I have continued with hands-free training and the post-hypnotic suggestions are working even better each time I listen. I love it, when I lay there, paralyzed and on the edge. I those moments, I want to stroke so badly, but the more I try to move, the hornier I get. Last night, I gave up after a while and I closed my eyes and tried not to think of my arousal and it didn't take long, until I had fallen back into trance. I don't know, how long I had been laying there, but like the times before, my body finally started twitching and this woke me up enough to be able to turn around and try to sleep.
I have had more vivid dreams than usual lately. Most of them aren't erotic dreams, but I can remember one sexy scene from a dream I had last night.
I was at a party, leaning against a wall, when a beautiful woman walked over to me and pinned me against the wall with her body. She grabbed my wrists, held my arms down and started to kiss me. I was surprised and hesitated a bit at first, but I soon gave in and let her take control. I was like a toy for her and she just used me until after a while, she just stopped and walked away.
Next lesson in hands-free
I listened to the third part of the hands-free training in bed yesterday. I was expecting, that this session would make me horny, but I had no idea... It didn't take long until my cock was hard and throbbing and it stayed this way during the whole session. What surprised me most, was the post-hypnotic suggestion, Princess Shelle gave me. When I woke up, I was still very horny and the suggestion was, that I couldn't move until the arousal faded away and when I tried to move, I got even more aroused. I enjoyed this at first, but after a while, I wanted to turn around and sleep, but I couldn't move at all and every time I tried, I got hornier. This went on, until suddenly, my whole body started twitching like I was having an orgasm. I didn't cum, but it was something similar. It's hard to describe. I'm looking forward a lot to listen again this night.
Vacation
My vacation week has started and I began to fix things at home, like I have promised to Princess Shelle. I started with removing the paint from the doors and the first one took me most of the day. There are four more doors to do and I'll need a day to renew the paint in the bathroom, so I'll be quite busy in the coming days. But I have postponed these task too often already and it's great, that Princess motivates me to keep me home in good condition.
I have also ordered an elliptical trainer, it should arrive mid of the week. Princess Shelle wants me to stay healthy and fit and this is also something I have been lazy with. I will now be able to exercise in the evening, and the time of day and weather are no excuse any more. Princess has already taught me to enjoy cleaning and I'm confident, that I will also like the exercising after a while.
I have also ordered an elliptical trainer, it should arrive mid of the week. Princess Shelle wants me to stay healthy and fit and this is also something I have been lazy with. I will now be able to exercise in the evening, and the time of day and weather are no excuse any more. Princess has already taught me to enjoy cleaning and I'm confident, that I will also like the exercising after a while.
more Brainwashing
Princess Shelle has released this weeks's file Brainwashed III - Part 3 already today. What a nice surprise! I listened as soon as I returned home and I immediately noticed the special atmosphere of this session that let me relax and get horny quickly.
When I woke up, I automatically obeyed the post-hypnotic commands and stroked to the edge, although I shouldn't before Christmas. Afterwards I sent Princess Shelle a pair of panties and stockings from her wishlist. She had instructed me to treat myself to something I had been putting of and I had decided to ask her for a pair of her worn panties and pantyhose, so I thought, I should buy her new ones in return. Everything fits together so perfectly today!
When I woke up, I automatically obeyed the post-hypnotic commands and stroked to the edge, although I shouldn't before Christmas. Afterwards I sent Princess Shelle a pair of panties and stockings from her wishlist. She had instructed me to treat myself to something I had been putting of and I had decided to ask her for a pair of her worn panties and pantyhose, so I thought, I should buy her new ones in return. Everything fits together so perfectly today!
A wonderful dream
I awoke from a wonderful dream last night. In her latest email, Princess Shelle wrote, that she would have me come over and clean her house if I lived near her and this had triggered my fantasies. My memories of the dream start at the point where I had finished cleaning and she told me to stand in the corner while she inspected my work. The next thing I remember is, that I was on all fours and Princess and another woman, probably Lady Helena, spanked me for every spot I hadn't cleaned properly.
Speaking of Lady Helena... I will have my buttplug and strapon training with her next tuesday. I can hardly wait to find out, what she has planned and besides being Princess Shelle's maid, this is currently one of my main thoughts when I am fantasizing.
Speaking of Lady Helena... I will have my buttplug and strapon training with her next tuesday. I can hardly wait to find out, what she has planned and besides being Princess Shelle's maid, this is currently one of my main thoughts when I am fantasizing.
Continuing my training
There last two days have been uneventful. I have listened to the monthly training each day and I also continued with the hands-free training. The suggestions are working better every time and I think, I'll start with part 3 of the training next week.
Mission Impossible 3
I listened to the third Mission Impossible session today and this one is even more erotic than the first two. I could easily visualize the coven that Princess Shelle described, her slaves and what they were doing to me. I even noticed a different taste in my mouth, when she described it. I was hard for most of the session and my arousal stayed afterwards.
For the rest of the day, it was difficult to focus on anything else but my Princess and I thought about how lucky I am to be owned and trained by her. I'm not only serving her, but she also helps me to become a better person. The past half year has been so incredible and thinking back made me very happy.
For the rest of the day, it was difficult to focus on anything else but my Princess and I thought about how lucky I am to be owned and trained by her. I'm not only serving her, but she also helps me to become a better person. The past half year has been so incredible and thinking back made me very happy.
Mission Impossible 2
The new release of this week is a third part of Mission Impossible. I hadn't listened to the second part, yet, so I did that today. Once again, I don't remember much, but I know, that it was incredibly erotic. While waking up, Princess Shelle instructed me to stroke. My hand moved and I fondled my cock a bit, but I didn't want to break the no-touching rule. This created a conflict in my mind and I only touched myself enough to keep me hard for a minute or so.
I'm so horny
Today was so difficult. There were several times where everything I wanted was to stroke. I even considered to give up and beg for some stroking, but this was only for a moment and in the end, I decided to try to go on.
Every time I listen to the hands-free training, I get hornier and today, I was hard and feeling close to the edge for half of the session this time. I think, I can start with the next training session soon.
Every time I listen to the hands-free training, I get hornier and today, I was hard and feeling close to the edge for half of the session this time. I think, I can start with the next training session soon.
Puppy play
Today was all about puppy play. I started with listening to Puppy Training 102. The session put me in the right mood, so I put in a butt-plug with a puppy tail and secured it with a short rope. I also locked on my ballet-boots and fist-mitts, so I could only crawl and was unable to use my hands. When I crawled, the tail wiggled around a bit and this movement transferred to the plug. It felt good and I moved my ass around to make the tail move more.
Later, I licked water from a bowl with my hands on my back, as Princess Shelle had instructed. I almost fell over and I spilled some of the water. I liked everything up like a good puppy.
My kitchensafe released my keys after an hour, but I stayed in puppy-mode some more time. It was a lot of fun to be Princess Shelle's puppy and I still would love to cuddle up at her feet.
Later, I licked water from a bowl with my hands on my back, as Princess Shelle had instructed. I almost fell over and I spilled some of the water. I liked everything up like a good puppy.
My kitchensafe released my keys after an hour, but I stayed in puppy-mode some more time. It was a lot of fun to be Princess Shelle's puppy and I still would love to cuddle up at her feet.
Loosing my sense of time
Princess Shelle called me slave marta in an email today and I didn't expect that this would turn me on that much. I have asked her to always use this name now.
She also instructed me to contact Lady Helena for a strapon and butt-plug training. I was eager to obey this command and I'm curious, what Lady Helena will make me do.
I didn't listen to the new Brainwashed recording last night, as I had intended, but I did in the evening. It was still difficult to write a review and it took me a bit of thinking, what to write.
I have also listened to the new monthly training. This session teaches me to loose track of time, when I'm in trance and it already worked very good the first time. If I hadn't know the duration of the session before, I would have had no clue. It felt, like it only was a few minutes. There was one point in the session after which my sense of time was completely disturbed. I'm unable to say, how late into the session this was and how much time was left afterwards.
She also instructed me to contact Lady Helena for a strapon and butt-plug training. I was eager to obey this command and I'm curious, what Lady Helena will make me do.
I didn't listen to the new Brainwashed recording last night, as I had intended, but I did in the evening. It was still difficult to write a review and it took me a bit of thinking, what to write.
I have also listened to the new monthly training. This session teaches me to loose track of time, when I'm in trance and it already worked very good the first time. If I hadn't know the duration of the session before, I would have had no clue. It felt, like it only was a few minutes. There was one point in the session after which my sense of time was completely disturbed. I'm unable to say, how late into the session this was and how much time was left afterwards.
Continuing with hands-free training
Princess Shelle wanted me to eat beets today. I don't like the taste of them at all, but the pleasure of obeying her commands made it a bit better.
I had so many other sessions to listen to, that I didn't continue with the hands-free training for a few days, but I have continued now and listened to the second part once again. My cock was hard longer this time, but not for the whole time, like it is the goal of this session. I will need to listen to it some more times.
I tried to write a review for the new Brainwashed file today, but I didn't remember enough to write anything meaningful. I will listen in bed again, I hope, that reviewing it will be easier tomorrow.
I had so many other sessions to listen to, that I didn't continue with the hands-free training for a few days, but I have continued now and listened to the second part once again. My cock was hard longer this time, but not for the whole time, like it is the goal of this session. I will need to listen to it some more times.
I tried to write a review for the new Brainwashed file today, but I didn't remember enough to write anything meaningful. I will listen in bed again, I hope, that reviewing it will be easier tomorrow.
Maid marta
I had asked Princess Shelle to choose a name for me for when I'm her sissy maid and she has decided that it will be marta. So I'll respond to maid marta whenever I'm dressed up from now on. I like how that sounds. My desire to dress up has been stronger than usual lately and I wonder, whether this is a suggestion that I don't remember or if it's just a temporary desire.
I finally found time to listen to the new Brainwashed recording and also the the first part of the series. Although both files contain stroking instructions, I was able to resist this time. I really want to make it without stroking until Christmas. Both files have strengthened her control even more and that little desire to cum, that was left in me has become even weaker.
I finally found time to listen to the new Brainwashed recording and also the the first part of the series. Although both files contain stroking instructions, I was able to resist this time. I really want to make it without stroking until Christmas. Both files have strengthened her control even more and that little desire to cum, that was left in me has become even weaker.
Sissy Maid
One of today's assignment was to clean in my sissy maid outfit and as a lucky coincident, I received my new rubberdoll suit. So I wore it underneath, put on my maids-uniform and -mask, my high-heels and a posture-collar and started cleaning. I was sweating soon and when I was finished, I was pretty exhausted. I stay in the dollsuit until the evening and I noticed a stronger desire to be Princess Shelle's maid, than before, so I asked her to give me a proper name.
I continued with the hands-free training and I was surprised, how fast the time had past, when I woke up. I remember some parts from the first listening, that I completely missed this time,
I also listened to Manipulated and it was as effective as before.
Princess Shelle had responded to my suggestion for my new goal and she told me, that I should add more things to fix at home. I suggested to also paint the doors, but she wants me to also clean all the walls, that I will not repaint.
I have also offered to create a custom software for her, that will help her to keep information about her slaves. The following weeks will be pretty busy and I will spend a lot of my free time working for Princess Shelle. It's great to be useful for her and I'm looking forward to it.
I continued with the hands-free training and I was surprised, how fast the time had past, when I woke up. I remember some parts from the first listening, that I completely missed this time,
I also listened to Manipulated and it was as effective as before.
Princess Shelle had responded to my suggestion for my new goal and she told me, that I should add more things to fix at home. I suggested to also paint the doors, but she wants me to also clean all the walls, that I will not repaint.
I have also offered to create a custom software for her, that will help her to keep information about her slaves. The following weeks will be pretty busy and I will spend a lot of my free time working for Princess Shelle. It's great to be useful for her and I'm looking forward to it.
Manipulated
I have listened to Manipulated tonight. This is one of the sessions, that Princess Shelle told me to listen to. With this session, I got prove, that she has complete control over me when I'm in trance. She made me clap my hands and say thing, bark and act like a puppy and other things. Normally, there's still a little part of my constant mind involved, when I'm told do do something during trance, but this time, everything was completely automatic. Princess Shelle even made me stroke, although I didn't want to break my non-stroking period.
I have experienced a new level of control in this wonderful session. I have to listen two more times and I expect, that the suggestions will get even stronger each time.
I have experienced a new level of control in this wonderful session. I have to listen two more times and I expect, that the suggestions will get even stronger each time.
New instructions
Yesterday, Princess Shelle gave me new instructions for the following week and today's command was to try not to think of her for the whole day. I knew that this is impossible, but I was surprised, how fast I failed. I had planned to skip my mantra in the morning, but after I got up, remembering this made me think of her. Since I had already failed, I did my mantra anyway.
I had enough distraction until the evening and didn't think of her as much as usual, but I needed to listen to the hands free training and since then, Princess Shelle is very present in my mind again.
She also told me some sessions I'll have to listen to and I had to set myself a new goal.
I have decided to renew the paint in my bathroom and hallway, I hope she will accept this.
I had enough distraction until the evening and didn't think of her as much as usual, but I needed to listen to the hands free training and since then, Princess Shelle is very present in my mind again.
She also told me some sessions I'll have to listen to and I had to set myself a new goal.
I have decided to renew the paint in my bathroom and hallway, I hope she will accept this.
Next lesson of hands free training
I haven't stroked my cock for a week now and I was surprised that it was not as difficult, as I thought.
But now, after I have started with the Hands Free training, I'm hornier than before and there where more moments, where I wanted to stroke.
I have started with the second part of the training today. This one teaches me to get hard, whenever I hear Princess Shelle's voice. It already worked good, after she gave me that suggestion, but I need to listen again, until it's working perfectly.
I have thought about how it would feel to cum hands free and I could almost imagine it. I take this as a sign, that the training will be successful.
But now, after I have started with the Hands Free training, I'm hornier than before and there where more moments, where I wanted to stroke.
I have started with the second part of the training today. This one teaches me to get hard, whenever I hear Princess Shelle's voice. It already worked good, after she gave me that suggestion, but I need to listen again, until it's working perfectly.
I have thought about how it would feel to cum hands free and I could almost imagine it. I take this as a sign, that the training will be successful.
Staying limp
Princess Shelle has instructed me, not to get aroused today and stay limp and surprisingly, this was easier than I thought. I think, this is from listening to Slave Cage and she has commanded to listen again today. So far, this was the only time I got aroused until now.
I wrote another email to Princess Shelle and told her how much I want to stay chaste every time I listen and I tried to express my thoughts about cumming, but it took me ages to write that one sentence, because I can't focus my thoughts on it.
I wrote another email to Princess Shelle and told her how much I want to stay chaste every time I listen and I tried to express my thoughts about cumming, but it took me ages to write that one sentence, because I can't focus my thoughts on it.
Hands free training
Princess Shelle has allowed me to start with the Hands Free training. I'm looking forward to learn this trigger, so she can make me cum any time she likes. I think that it will be an interesting experience to be surprised by the trigger. This will certainly be a new level of control.
I have already listened to the first part and although I couldn't follow completely, because I'm not allowed to stroke, it made me look forward to the things that will be coming.
I have already listened to the first part and although I couldn't follow completely, because I'm not allowed to stroke, it made me look forward to the things that will be coming.
Slave Cage
I was so sure that I would not want to extend my chastity, but things changed completely today.
I listened to Princess Shelle's new session Slave Cage. This is really a masterpiece. It contains stroking instructions, but since Princess Shelle wants me to keep from stroking, I skipped that part. But even without stroking, this session is so hot, that my pants were soaked in precum when I woke up. But that's not all. Princess Shelle has put me in a mental chastity cage and all desire to cum or even stroke is gone now. She created such a strong desire to submit to her control, that I have begged for an extension of my chastity.
I have fantasized before about the possibility, that she could make me beg for more, even when I'm desperate to cum and now, this fantasy has become reality.
I realized later, that I'm completely at her mercy now. She just has to instruct me to listen to this session and I will comply and beg for more denial afterwards. But without the desire to cum, this is nothing I'm worried about.
I listened to Princess Shelle's new session Slave Cage. This is really a masterpiece. It contains stroking instructions, but since Princess Shelle wants me to keep from stroking, I skipped that part. But even without stroking, this session is so hot, that my pants were soaked in precum when I woke up. But that's not all. Princess Shelle has put me in a mental chastity cage and all desire to cum or even stroke is gone now. She created such a strong desire to submit to her control, that I have begged for an extension of my chastity.
I have fantasized before about the possibility, that she could make me beg for more, even when I'm desperate to cum and now, this fantasy has become reality.
I realized later, that I'm completely at her mercy now. She just has to instruct me to listen to this session and I will comply and beg for more denial afterwards. But without the desire to cum, this is nothing I'm worried about.
First day without stroking
I felt incredibly happy when I lay in bed yesterday. Giving up stroking for Princess Shelle will be hard, but it feels so good to be controlled and obey her.
My first day without stroking was easier than expected. I had a strong compulsion to stroke a couple of times when something on TV or online turned me on, but I resisted the urge.
I'm sure, that it won't stay this easy, but I deeply want to please Princess and I will try my best to make it until Christmas.
My first day without stroking was easier than expected. I had a strong compulsion to stroke a couple of times when something on TV or online turned me on, but I resisted the urge.
I'm sure, that it won't stay this easy, but I deeply want to please Princess and I will try my best to make it until Christmas.
No stroking until Christmas
Princess Shelle asked me if I can go without stroking until Christmas. Although it was only a question, I take this as a command. I know, that it will be very difficult, but I want to please Princess and I will do my very best to comply to her wish.
I have promised not to stroke without asking for permission first and as an additional motivation for me, I have offered to pay a price if I need to stroke. Whether it is a present for her, an extension of my chastity goal or whatever she decides, I will accepts that and either pay that price or refrain from stroking.
I have also suggested to start with the Hands-Free training, so she can surprise me with the trigger after I have reached my chastity goal. I want it to be something special, when I'm finally allowed to cum, having a normal orgasm from stroking seems like a waste of the arousal that I have built up during the last months.
It may sound strange, that I put myself in such a predicament, but I always wanted to experience how it feels to be really desperate and then be denied and pushed further and now Princess Shelle makes this fantasy a reality. I love to feel this level of control and I'm very grateful, that she keeps pushing me further.
I have promised not to stroke without asking for permission first and as an additional motivation for me, I have offered to pay a price if I need to stroke. Whether it is a present for her, an extension of my chastity goal or whatever she decides, I will accepts that and either pay that price or refrain from stroking.
I have also suggested to start with the Hands-Free training, so she can surprise me with the trigger after I have reached my chastity goal. I want it to be something special, when I'm finally allowed to cum, having a normal orgasm from stroking seems like a waste of the arousal that I have built up during the last months.
It may sound strange, that I put myself in such a predicament, but I always wanted to experience how it feels to be really desperate and then be denied and pushed further and now Princess Shelle makes this fantasy a reality. I love to feel this level of control and I'm very grateful, that she keeps pushing me further.
100 days
Today is my 100th day of chastity for Princess Shelle. It's starting to get really difficult and I can barely control myself. I listen to a file that allows me some stroking almost every day and I have even watched porn again without permission.
Staying chaste for the rest of the year will be way harder than I thought and I'm afraid, that I might fail, if I don't get my stroking back under control.
I have thanked Princess Shelle for guiding me the last 100 days and have asked her to help me to regain control. I'm sure she will find ways to help me last until she decides that I may relief some pressure.
Staying chaste for the rest of the year will be way harder than I thought and I'm afraid, that I might fail, if I don't get my stroking back under control.
I have thanked Princess Shelle for guiding me the last 100 days and have asked her to help me to regain control. I'm sure she will find ways to help me last until she decides that I may relief some pressure.
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