Erotic Control

My holiday assignment ended today and the last task was to answer the question how Princess Shelle can train me to serve her better. Not an easy question, because if I knew how to serve her better, I would already be doing that... I have expressed some ideas and I'm curios what Princess thinks about them.
Princess instructed me to listen to Erotic Control again. I did so in afternoon and I enjoyed the stroking a lot. It was so hard to stop, but finally I had to or I would have failed and cum. Since then, my arousal is back at 100% and it didn't take long until I wanted to stroke again.
I hope there will be some stroking instructions tomorrow...

A dream

Last night, I dreamed that a group of mistresses had me crawl in front of them and lick their dirty boots. They pushed me to the ground and spat on me... once again, I unfortunately can't remember more...
I was very horny when I woke up in the morning and I would have been allowed to edge twice in the shower, but my guests were still there, so I skipped that opportunity.

I listened to Voice of Control in the evening and afterwards, it took really long until I could stop stroking.
I will have to answer Princess Shelle's question about how she can train me to serve her better tomorrow. I have an idea now, but I need to thinks about that a bit longer...

Need to think

I was so horny when I went to bed yesterday, that I couldn't fall asleep. Luckily, Princess Shelle sent some stroking instructions not much later. This eased my urge a bit and I finally was able to sleep.
I was allowed to stroke while doing my mantra in the morning and may do so again this evening. I'm looking forward to it...

Princess was pleased with the pictures of my cleaned flat that I sent her. I found myself tidying up minor things that I normally would have ignored during the day. Her supervision seems to already change my thinking about cleaning up. This is amazing, it is really helpful for me!

The final part of my holiday assignment is to think about how Princess can train me to serve her better. This is a nice task, but not not an easy question to answer. I need to think about that in the following days...

I will have guests tomorrow evening, so there will be no update. I'll report back on Saturday...

Cleaning

I have been pretty busy cleaning up at home, but everything is clean now and I sent pictures to Princess Shelle. It really helped me to know, that she will inspect my work and much more motivated than I usually would have been.

I listened to 'Erotic Control - Rest' after I finished. I was a little tired after the cleaning and enjoyed the relaxation. The end of this session is really interesting... Princess Shelle tells me to wake up and stroke, but continues to talk and I don't really wake up but drift back to trance again.

My arousal is back

Being back in chastity today was pretty hard after all that cumming the last days. I was already in bed yesterday, when Princess Shelle sent me stroking instructions. I didn't edge since I wasn't horny again, yet, but as I woke up in the morning, I was quite aroused and would have liked to stroke.

Princess was so kind to assist me with keeping my flat clean and I now have to send her photos every two days and cleaning kept me distracted until the evening. After I was finished, I listened to the newly released file. it made me stroke and edge repeatedly, but I wasn't allowed to cum. The session confused me a bit. It made me want to cum, but also increased my desire to sacrifice my orgasm for Princess Shelle. If I keep listening to it, my start back into chastity might get harder than expected...

Back in chastity

My cumming assignment is over and I finished with 10 orgasms. I'm not sure if this is enough, Princess Shelle didn't tell me yet. I'm now back in chastity and I may not beg for an orgasm until I really can't take it any longer.

I have listened to Princess at Play again and suggestions of tickling were even stronger this time. I love this session!
I also listened to the playground initiation again as instructed and learned a new trigger that makes me send a small tribute to Princess.

Cumming - day 3

The last 24 hours of my orgasm assignment are running, but I only managed to cum twice today. My total count is now at 8. I don't think that Princess Shelle will accept 10 or less, so I'll need to try to catch up tomorrow.

I have listened to some of the playground trigger files today to reinforce them and I will listen to one more session before bed. I miss being horny for Princess...

Cumming - day 2

The second day of my orgasm challenge is running and I came 6 times by now. The first orgasm this morning was easy, but the other two took a bit longer. I'm slowly getting back into the stroking habit I had before being chaste, but I'm still looking forward to be in chastity again.

Cumming

I have started my cumming assignment and managed to cum 3 times in the last 7 hours. The first two times were easy, but the third time took long and wasn't much fun. Now that my constant arousal is gone, I'm realizing how much it is connected to my devotion towards Princess Shelle. I didn't have the desire to listen to any session today, but I'll listen to one in bed. I'm not sure, how deep I will go, though... I'm missing the arousal and I'm already looking forward to go back into chastity...

Tickle torture

I'll have holidays next week and I had asked Princess Shelle for an assignment for these days. I was secretly hoping for some stroking and edging fun, but Princess surprised me once again...
Well, I'll get to stroke. Actually, I have to cum as often as I can within 3 days, starting when I return home tomorrow. She has a number in mind that I must reach or I'll get punished.
This also means that I will cum one week before my goal of 100 days, but in the end, not getting what I want is what chastity and cock control is all about...

I'll also have to write down ways in which Princess Shelle can train me to serve her better. I really like this assignment! Besides that, I'll have to exercise daily and Princess want to play a little truth or dare game with me. Both options will be a bit embarrassing...

I have listened to a new session today: Caution: Princess at Play. It's about tickle torture and so much fun!!! I was thrashing around and breathing heavily and when I woke up, I felt exhausted, but full of endorphins!

Tied hands

I was already half awake when Princess Shelle sent me instructions for some anal play and stroking last night. It seems that I got used to receiving instructions at night and my subconscious mind was awaiting them.
I had a second opportunity to stroke, which I did in the early evening. This time I had to do it kneeling and with my hands and feet tied. It was easier to stay away from the edge while stroking in a way that I'm not used to. This was especially helpful since I had to stroke for 10 minutes this time, longer than usual...

Other than that, there is not much to tell today. There has been a writing assignment and I listened to Mission Impossible and the Sensory Overload loop. There were no playground triggers during the day, I guess they will come when I'm in bed...

It's sealed

I was especially happy to be woken up by Princess Shelle last night, because this time, I was allowed to stroke. I was also allowed to edge while doing my morning mantra and this time it was so hard to stop, that I almost had an accident.

I got an reply to my suggestion to give up the right to beg for an orgasm. Princess Shelle loved that and it's sealed now. I don't know how long she will deny me and having no influence on it is a huge turn-on for me. I always had the conflict between wanting to cum and wanting to stay chaste in me and Princess has take away that burden. I'm so happy about that!

Triggers

There was no wake-up call tonight, but Princess kept me busy with assignments and triggers as soon as I was back home from work. I had to exercise, do a writing assignment and there was a new trigger that was especially difficult for me.
I had to walk like a sissy somewhere in public. I was very reluctant to do that, but was unable to disobey. However, I didn't dare to go completely into public and went on my terrace instead, always watching the windows of my neighbors. This felt really humiliating, I hope, this trigger does not come to often...

No more begging?

Princess Shelle woke me up with instructions once again last night. For the next 3 days, I'll have to edge while doing my mantra in the morning and evening, so my arousal got a kick start this morning.
I listened to Sensory Overload as instructed in the afternoon and afterwards, I needed Princess Shelle's control so much, that I offered to give up my right to beg for an orgasm and just wait until the decides that it's time for me to cum. I'm curious if she will like that or rather have me begging...

Princess sent another trigger in the evening that gave me one more opportunity to stroke. I had been aroused since the morning and was happy to follow the instructions.
I'll go to bed now after doing my mantra and edging and I'll probably woken up with instructions again...

Willpower is fading

I now know why Princess Shelle said, that she doesn't know if I will make the 100 days. There have been a couple of opportunities to cum. So far, I could resist, but if these opportunities keep coming, I'm not sure how long my willpower will last.

I had to follow my favorite playground trigger today and I chose one that allows stroking, of course. It has become extremely hard to stop stroking and afterwards, I'm even more horny every time, but no touching is even more frustrating. I'm really looking forward to after the 100 days are over in two weeks, but there's still my subconscious mind, that wants me to be denied.

Butt-plug

I had to wear a butt-plug for at least one hour today. I choose a medium size and while I was wearing it, Princess Shelle sent some stroking instructions. The plug pressed on my prostrate while I was stroking and it felt great. But I was also much harder to stop stroking.
I had again the opportunity to cum, but I resisted the temptation. I still want to go 100 days, but I also want to cum. I'm not sure, how many opportunities I'll be able to skip...

Confused about cumming

I was already in bed, when Princess sent two stroke commands. I was happy to comply, but it didn't make it easier to fall asleep afterwards.
There were more occasions to stroke today and I even had the opportunity to cum. I was desperate to cum, but somehow I couldn't do the final step. That's really confusing, I want to cum, but my subconscious mind says no...
I'm still very horny and I'm looking forward to stroke during the evening mantra.

Confusing dreams

I woke up two times last night, thinking that I had heard my email alert. This was very confusing, it felt so real, but there were no new commands from Princess Shelle. I woke up one more time later, or maybe I dreamed that I woke up, I'm not sure about that. I remember that my cock was rock hard, but I can't remember feeling aroused. Very strange...
I was rather horny in the morning and would have liked to stroke a bit, but I had to wait for Princess Shelle's instructions.

I had to let ice cubes melt in my ass again today. It felt a little more uncomfortable than last time, but being allowed to stroke while they melted was worth it.

After the busy weeks of the farm assignment and the lucky number assignment, playing on Princess Shelle's playground leaves me much more time for my self, but I'm always thinking of what file I should listen to next. I'm need to be under Princess Shelle's control and I'm craving her commands...

Cleaning

Princess Shelle instructed me to dress up for dinner today. There was also a cleaning assignment, so I did that wearing my maids uniform. I tidied up the bedroom, changed the sheets and prepared dinner afterwards. After I ate, I was allowed to stroke for 15 minutes. Most stroking sessions are much shorter than that, so I enjoyed it a lot. Even by stroking fast, I couldn't edge without permission.

I have listened to Appreciation for Me and my desire to stay chaste is now stronger again. Maybe is should go until Princess Shelle's birthday, it's not that much longer...
I just finished with the monthly training file. There is no awakening at the end and it took some minutes until I was awake enough to open my eyes and write today's journal entry. I'm still dizzy and it's a bit difficult to write, so I'll end here...

Woken up by Princess

The playground weeks have really started now. I was woken up by Princess Shelle's instructions twice last night due to the different time zones. I would normally hate that, but Princess can wake me up any time and I will be happy to follow her instructions.
I'm following her instructions so automatically, that I'm wondering if it would be better not to check twitter when I'm not in private to avoid an embarrassing situation, but I'm not sure if I can stay away that long.

There was a trigger that I didn't know yet. I had to stick two ice cubes in my ass and let them melt there while stroking. It's an interesting feeling. I have played with enemas before, but always with larger amounts of liquid, which got uncomfortable after a while. This is way better...

I listened to Sensory Overload in the evening, which made me incredible horny again and soon after I woke up, I received the instruction to wear rubber bands around my cock and balls. I'm still wearing them and it's quite uncomfortable, especially when my cock get hard spontaneously, but I want to make it this time and I will be allowed to stroke when I'm finished.

I will go to bed soon, expecting to be woken up again. I'm actually looking forward to it...

Confident again

I was allowed to stroke before I got up and to edge in the shower. I'm still horny, but less frustrated now and I'm confident, that I'll make the 100 days. I have even thought about going even longer...
It's amazing how quickly my mind can change about that...

I listened to the two new sessions again and I can remember a little bit more now. Both are hot fantasies that fit together quite well. Being kidnapped and seduced by Princess such an arousing thought!

Start of the playground weeks

The two playground weeks have started and there were three occasions to stroke today. I enjoyed them a lot and my frustration got a bit less, at least until I listened to Princess Shelle's voice again.

The special deals of this week contained Mission Impossible and My Chosen Slave, both descriptions sound hot, so I bought them. Like so often, I can't remember much of the content, but I'm feeling a burning arousal after listening and I'm even more desperate to stroke than I was this morning.

Almost a wet dream

I woke up last night being incredibly aroused and on the very edge of orgasm. I couldn't do anything to lessen the arousal and I was concerned that I might cum without permission by only thinking about it. I just lay there without moving and tried to distract my mind without much success. It took a while until I drifted back into sleep. I realized later today, that this exactly what the Wet Dreams recording is about...

I took a little break from listening today and will only listen to one session in bed. The two week of playground triggers starts soon, I'm curios, what the new trigger are...

I need guidance

I finished my assignment with listening to Lesson in Disobedience and Hypnotic Prison. If I hadn't already been addicted to Princess Shelle, I would definitely be now... It's been over half an hour now since I woke up from Hypnotic Prison and I'm still in a wonderful state between trance and being fully awake. This doesn't make it easier to write down my thoughts, so this will be a rather short entry today...

I still want to reach 100 days of chastity, but I have been so horny the last couple of days, that I'm not sure if I will change my mind before. I told Princess about my goal and asked for her guidance, so I guess, there's no turning back now...

Still no stroking

I started the evening with the 5th listening to Sensory Overload. This session always makes me so horny, that I can hardly sit still. I want to stroke so badly, but there were no stroking instructions today. The no-touching periods make it so hard to stay chaste...
I listened to I Am Your Mind for my assignment and will listen to Brainwashed 5 in bed. I need to listen to two more sessions tomorrow. There are still so many great sessions I can choose from, it's hard to decide...

Interesting outlooks

Princess Shelle announced new Playground sessions and two weeks full of commands yesterday. I'm so exited to find out, what the new commands are about and I'm looking forward to two interesting weeks.

Before I continued with my assignment, I listened to Sensory Overload and Voice of Control again. I didn't take long after awakening until I felt somehow lost and needed to go into trance again. I chose Hand Maiden this time, it's such an erotic fantasy!

Princess liked the feedback and ideas I had sent and said that there's a lot of training coming my way. Whatever it will be, I'm looking forward to it!

I have already listened to all sessions that let me drift into sleep, but I have gotten so used to that, that I don't want to fall asleep without listening. I'm going to listen to Mind Numbing Sleep, but it doesn't count for the assignment. I have four sessions left to listen to and once to Sensory Overload now...

Conflicting thoughts

I was craving to hear Princess Shelle's voice so much when I returned from work, but I had to wait for a delivery guy until I could start listening. I felt like a little puppy waiting for its owner...
After the delivery guy had showed up, I started with Sensory Overload and Voice of Control, which don't count for the lucky number assignment.
I had quite a conflict in my mind. I'm not allowed to touch for two days, but Voice of Control contains stroking instructions. I had to think for a while what to do, but since I wanted to stroke so badly, I decided not to do so. It's good to give up my desires for Princess...

I listened to Automatic Obedience later and I've planned Surrender to Sleep for bedtimes. That's 8 sessions left for the next three days if I don't run into one that requires repeated listening again...

Busy Schedule

I woke up very early... and very aroused. I couldn't fall asleep again, so I listened to Sensory Overload a second time. I still can't remember the content... There is no awakening at the end of the session and I drifted of to sleep again at some point.

I listened to as much sessions as possible today to get a bit ahead of my schedule. I won't have that much time during the week...
I started with Behavior Modification and Behavior Modification - Appreciation for Me in a row in the afternoon. I took really long until I was awake completely again and I felt so wonderfully owned by Princess. I had a deep need to please her, so I bought a little gift from her wishlist.

I continued with Voice of Control in the evening. I didn't remember how powerful this session is. I couldn't stop stroking for several minutes after listening and I'm still feeling horny. There's also the instruction to listen three times, so I'll have to listen to two sessions besides those for the lucky number assignment in the next two days.

I'm going to listen to Wet Dreams in bed. I hope to have a nice dream of Princess...

Sensory Overload

The new file 'Sensory Overload' was published today. The title says it all, I have no clue, what happened while I was in trance, but I felt great when I woke up. Well, maybe waking up isn't the correct term. I stayed in a state between trance and being awake for quite some time afterwards...
I have to listen to it at least 5 times, this will make it even more difficult to keep up with the lucky number assignment.

Speaking of that assignment... I can't recall what a couple of files are about and this is the perfect opportunity to listen to them again, although I'm not sure if this will help my memory...
Besides Sensory Overload, I have listened to Thought Control and Edge of Control and I will listen to Sleep Manipulation in bed.
I had planned to listen to the Forced Femme series tomorrow and spend my day in my maids uniform, but I'm not allowed to dress up for 3 days, so I'll have to choose something else.

Princess Shelle asked for feedback about the past weeks training, so I wrote down some ideas for assignments and files that I had in mind. I also wrote about the things that I liked less, like the rubber bands, but told her that those are always a good test of obedience.
I always want to obey and please Princess, even if that means that I'll have to to things that I don't really like, so I offered to be her guinea pig if she wants to try out new ideas...

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The lucky number

I was woken by my email alert once again this night. Princess Shelle had answered to my lucky number... I had expected that it had to do with chastity, but I was wrong. I chose 18, so that will be the number of different files I have to listen to during the next 7 days. Looks like I'll spend a lot of time in trance in the next days...
In her email, Princess made a bit fun of me being in this predicament. This turned me on so much! I have read it a couple of times today and each time my cock got rock hard.

One of todays assignments was to listen to my favorite file from the farm assignment again. I can't say which one I like more, Obedience Training or Domina 24 Hours, so I decided to listen to both as the first two files. I started with Domina 24 Hours in the evening. It took me deeper than ever before and I felt so submissive and horny afterwards.
I had the permission to edge for paying my monthly obligation and after the session was the perfect time to do so. I took my time and enjoyed it a lot.

I will listen to Obedience Training in bed and fall asleep with Mind Numbing Sleep. I'm going to listen as much as possible this weekend to get a bit ahead of my schedule...