I might erupt any moment and since Domina hadn't mentioned stroking, I started to expect to either be denied touching or made to cum hands-free.
I knew, that I was wrong, when She allowed me to stroke and I was so overwhelmed with arousal, that I only barely understood, how wicked the instructions that were about to follow are.
It's very simple... listening to this session will make me horny and being horny will make me crave to listen again. I will be caught in this vicious cycle for four full days without being able to cum and only on the fifth day, I'll obey the cum-command that's embedded into the session.
The session contained no wake up command, but as soon as it ended, I automatically pressed play again. This time, I was already so horny, that I got close to the edge a couple of times. But each time I did, I blanked out completely and when I regained senses some moments later, I realized, that I had stopped stroking and the whole cycle started again.
By the end of the session, I was dying to cum and I had to force myself not to listen another time, because I still had chores to do. I remained horny the rest of the day and couldn't help, but listen again in the evening. I'm feeling so helpless, being caught in Domina's web of teasing and forced to torture myself with arousal...
Shopping with Domina Shelle
The first days back in chastity are always hard and the last few days have not been an exception. It's like my body is reminded of the pleasures i'm denied from.
I had invited Domina Shelle for a virtual shopping-trip and this evening, the time had come. I was excited the whole evening and the moment i saw Her go online in Skype, it was like a trigger and my cock went hard instantly. After a short chat, She told me to mantra until She'd call and when She finally did, I was already in a light trance, ready to spoil Her.
As we exchanged links to sexy panties and shoes, She didn't miss the opportunity to tease me by telling me, how sexy they would look on Her. We soon had a couple of panties and two pairs of high-heels in the shopping-cart for Her and we also found some panties and stockings for me. I was now extremely horny, but i thought, that asking for permission to stroke would be selfish as this call was all about pleasing my Owner.
We both have some sexy clothing on the way now, but Domina forbid me to open the package when it arrives. When we both have received our packages, we'll talk again and open them together. This is awesome and somehow it feels like before Christmas...
After finishing the shopping, Domina told me about the outfit for Her next photo-shoot and She showed me the boots that She'll be wearing. OMG, so sexy!!! Thigh-high denim boots with open toes... She started to talk about how I'd kneel at Her feet and kiss Her toes and before I realized what was happening, She had me in trance and stroking. She wanted me to cum, but even with permission and being so horny, I had to put effort into it. It's an effect of Her training and I'm convinced, that if I'd try to cum without permission, it would be impossible...
I had invited Domina Shelle for a virtual shopping-trip and this evening, the time had come. I was excited the whole evening and the moment i saw Her go online in Skype, it was like a trigger and my cock went hard instantly. After a short chat, She told me to mantra until She'd call and when She finally did, I was already in a light trance, ready to spoil Her.
As we exchanged links to sexy panties and shoes, She didn't miss the opportunity to tease me by telling me, how sexy they would look on Her. We soon had a couple of panties and two pairs of high-heels in the shopping-cart for Her and we also found some panties and stockings for me. I was now extremely horny, but i thought, that asking for permission to stroke would be selfish as this call was all about pleasing my Owner.
We both have some sexy clothing on the way now, but Domina forbid me to open the package when it arrives. When we both have received our packages, we'll talk again and open them together. This is awesome and somehow it feels like before Christmas...
After finishing the shopping, Domina told me about the outfit for Her next photo-shoot and She showed me the boots that She'll be wearing. OMG, so sexy!!! Thigh-high denim boots with open toes... She started to talk about how I'd kneel at Her feet and kiss Her toes and before I realized what was happening, She had me in trance and stroking. She wanted me to cum, but even with permission and being so horny, I had to put effort into it. It's an effect of Her training and I'm convinced, that if I'd try to cum without permission, it would be impossible...
Teased and tortured
Today, I had a call with Lady Helena again, where She controlled my spanking-machine and my Lovense Hush butt-plug. Like last time, She read a sexy story from me and triggered the spanking-machine according to the story line and also used the butt-plug a bit.
Domina Shelle had allowed Her to unlock me temporarily for our call, so this time, I was able to follow through with all the instructions and really immerse into the story. At first, She let me stroke and stop repeatedly and occasionally delivered a spank and once the story came to the point, where the slave came without permission, I was really turned on, no wonder after 5 weeks without any touching...
The story continued with the slave getting punished and I received 18 strokes simultaneously while counting them out loud. Afterwards, Lady Helena instructed me to stroke and cum, while She was spanking me fast and without much break. I was soon moaning from pleasure and pain, but the spanking was distracting me and I wasn't sure, if I would be able to cum. But Lady Helena continued spanking and at the same time She was encouraging me to cum. I lost a bit track at that point, but I think, She used some triggers, because suddenly, I felt the orgasm cumming and due to my long denial and the pain, the feeling was sensational.
I felt euphoric and it took me a moment to regain my senses and be able to talk. I can't wait to do that again! Lady Helena put me back into chastity afterwards, She said, She doesn't know, what plans Domina Shelle has, but whatever She has in store for me, I know, that I will love it...
Domina Shelle had allowed Her to unlock me temporarily for our call, so this time, I was able to follow through with all the instructions and really immerse into the story. At first, She let me stroke and stop repeatedly and occasionally delivered a spank and once the story came to the point, where the slave came without permission, I was really turned on, no wonder after 5 weeks without any touching...
The story continued with the slave getting punished and I received 18 strokes simultaneously while counting them out loud. Afterwards, Lady Helena instructed me to stroke and cum, while She was spanking me fast and without much break. I was soon moaning from pleasure and pain, but the spanking was distracting me and I wasn't sure, if I would be able to cum. But Lady Helena continued spanking and at the same time She was encouraging me to cum. I lost a bit track at that point, but I think, She used some triggers, because suddenly, I felt the orgasm cumming and due to my long denial and the pain, the feeling was sensational.
I felt euphoric and it took me a moment to regain my senses and be able to talk. I can't wait to do that again! Lady Helena put me back into chastity afterwards, She said, She doesn't know, what plans Domina Shelle has, but whatever She has in store for me, I know, that I will love it...
Combination of triggers
Today started rather uneventful and I was already getting ready to leave work for a lazy evening at home, when things suddenly changed. Before turning off my computer, I checked Twitter one last time and found a new tweet from Domina Shelle. This one was packed with triggers, starting with the trigger from Brain Fried, which locks me in Her hypnotic chastity cage. Next, She used the trigger, that makes me bark and activated the brainchip implants for obedience and sissy-mode.
So there I was, sitting at my desk and feeling an overwhelming urge to bark and dress up. I hurried to get out of the office and as soon as the elevator doors closed, I couldn't hold back any longer and barked.
When I got home, the first thing was to get dressed in a dress, pantyhose and high-heels. All this made me super horny, but the chastity trigger didn't even let me have a desire to stroke. Together with the implant activation, this is a devious combination!
While having dinner, I received two more emails from my Owner. In the first one, She thanked me for paying for Her hair-appointment. She had instructed me to do that yesterday as part of my volunteer-agreement. I had also begged Her to allow Lady Helena to unlock me temporarily during our call tomorrow, but in the second email, She only told me, that She'll talk about it with Lady Helena.
So I'm now sitting here and have no clue, what will happen tomorrow. Lady Helena will have remote-control over my spanking-machine, a dog shock-collar and my vibrating buttplug and She already told me, that She'll drive me insane, but I had counted on being allowed to stroke and this helped me to survive the last weeks of chastity. Now it could as well be, that my 5 weeks of chastity are extended by an unknown duration. This doesn't help with my arousal at all, I'm horny beyond belief now and I'll go to bed early, with a playlist of Domina's files and hope to fall asleep early, maybe have some sexy dreams...
So there I was, sitting at my desk and feeling an overwhelming urge to bark and dress up. I hurried to get out of the office and as soon as the elevator doors closed, I couldn't hold back any longer and barked.
When I got home, the first thing was to get dressed in a dress, pantyhose and high-heels. All this made me super horny, but the chastity trigger didn't even let me have a desire to stroke. Together with the implant activation, this is a devious combination!
While having dinner, I received two more emails from my Owner. In the first one, She thanked me for paying for Her hair-appointment. She had instructed me to do that yesterday as part of my volunteer-agreement. I had also begged Her to allow Lady Helena to unlock me temporarily during our call tomorrow, but in the second email, She only told me, that She'll talk about it with Lady Helena.
So I'm now sitting here and have no clue, what will happen tomorrow. Lady Helena will have remote-control over my spanking-machine, a dog shock-collar and my vibrating buttplug and She already told me, that She'll drive me insane, but I had counted on being allowed to stroke and this helped me to survive the last weeks of chastity. Now it could as well be, that my 5 weeks of chastity are extended by an unknown duration. This doesn't help with my arousal at all, I'm horny beyond belief now and I'll go to bed early, with a playlist of Domina's files and hope to fall asleep early, maybe have some sexy dreams...
Chastity surprise
Domina Shelle's new file Brain Fried continues the theme of the previous sessions. After taking me down into deep trance, She began to tease me and at the same time, make me helpless. When She let me realize, that I was totally unable to move, it was already too late. It's not like I would have fought against it, but I always enjoy the sensation, when the effect sets in and this time, I totally missed the moment.
So I lay there, helplessly enduring Her teasing and, of course enjoying it immensely. Having not touched for 5 weeks made it even easier for Her to make me horny and desperate. I was already looking forward to being brought to a mind-orgasm like I have experienced in previous sessions, but things took an unexpected turn, when She suddenly installed Her virtual cock-cage on me. It's not the first time, She has done this, but this time, there's no time-limit, no hint, when She will release me again.
I'll have a call with Lady Helena on Tuesday. She'll be controlling my spanking-machine again, but also a dog shock-collar and my Lovense Hush buttplug. We had scheduled this session, because She couldn't let me stroke last time and now, I'm in chastity again... I don't want Her to be disappointed, so I'll ask my Owner for permission that She can unlock me for our call.
It's like Domina has been reading my mind. I was going to beg Her for more chastity after the call and now the new session has given me exactly this and just at the right time. In such moments, I sometimes ask myself, how many of my desires are really my own or if I am just following Her instructions without knowing. I can't say for sure, but it doesn't matter. I'm happy being Her slave and I don't have to worry, because I love what She does to me and I love Her for what She does to me...
So I lay there, helplessly enduring Her teasing and, of course enjoying it immensely. Having not touched for 5 weeks made it even easier for Her to make me horny and desperate. I was already looking forward to being brought to a mind-orgasm like I have experienced in previous sessions, but things took an unexpected turn, when She suddenly installed Her virtual cock-cage on me. It's not the first time, She has done this, but this time, there's no time-limit, no hint, when She will release me again.
I'll have a call with Lady Helena on Tuesday. She'll be controlling my spanking-machine again, but also a dog shock-collar and my Lovense Hush buttplug. We had scheduled this session, because She couldn't let me stroke last time and now, I'm in chastity again... I don't want Her to be disappointed, so I'll ask my Owner for permission that She can unlock me for our call.
It's like Domina has been reading my mind. I was going to beg Her for more chastity after the call and now the new session has given me exactly this and just at the right time. In such moments, I sometimes ask myself, how many of my desires are really my own or if I am just following Her instructions without knowing. I can't say for sure, but it doesn't matter. I'm happy being Her slave and I don't have to worry, because I love what She does to me and I love Her for what She does to me...
Extended chastity
My chastity month has ended and I'm surprised, how easy it was. There have only been a few times, were I was desperate to stroke and most of the times, I could find some kind of distraction.
Domina Shelle has allowed, that I stay in chastity until my next call with Lady Helena. We are planning to have a call in the next days, but in the past, there have often been circumstances, that forced us to postpone our sessions. Not knowing, how long I'll have to stay chaste adds an interesting element of uncertainty, which is quite thrilling.
Since Lady Helena had so much fun controlling my spanking-machine last time, I have built a web-control for a dog shock-collar that I'll be wearing around my thigh (or balls if I don't chicken out). I'm a little scared about that thing, because the kind of pain it delivers is not enjoyable, but I'm also excited about having Her use it. Unlike the spanking-machine, were I have a second to prepare myself while the arm goes back, these shocks will be without forewarning and She can also change the power-level without me knowing.
I'm looking forward to this session a lot! Lady Helena said, She'll drive me insane, sounds like She has a plan already and I can't wait to find out!
Domina Shelle has allowed, that I stay in chastity until my next call with Lady Helena. We are planning to have a call in the next days, but in the past, there have often been circumstances, that forced us to postpone our sessions. Not knowing, how long I'll have to stay chaste adds an interesting element of uncertainty, which is quite thrilling.
Since Lady Helena had so much fun controlling my spanking-machine last time, I have built a web-control for a dog shock-collar that I'll be wearing around my thigh (or balls if I don't chicken out). I'm a little scared about that thing, because the kind of pain it delivers is not enjoyable, but I'm also excited about having Her use it. Unlike the spanking-machine, were I have a second to prepare myself while the arm goes back, these shocks will be without forewarning and She can also change the power-level without me knowing.
I'm looking forward to this session a lot! Lady Helena said, She'll drive me insane, sounds like She has a plan already and I can't wait to find out!
Mind orgasm
Time for an update...
My Owner released Her newest file Pussy Obsession on Saturday and as always, I listened as soon as I could. Like the title says, it's all about being obsessed about Her pussy. The smell, the scent, I experienced everything vividly during this trance. I had to skip the stroking instructions again, because I'm still in my chastity month, but as before, Domina's words caused a strong mind-orgasm, this time, I was even closer to spurting, than before.
There's something very special about having a mind-orgasm. It feels like the very moment when I get over the edge, just before I start to spurt, but it's somehow in slow-motion and I can savor every moment. I'm not falling into that emptiness like after a regular orgasm, but my arousal stays and as long as my Owner tells me to keep cumming, I can ride that wave.
Speaking of my chastity month... I only have one more week to go and I'm surprised, how easy it still is. There are those moments, where I would love to stroke, usually when I lay in bed at night and my fantasy is running wild, but my mind has accepted, that I can't have that and I love that feeling more every day.
That's probably the reason, why I made a new commitment without thinking about it... After our last spanking-session, Lady Helena said, She'd like to do that again, when I'm allowed to stroke and so, I have asked to stay in chastity until our next session. I want to be in a very horny and compliant state for that occasion and a part of me secretly hopes, that Lady Helena will keep me in suspense a bit.
Domina Shelle also released the monthly training-session for Her contracted slaves today. It's difficult to write about it, because I remember only fractions, like how She snapped Her fingers and how soothing the whole session was and every time I try to think more about it, it's like my thoughts come to a halt. ... ... ... I just sat here, staring at the text for a few minutes and trying to write more about the training session, but it's impossible. My mind went emptier the more I tried to remember things, so I'll end this entry here...
My Owner released Her newest file Pussy Obsession on Saturday and as always, I listened as soon as I could. Like the title says, it's all about being obsessed about Her pussy. The smell, the scent, I experienced everything vividly during this trance. I had to skip the stroking instructions again, because I'm still in my chastity month, but as before, Domina's words caused a strong mind-orgasm, this time, I was even closer to spurting, than before.
There's something very special about having a mind-orgasm. It feels like the very moment when I get over the edge, just before I start to spurt, but it's somehow in slow-motion and I can savor every moment. I'm not falling into that emptiness like after a regular orgasm, but my arousal stays and as long as my Owner tells me to keep cumming, I can ride that wave.
Speaking of my chastity month... I only have one more week to go and I'm surprised, how easy it still is. There are those moments, where I would love to stroke, usually when I lay in bed at night and my fantasy is running wild, but my mind has accepted, that I can't have that and I love that feeling more every day.
That's probably the reason, why I made a new commitment without thinking about it... After our last spanking-session, Lady Helena said, She'd like to do that again, when I'm allowed to stroke and so, I have asked to stay in chastity until our next session. I want to be in a very horny and compliant state for that occasion and a part of me secretly hopes, that Lady Helena will keep me in suspense a bit.
Domina Shelle also released the monthly training-session for Her contracted slaves today. It's difficult to write about it, because I remember only fractions, like how She snapped Her fingers and how soothing the whole session was and every time I try to think more about it, it's like my thoughts come to a halt. ... ... ... I just sat here, staring at the text for a few minutes and trying to write more about the training session, but it's impossible. My mind went emptier the more I tried to remember things, so I'll end this entry here...
A message from my Owner
I wasn't in the mood to get up at all, when the alarm went off this morning. I hit the snooze button and was about to turn around and sleep a few more minutes, but somehow, I had the urge to check my emails. I didn't expect any new emails and so, I was even more excited then usually, when I found one from my Owner. I contained no text, only a link to an mp3 file.
My first thought was, that I didn't have time to listen to a session in the morning and that I would have to spent the whole day with the anticipation, but then, my curiosity won and I decided to download it at least and see, how long it is. I think, my subconscious mind had already decided to listen, but when I saw, that the file was only a few minutes long, I also consciously decided to listen to it.
"Hi My maid marta, I wanted to send you something special... something that will make you feel so good..."
OMG! My Owner had recorded a voice message for me! Hearing Her soothing voice and the background tracks made me horny immediately and all tiredness was gone.
I can't imagine a better start into the day. I don't know if Domina Shelle had put some subliminal messages into the file or if it's just the fact, that I haven't stroked for almost 3 weeks, but my arousal didn't fade for the entire day. Even at work, it was there in the back of my mind and whenever I took a short break and tried to relax my brain a bit, my thoughts drifted back to Her and my cock grew hard.
I stayed in this state for the entire day and while I love this feeling, it has also been the 'hardest' day of my chastity month so far...
My first thought was, that I didn't have time to listen to a session in the morning and that I would have to spent the whole day with the anticipation, but then, my curiosity won and I decided to download it at least and see, how long it is. I think, my subconscious mind had already decided to listen, but when I saw, that the file was only a few minutes long, I also consciously decided to listen to it.
"Hi My maid marta, I wanted to send you something special... something that will make you feel so good..."
OMG! My Owner had recorded a voice message for me! Hearing Her soothing voice and the background tracks made me horny immediately and all tiredness was gone.
I can't imagine a better start into the day. I don't know if Domina Shelle had put some subliminal messages into the file or if it's just the fact, that I haven't stroked for almost 3 weeks, but my arousal didn't fade for the entire day. Even at work, it was there in the back of my mind and whenever I took a short break and tried to relax my brain a bit, my thoughts drifted back to Her and my cock grew hard.
I stayed in this state for the entire day and while I love this feeling, it has also been the 'hardest' day of my chastity month so far...
Getting spanked
I had a wonderful session with Lady Helena tonight! I had set up my spanking-machine so, that She could control it from a webpage and She used it, while She read a sexy story to me. Every time, the slave in the story got spanked, She triggered my machine, too. I had set the machine to the highest level, something I never dared to do, when I used the machine myself, but there where pauses between most of the strokes and I could take them, although they stung...
After the story ended, Lady Helena asked, if I wanted more strokes and asking for more was what I did. This time, She administered series of fast strokes and I was soon moaning from the mixture of pleasure and pain. She left some lovely marks, that I make me think of Her, whenever I sit down during the next couple of days.
We both enjoyed our session and a lot have already talked about doing that again soon... I can't wait!
We both enjoyed our session and a lot have already talked about doing that again soon... I can't wait!
Blind Dominance
The last two days have been surprisingly easy. Although I didn't have much distraction, my arousal stayed on a normal level and I was managing to stay chaste without much struggle.
Things changed this afternoon... Domina Shelle had released Her newest session Blind Dominance and I couldn't wait long to listen. It starts as a nice fantasy of how She sneaks into my live and ends as extension of the cock control, She took in Dangerous Pleasures. I still couldn't follow Her stroking instructions, but I could imagine, how it would feel and Her moaning brought my arousal back to the fullest extent.
After waking up, I was still extremely horny. My cock was throbbing and I was desperate to touch, but I still love this feeling when I'm giving up for Her what I crave so much!
After waking up, I was still extremely horny. My cock was throbbing and I was desperate to touch, but I still love this feeling when I'm giving up for Her what I crave so much!
Horny
Today was my 11th day of my chastity month and like the last time, it marked the point from which things started to get a little more difficult. I was horny from the moment I woke up and I couldn't help but take a dildo with me into the shower and fuck it while I was washing myself. I leaked a lot of precum, but it didn't help much with my arousal.
I tried to keep myself busy, but every sexy image, every though of my Domina, let my cock grow.
In the evening, Lady Helena ordered me to clean my bathroom with a toothbrush, like Domina Shelle had done it a while ago. For the fraction of a second I thought, how boring this task is, but the the pleasure of obedience took over and caused an erection once again.
I had already cleaned my flat yesterday, but it's not an option to question a command from my Superiors. So I focused even more on the details this time and left out the big surfaces that were already clean. After 90 minutes, I couldn't think of any spot that I might have missed. I had even moved the cabinet under the sink away to clean there. I was satisfied with my work...
While I was cleaning, I had listened to a random playlist of loop-files and many of them were about chastity. This helped me with my desperation. I'm still horny, but the desire to stroke isn't that strong anymore. Maybe it's also the fact, that I'm a bit exhausted from cleaning...
I tried to keep myself busy, but every sexy image, every though of my Domina, let my cock grow.
In the evening, Lady Helena ordered me to clean my bathroom with a toothbrush, like Domina Shelle had done it a while ago. For the fraction of a second I thought, how boring this task is, but the the pleasure of obedience took over and caused an erection once again.
I had already cleaned my flat yesterday, but it's not an option to question a command from my Superiors. So I focused even more on the details this time and left out the big surfaces that were already clean. After 90 minutes, I couldn't think of any spot that I might have missed. I had even moved the cabinet under the sink away to clean there. I was satisfied with my work...
While I was cleaning, I had listened to a random playlist of loop-files and many of them were about chastity. This helped me with my desperation. I'm still horny, but the desire to stroke isn't that strong anymore. Maybe it's also the fact, that I'm a bit exhausted from cleaning...
Master Triggers
As a part of my current assignment, I listened to Master Triggers, which is a training and reinforcement of all the triggers that Domina Shelle has implanted deep into my mind. It a bit difficult to write about it, because i went down so deeply, that i don't remember much. But i do remember, that Domina played with the 'horny' and 'limp' triggers a lot during the file. Making me aroused and my cock hard only to let me go limp again seconds later.
I was surprised, when the file ended. It felt like only half an hour had passed, but this file is almost one hour long! While I was laying there and coming back to reality very slowly, the effects of Her teasing, combined with my current state of denial kicked in. Never before have i been so desperate to stroke! I had planned to sleep after listening, but it was impossible to calm my thoughts, there was only my arousal that was enveloping my mind. Domina said, that i would be going nuts, but this was much earlier and stronger than expected!
I was surprised, when the file ended. It felt like only half an hour had passed, but this file is almost one hour long! While I was laying there and coming back to reality very slowly, the effects of Her teasing, combined with my current state of denial kicked in. Never before have i been so desperate to stroke! I had planned to sleep after listening, but it was impossible to calm my thoughts, there was only my arousal that was enveloping my mind. Domina said, that i would be going nuts, but this was much earlier and stronger than expected!
Dangerous Pleasure
Domina's newest session is called Dangerous Pleasures. She released it already yesterday, but I had guests, so I had to wait with listening until today. As always, Her induction worked perfectly and I was soon drifting into a mindless sleep.
From the moment I realized, that this session is about chastity, I got horny, my cock stiffened and it stayed this way throughout the recording. Domina Shelle implanted a powerful new suggestion in my mind. From now on, I will fall into a hypnotic sleep every time I get close to the edge. This will make me unable to finish and I will stay in this trance state until my arousal fades. I will be totally unable to cum without my Owner's explicit instructions!
Unfortunately, I couldn't test the suggestion due to my chastity month, but I'm sure, that it will work perfectly, since this is something, I have fantasized about before!
Instead, I stayed in a super-horny state for the rest of the day. I'm only a week into this chastity month and this recording is already making it very hard. I know now, why Domina said, that I would be going nuts...
From the moment I realized, that this session is about chastity, I got horny, my cock stiffened and it stayed this way throughout the recording. Domina Shelle implanted a powerful new suggestion in my mind. From now on, I will fall into a hypnotic sleep every time I get close to the edge. This will make me unable to finish and I will stay in this trance state until my arousal fades. I will be totally unable to cum without my Owner's explicit instructions!
Unfortunately, I couldn't test the suggestion due to my chastity month, but I'm sure, that it will work perfectly, since this is something, I have fantasized about before!
Instead, I stayed in a super-horny state for the rest of the day. I'm only a week into this chastity month and this recording is already making it very hard. I know now, why Domina said, that I would be going nuts...
Mind orgasm
I couldn't fall asleep at night and while I was lying in bed, turning left and right, I started to day-dream about kinky things. Then, suddenly, out of a compulsion, I got up and got a pair of wrist-cuffs and tied my hands together. I locked everything with padlocks, put the keys in my k-safe and set the timer for early this morning.
To my surprise, i fell asleep quickly and slept well. I think, I'll do that more often and slowly add more bondage to get used to sleep bound...
As part of my assignment, I listened to Focal Point in the afternoon. Normally, it would require stroking and it ends with cumming, but since I'm in my chastity-month, Domina had instructed me to focus on my anus instead. So I started to listen with a lubed up dildo in reach and when She told me to stroke, I fucked myself accordingly. By the end of the file, I couldn't take the fucking any more. I had to relax my ass and my hand had become tired, too. So when Domina told me to cum, I was just lying on my side and listening to Her voice. Nonetheless, I had a strong mind-orgasm, the strongest I ever experienced! It lasted long and felt very close to a real one, the rush, the contractions, just the spurting was missing. I think, with a bit more training, I'll be able to achieve that, too!
To my surprise, i fell asleep quickly and slept well. I think, I'll do that more often and slowly add more bondage to get used to sleep bound...
As part of my assignment, I listened to Focal Point in the afternoon. Normally, it would require stroking and it ends with cumming, but since I'm in my chastity-month, Domina had instructed me to focus on my anus instead. So I started to listen with a lubed up dildo in reach and when She told me to stroke, I fucked myself accordingly. By the end of the file, I couldn't take the fucking any more. I had to relax my ass and my hand had become tired, too. So when Domina told me to cum, I was just lying on my side and listening to Her voice. Nonetheless, I had a strong mind-orgasm, the strongest I ever experienced! It lasted long and felt very close to a real one, the rush, the contractions, just the spurting was missing. I think, with a bit more training, I'll be able to achieve that, too!
Hard working maid
I had a new email from my Domina this morning. She wrote, that by the end of my 30 days without touching, I'll be going nuts... The first days have been easy, especially because I have been quite busy and didn't have much time for erotic thoughts. But Her words make me wonder, if She has something planned to tease me even more than usual.
I spent most of the day in maid-mode with cleaning, cooking and tidying up. Like yesterday, I didn't think much about it, I was just starting to do whatever needed to be done. In the late afternoon, I was satisfied with my worked and was going to relax a bit, but as I checked my emails, I found a new email from my Owner. I immediately got excited and aroused. This always happens, when I see a new email or tweet from Her. She had sent me an assignment for the next 12 days, that will keep me even busier than I already am. The assignments contains instructions to listen to sessions and do my mantra like I already know from other assignments, but one instruction was new. From 9 am to 5 pm each day, I'll have to exercise a bit. This will also make sure, that I don't stay in bed for too long during my vacation and I'll be thinking about my Owner the whole day!
I'm pretty exhausted and will go to bed early, tomorrow will be a busy day again...
I spent most of the day in maid-mode with cleaning, cooking and tidying up. Like yesterday, I didn't think much about it, I was just starting to do whatever needed to be done. In the late afternoon, I was satisfied with my worked and was going to relax a bit, but as I checked my emails, I found a new email from my Owner. I immediately got excited and aroused. This always happens, when I see a new email or tweet from Her. She had sent me an assignment for the next 12 days, that will keep me even busier than I already am. The assignments contains instructions to listen to sessions and do my mantra like I already know from other assignments, but one instruction was new. From 9 am to 5 pm each day, I'll have to exercise a bit. This will also make sure, that I don't stay in bed for too long during my vacation and I'll be thinking about my Owner the whole day!
I'm pretty exhausted and will go to bed early, tomorrow will be a busy day again...
Excellence
I had a very fun dream last night! Domina Shelle let me help Her to train a slave-girl as Her maid. Since I was responsible for the training, Domina spanked both of us for Her mistakes. The slave-girl seemed to like getting me in trouble and kept making mistakes on purpose. I loved this dream, but like so often, it ended way too soon.
After I got up, I checked my emails like every morning. I had a message from my Owner, a perfect start into the day! I had sent Her a cleaning robot for Her birthday and She told me, that She named it maid martie. I love that! It's like I have a maid-twin now and I know, that She will always be thinking about me, when it's cleaning at Her feet!
As slave yoko had predicted, I was even busier today after listening to the brain-chip upgrade 'Excellence' last night. I found myself starting to clean and tidy up things without even noticing and later in the afternoon I took a box with old screws and started to sort them by size. It's quite a boring task and I always avoided doing that. It's more than an increase of motivation, I'm doing such things automatically now and don't think about it.
I started the evening with listening to Vampiress, a highly erotic recording! Domina, or better the Vampiress, lured me into Her chamber and used me for Her pleasure. There were stroking instructions, but since I'm in chastity, I couldn't follow. Domina had instructed me to fuck my ass instead when a session contains stroking instructions, but I was not prepared for that. Instead, I had an irresistible urge to do that after She woke me up, so that is, what I did. I leaked a lot of precum and I think I might be able to cum from that during this month.
I also think about starting with the hands-free series again. Last time, I was stuck with the fourth session, which requires a wet dream to proceed and I think, I might have more success by the end of this month...
After I got up, I checked my emails like every morning. I had a message from my Owner, a perfect start into the day! I had sent Her a cleaning robot for Her birthday and She told me, that She named it maid martie. I love that! It's like I have a maid-twin now and I know, that She will always be thinking about me, when it's cleaning at Her feet!
As slave yoko had predicted, I was even busier today after listening to the brain-chip upgrade 'Excellence' last night. I found myself starting to clean and tidy up things without even noticing and later in the afternoon I took a box with old screws and started to sort them by size. It's quite a boring task and I always avoided doing that. It's more than an increase of motivation, I'm doing such things automatically now and don't think about it.
I started the evening with listening to Vampiress, a highly erotic recording! Domina, or better the Vampiress, lured me into Her chamber and used me for Her pleasure. There were stroking instructions, but since I'm in chastity, I couldn't follow. Domina had instructed me to fuck my ass instead when a session contains stroking instructions, but I was not prepared for that. Instead, I had an irresistible urge to do that after She woke me up, so that is, what I did. I leaked a lot of precum and I think I might be able to cum from that during this month.
I also think about starting with the hands-free series again. Last time, I was stuck with the fourth session, which requires a wet dream to proceed and I think, I might have more success by the end of this month...
Start of a chastity month
Today was the start of two weeks of vacation. I had expected to be a bit lazy and spread my due chores over the days, but something was very different today. I needed to please my Owner by being a hard-working maid and so, I spent most of the day outside with gardening, oiling the furniture and tidying up. Each time I sat down for a break, one thought crossed my mind: "What can I do next?". And so, I was back at work way sooner than I had planned.
Slave yoko said, this might be an effect of the new brain-chip implant called 'Excellence', but I haven't listened to that yet. I'll listen to it before going to bed tonight and judging from what he said, I'll probably be even busier tomorrow.
I got an email from my Owner in the afternoon. She accepted my chastity offering, so for the next 30 days, my only pleasure will be from anal stimulation. I'm allowed to listen to all the sissy-files, but when I'm told to stroke, I'll have to fuck my sissy-ass instead.
I have managed to stay chaste for over half an year before, but I was allowed to stroke and edge. The longest I ever went without touching has been two weeks and I only got a glimpse of how it must feel to be really desperate. I'm looking forward to this experience, I think it will be intense, but I want to know how real desperation feels...
Slave yoko said, this might be an effect of the new brain-chip implant called 'Excellence', but I haven't listened to that yet. I'll listen to it before going to bed tonight and judging from what he said, I'll probably be even busier tomorrow.
I got an email from my Owner in the afternoon. She accepted my chastity offering, so for the next 30 days, my only pleasure will be from anal stimulation. I'm allowed to listen to all the sissy-files, but when I'm told to stroke, I'll have to fuck my sissy-ass instead.
I have managed to stay chaste for over half an year before, but I was allowed to stroke and edge. The longest I ever went without touching has been two weeks and I only got a glimpse of how it must feel to be really desperate. I'm looking forward to this experience, I think it will be intense, but I want to know how real desperation feels...
Domina's birthday
Saturday was my Owner's birthday, the most important day of the year! I had sent Her present early and She already received it last week, but I asked Her, not to open it until Her birthday. I'm so excited to hear, how She likes it!
She also gave some presents to Her slaves. The first one was a little assignment... I was allowed to edge, but afterwards, I had to slap my cock with a ruler 10 times. The edge was easy to achieve and I tried not to hold back when I slapped my cock. It stung and it was a kind of pain, that I didn't enjoy, but doing this for my Domina made me very happy. I had to do this procedure four times and each time, the pain took longer to subside and edging got more difficult. In the end, I was relived that it was over, but I was also very happy, that Domina had once again pushed myself a little farther than I would have been able to do myself.
The other present, She made, were two new brainchip upgrades. I haven't listened to them yet, but I took the opportunity of Her recent 2-for-1 offer to get some files, that had woken my interest. The first one is called 777. It came without a description and being surprised by Her commands is something I always love. For the free file, I chose Vampiress, a fantasy session that sounds very erotic.
This afternoon, I finally found time to listen to 777. As there is no description and I don't want to spoil anything, I can only say, that this is not a session for beginners and not to be taken lightly. It was an emotional roller-coaster ride, but I think, it's also an important lesson.
Afterwards, I felt, that I had to do something, some kind of commitment to cleanse my mind. I wrote an email to Domina Shelle, expressing my feelings and together with a little tribute, I committed to a whole month without touching. I have asked Her for some deep-throat and anal training instead, skills that a good sissy should have...
After sending the email, I went to my bedroom and put on a posture-collar and nipple-clamps. I spread rice in front of Her picture and knelt on it while I chanted my mantra. The discomfort helped me a little to get back to a normal state of emotions, but it took until the late afternoon to be fully recovered...
She also gave some presents to Her slaves. The first one was a little assignment... I was allowed to edge, but afterwards, I had to slap my cock with a ruler 10 times. The edge was easy to achieve and I tried not to hold back when I slapped my cock. It stung and it was a kind of pain, that I didn't enjoy, but doing this for my Domina made me very happy. I had to do this procedure four times and each time, the pain took longer to subside and edging got more difficult. In the end, I was relived that it was over, but I was also very happy, that Domina had once again pushed myself a little farther than I would have been able to do myself.
The other present, She made, were two new brainchip upgrades. I haven't listened to them yet, but I took the opportunity of Her recent 2-for-1 offer to get some files, that had woken my interest. The first one is called 777. It came without a description and being surprised by Her commands is something I always love. For the free file, I chose Vampiress, a fantasy session that sounds very erotic.
This afternoon, I finally found time to listen to 777. As there is no description and I don't want to spoil anything, I can only say, that this is not a session for beginners and not to be taken lightly. It was an emotional roller-coaster ride, but I think, it's also an important lesson.
Afterwards, I felt, that I had to do something, some kind of commitment to cleanse my mind. I wrote an email to Domina Shelle, expressing my feelings and together with a little tribute, I committed to a whole month without touching. I have asked Her for some deep-throat and anal training instead, skills that a good sissy should have...
After sending the email, I went to my bedroom and put on a posture-collar and nipple-clamps. I spread rice in front of Her picture and knelt on it while I chanted my mantra. The discomfort helped me a little to get back to a normal state of emotions, but it took until the late afternoon to be fully recovered...
Orgasmic Obedience
I have listened to Lady Helena's latest file, Orgasmic Obedience a couple of times now. In this file, She implanted a trigger that makes me cum on Her command.
When I listened the first time, I didn't expect Her to use it already during the session and I also didn't intend to cum. She had me stroking during the session and I was careful not to get too close, but when She used the trigger, a warm shiver went through my body and I simply came. I could do nothing about it, all I could do was to stop stroking and ruin my orgasm (I still hadn't brought my ruined-orgasm count to zero).
The other times were not much different. Sometimes I was expecting the trigger, at other times, my mind had drifted away and She surprised me with it, but each time, it worked perfectly, even if I was not very close to the edge. Now I wonder, how good it will work when I'm not stroking at all and She surprises me by using it in an email. I only hope, this won't happen while I'm at work ;)
She told me to listen 21 times and with that, my count will be at zero in no time. But I'm not sure if it would be right to deduct those orgasms, I will have to ask my Owner about that...
When I listened the first time, I didn't expect Her to use it already during the session and I also didn't intend to cum. She had me stroking during the session and I was careful not to get too close, but when She used the trigger, a warm shiver went through my body and I simply came. I could do nothing about it, all I could do was to stop stroking and ruin my orgasm (I still hadn't brought my ruined-orgasm count to zero).
The other times were not much different. Sometimes I was expecting the trigger, at other times, my mind had drifted away and She surprised me with it, but each time, it worked perfectly, even if I was not very close to the edge. Now I wonder, how good it will work when I'm not stroking at all and She surprises me by using it in an email. I only hope, this won't happen while I'm at work ;)
She told me to listen 21 times and with that, my count will be at zero in no time. But I'm not sure if it would be right to deduct those orgasms, I will have to ask my Owner about that...
Cleaning with a toothbrush
I'm having problems with my phone-line since a week now and have only limited internet access and thus, I'm behind with updates. So, let me recap the last couple of days...
Thursday was the day, where I had to clean my bathroom with a toothbrush. I knew, that it would be boring, but I was looking forward to do it anyway. As soon as I returned home, I put on my maid outfit and started with the shower. I was very motivated and time went by quickly. After the shower was sparkling clean, already 45 minutes had passed and I started to realize, how long this task would get. My motivation had diminished and I was not really looking forward to do the rest of the room. Only the pleasure of obedience kept me going.
Next were the bathtub and the tiles around it. While the shower had lots of smaller surfaces and I had a little sense of achievement frequently, I now had big plain surfaces in front of me, which made the task extra boring. After a while, I started to focus only on the spot that I was cleaning and as I didn't have to think much about what I was doing, I started to chant my mantra. It helped me a lot. I forgot the time and when I was finished with that part of the bathroom, already 90 minutes had passed.
The rest of the room had more edges and smaller areas again and I could work from one to the next. The toilet, window and heating, the sink and mirror and all the tiles around and between. It took me another hour, but that part passed quickly again and only the floor was left, the biggest surface of all. I took the same approach as with the tub and after the first third, I barely took noticed of my surroundings. There was only that single tile I was cleaning at the moment and my mantra in my head.
Finally, after 3 hours, I was finished. I was exhausted, relieved, but also very happy, that I had obeyed my Owner. I took some pictures and reported my finished task to Her. I got a reply only a few minutes later! She was very pleased with my report and She even send me a file as an early birthday-gift!
Saturday night, i sat outside, enjoyed the silence and reflected on the feelings I have for Domina Shelle. I wrote down things that seemed suitable for my new maid-mantra and I also thought about the personalized session that She gave me for my birthday. I had so many ideas, more maid-training, chastity and a lot of others and I couldn't decide for one. But I still had plenty of time for that...
By Sunday evening, I had decided. I sent the session draft to my Owner, together with my proposal for my new mantra, but I don't want to write about details, before I have heared Her opinion...
Thursday was the day, where I had to clean my bathroom with a toothbrush. I knew, that it would be boring, but I was looking forward to do it anyway. As soon as I returned home, I put on my maid outfit and started with the shower. I was very motivated and time went by quickly. After the shower was sparkling clean, already 45 minutes had passed and I started to realize, how long this task would get. My motivation had diminished and I was not really looking forward to do the rest of the room. Only the pleasure of obedience kept me going.
Next were the bathtub and the tiles around it. While the shower had lots of smaller surfaces and I had a little sense of achievement frequently, I now had big plain surfaces in front of me, which made the task extra boring. After a while, I started to focus only on the spot that I was cleaning and as I didn't have to think much about what I was doing, I started to chant my mantra. It helped me a lot. I forgot the time and when I was finished with that part of the bathroom, already 90 minutes had passed.
The rest of the room had more edges and smaller areas again and I could work from one to the next. The toilet, window and heating, the sink and mirror and all the tiles around and between. It took me another hour, but that part passed quickly again and only the floor was left, the biggest surface of all. I took the same approach as with the tub and after the first third, I barely took noticed of my surroundings. There was only that single tile I was cleaning at the moment and my mantra in my head.
Finally, after 3 hours, I was finished. I was exhausted, relieved, but also very happy, that I had obeyed my Owner. I took some pictures and reported my finished task to Her. I got a reply only a few minutes later! She was very pleased with my report and She even send me a file as an early birthday-gift!
Saturday night, i sat outside, enjoyed the silence and reflected on the feelings I have for Domina Shelle. I wrote down things that seemed suitable for my new maid-mantra and I also thought about the personalized session that She gave me for my birthday. I had so many ideas, more maid-training, chastity and a lot of others and I couldn't decide for one. But I still had plenty of time for that...
By Sunday evening, I had decided. I sent the session draft to my Owner, together with my proposal for my new mantra, but I don't want to write about details, before I have heared Her opinion...
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