I dreamed of Princess Shelle last night. She visited me at home and I cooked for her and served her dinner in my maids uniform. Such a wonderful dream! I wished I could remember more from it.
It wasn't long into the evening until I needed to hear her voice again. There were no specific instructions which file to listen to, so I listened to Obedience Training again. I love this session and after waking up, I was craving to edge.
I only had the permission to stroke at 2pm today, but I was so busy at work, that I had to skip that. I'm so horny as I write this, but I still love being chaste for Princess.
Edging Marathon
Today was the last day of the Farm Assignment. I had to edge 12 times, each one on the full hour. That meant, I had to start in the morning and continue to do so while being at work. I don't like to edge at the office, there's always the fear, that someone could notice and I can't enjoy the stroking.
When I returned home, I had already edged so often, that I was looking forward for this assignment to end and I couldn't fully enjoy it either.
After finishing with the edging assignment, I listened to Domina 24 Hours. It's a fantasy about spending a day serving Princess Shelle, including a little humiliation and a punishment. I almost came without touching while listening to it.
The last part of the assignment was to choose a lucky number from 7-21. I choose 18...
I don't know what this means, but I could imagine, that it's about more chastity. I'm actually looking forward to it...
When I returned home, I had already edged so often, that I was looking forward for this assignment to end and I couldn't fully enjoy it either.
After finishing with the edging assignment, I listened to Domina 24 Hours. It's a fantasy about spending a day serving Princess Shelle, including a little humiliation and a punishment. I almost came without touching while listening to it.
The last part of the assignment was to choose a lucky number from 7-21. I choose 18...
I don't know what this means, but I could imagine, that it's about more chastity. I'm actually looking forward to it...
Pink Panties
I had to wear pink panties today. Going to work with them felt even more humiliating than going without underwear. I was concerned that someone would notice, although this was very unlikely. The panties kept slipping in between my ass cheeks and the feeling of the lace on my cock was unused.
Back at home, I listened to Obedience Training. This is by far the hottest session I have listened to so far. I was extremely horny for the rest of the day and had a strong desire to please Princess.
I'll have to stroke for 15 minutes before sleeping, but the strange thing is, that I don't have the desire to do so. The stroking always eases my arousal for a while and currently, I don't want that.
I'm really confused about my feelings. I was desperate to stroke yesterday evening, but today I don't want to, even though I'm way more hornier...
Back at home, I listened to Obedience Training. This is by far the hottest session I have listened to so far. I was extremely horny for the rest of the day and had a strong desire to please Princess.
I'll have to stroke for 15 minutes before sleeping, but the strange thing is, that I don't have the desire to do so. The stroking always eases my arousal for a while and currently, I don't want that.
I'm really confused about my feelings. I was desperate to stroke yesterday evening, but today I don't want to, even though I'm way more hornier...
A Lesson in (Dis)obedience
Today was again a test of my obedience. I was only allowed to drink water and it was really difficult for me to do without coffee. The coffee mug is an integral part of my day at the office and being denied that is almost a punishment for me.
The session to listen to was A Lesson in Disobedience. It is all about the guilt that comes from disobedience and I had to listen twice. I had already experienced that feeling and this session reinforced my determination not to be disobedient again.
I already got prove of that, as I had to wear rubber bands again. I simply can't get used to them, they pinch my skin and the discomfort stays for some time after taking them off.
The session to listen to was A Lesson in Disobedience. It is all about the guilt that comes from disobedience and I had to listen twice. I had already experienced that feeling and this session reinforced my determination not to be disobedient again.
I already got prove of that, as I had to wear rubber bands again. I simply can't get used to them, they pinch my skin and the discomfort stays for some time after taking them off.
Brainwashed
Today was the second day of the farm assignment with two sessions to listen to.
I listened to Brainwashed Program 5 in the afternoon. It's quite short, but very powerful nonetheless. My desire to be chaste for Princess is now even stronger than it already was. My chastity offering has ended today, but the thought of begging for an orgasm is far away now.
The second file was Hand Maiden by Lady Helena. This is the first of her sessions I have listened to. I like her voice and the session is so hot! I wished there would be a second file continuing that fantasy. I couldn't help but listen a second time in the evening...
I'm wearing a rubberband around my cock and balls again while I'm writing this. Princess seems to like that a lot more than I do, it's always a test of my obedience. I'm glad, that it's only for 30 minutes this time...
I listened to Brainwashed Program 5 in the afternoon. It's quite short, but very powerful nonetheless. My desire to be chaste for Princess is now even stronger than it already was. My chastity offering has ended today, but the thought of begging for an orgasm is far away now.
The second file was Hand Maiden by Lady Helena. This is the first of her sessions I have listened to. I like her voice and the session is so hot! I wished there would be a second file continuing that fantasy. I couldn't help but listen a second time in the evening...
I'm wearing a rubberband around my cock and balls again while I'm writing this. Princess seems to like that a lot more than I do, it's always a test of my obedience. I'm glad, that it's only for 30 minutes this time...
Farm assignment
I have started with the farm assignment today. Among other instructions, there is at least on file to listen to and a writing assignment every day.
I had typed the writing assignments in the past, but have now started to write all of them into a notebook using a proper fountain pen. I haven't used one since I was in school and had to get accustomed to it again.
Tonight, I'll have to listen to "Obey Obey Obey" in a loop until I fall asleep. I don't know that file yet, but I guess, the title already tells what it is about...
I had typed the writing assignments in the past, but have now started to write all of them into a notebook using a proper fountain pen. I haven't used one since I was in school and had to get accustomed to it again.
Tonight, I'll have to listen to "Obey Obey Obey" in a loop until I fall asleep. I don't know that file yet, but I guess, the title already tells what it is about...
So horny
My email alert woke my up this morning. Princess Shelle had released the instructions for the farm assignment... the sound of the alert alone has become a trigger that make me excited, and combined with the announcement of the training, it had me incredibly aroused immediately. I couldn't sleep any longer and downloaded the instructions, the coming days will certainly be exciting, I can't wait to start tomorrow...
I thought, I was getting used to less stroking again, but today, I was so desperate to stroke and there where no instructions to do so. I listened to the monthly training file, but I was a little difficult to concentrate being this horny. I'm so frustrated right now, I hope there will be some stroking instructions tomorrow...
I thought, I was getting used to less stroking again, but today, I was so desperate to stroke and there where no instructions to do so. I listened to the monthly training file, but I was a little difficult to concentrate being this horny. I'm so frustrated right now, I hope there will be some stroking instructions tomorrow...
Latex in the sun
I'm getting used to less stroking again... I was allowed to stroke in the shower for 5 minutes, but no more today. My need to cum has switched to the desire to stay chaste again and I'm already thinking about reaching the 100 days mark. But I know from the past weeks, that this can change rather quickly...
I had told Princess, that I was encrypting my porn drive yesterday and that one sentence in her answer: "you know you just want to hit the delete button" almost had me do it. But knowing that she is holding the only key to the collection I built over years is so exciting! My heart was racing when I deleted my copy of the key after sending it to her.
I have deviated from my instruction to be naked at home a bit today. The weather was hot, so I spend an hour in the sun, completely encased in latex and heavy rubber before following the assignment. I love the feeling of the sweat pooling under the latex.
The farm assignment is coming soon and Princess is making suggestions about it, but I have absolutely no idea in which direction this will go. I like the suspense, but I'm also getting a bit nervous about it...
I had told Princess, that I was encrypting my porn drive yesterday and that one sentence in her answer: "you know you just want to hit the delete button" almost had me do it. But knowing that she is holding the only key to the collection I built over years is so exciting! My heart was racing when I deleted my copy of the key after sending it to her.
I have deviated from my instruction to be naked at home a bit today. The weather was hot, so I spend an hour in the sun, completely encased in latex and heavy rubber before following the assignment. I love the feeling of the sweat pooling under the latex.
The farm assignment is coming soon and Princess is making suggestions about it, but I have absolutely no idea in which direction this will go. I like the suspense, but I'm also getting a bit nervous about it...
No more porn
It has been a rather uneventful day... I'm following my daily assignments and Princess sent the instruction to wear rubber-bands around my cock for two hours. I don't like the rubber-bands, but it was an opportunity to earn some stroking. Well, I gave up after the first hour, so no stroking.
I was lucky, that there was another stroking assignment today. I'm feeling less frustrated than yesterday right now.
My decision (is it really mine?) not to watch porn anymore is final, I have started to move my collection to an encrypted drive and I've told Princess that I will send her the encryption-key. There's no turning back now... I guess, I could as well delete it, but it's easier for my this way...
I was lucky, that there was another stroking assignment today. I'm feeling less frustrated than yesterday right now.
My decision (is it really mine?) not to watch porn anymore is final, I have started to move my collection to an encrypted drive and I've told Princess that I will send her the encryption-key. There's no turning back now... I guess, I could as well delete it, but it's easier for my this way...
Assignments
I was woken by an email from Princess Shelle in the early morning. She will be on a well deserved vacation for a few days and sent me instructions to follow for the rest of the week.
It seems like she is tightening her grip and these instructions will make sure, that she will be even more in my mind during the next days.
I will now have to do my mantra for 10 minutes now and listen to a session in the morning and before sleep.
I also have to clean my shoes every day when I return home as I would do with hers and then undress and shower. I am not allowed to wear clothes at home.
It hasn't been very warm the last days, so I had to turn on the heating and I was a bit uncomfortable until the room had warmed up. But following those assignments that are a little uncomfortable makes me feel especially submissive.
There will be a special assignment on friday, that my Princess expects me to follow for one week and then I'll have to choose a number. She didn't tell much more, I don't know what the assignment will be, nor what the number means, but I'm almost sure, that she will surprise me with something I didn't expect once again.
There were no stroking assignments today. After all the edging during the last week, I was missing it, I wanted to stroke so badly and I'm quite frustrated right now! I hope, that I'm allowed to stroke tomorrow...
After listening to Hypnotic Prison a couple of times, there's an interesting change going on in my mind. My interest in watching porn is almost gone and seeing sexy image while surfing doesn't turn me on as it used to. What turns me on even more now, is thinking of Princess Shelle. I was rock hard the very moment I received her mail this morning and while reading it, when I answered her , when I read her tweets. Amazing!
The thought of deleting my porn collection has grown stronger, but I'm still a bit reluctant. I'm considering to put it on an encrypted drive and give the key to Princess. That way, I wouldn't have to decide that, giving up decisions always feels good!
It seems like she is tightening her grip and these instructions will make sure, that she will be even more in my mind during the next days.
I will now have to do my mantra for 10 minutes now and listen to a session in the morning and before sleep.
I also have to clean my shoes every day when I return home as I would do with hers and then undress and shower. I am not allowed to wear clothes at home.
It hasn't been very warm the last days, so I had to turn on the heating and I was a bit uncomfortable until the room had warmed up. But following those assignments that are a little uncomfortable makes me feel especially submissive.
There will be a special assignment on friday, that my Princess expects me to follow for one week and then I'll have to choose a number. She didn't tell much more, I don't know what the assignment will be, nor what the number means, but I'm almost sure, that she will surprise me with something I didn't expect once again.
There were no stroking assignments today. After all the edging during the last week, I was missing it, I wanted to stroke so badly and I'm quite frustrated right now! I hope, that I'm allowed to stroke tomorrow...
After listening to Hypnotic Prison a couple of times, there's an interesting change going on in my mind. My interest in watching porn is almost gone and seeing sexy image while surfing doesn't turn me on as it used to. What turns me on even more now, is thinking of Princess Shelle. I was rock hard the very moment I received her mail this morning and while reading it, when I answered her , when I read her tweets. Amazing!
The thought of deleting my porn collection has grown stronger, but I'm still a bit reluctant. I'm considering to put it on an encrypted drive and give the key to Princess. That way, I wouldn't have to decide that, giving up decisions always feels good!
Punishment
I received my punishment for forgetting to edge today... I had to wear nipple clamps for one hour and slap my nipples ten times after taking them off.
I put on clothespins while doing today's cleaning assignment in my maid uniform. I have played with nipple clamps before, but never had them on much longer than 15 minutes. My nipples started to burn after half an hour and towards the end, I was counting the minutes, knowing, that the worst part was still to come.
Taking the clothespins off hurt like ***** (the swear jar is waiting for my payment) and I had to grind my teeth to deliver the slaps. I had to take breaks between strokes and it took me almost five minutes to deliver them all. My nipples will remind in the next days, me not to forget an assignment...
My first beta-training assignment has ended today and I made it without an accident or skipping more than one edge per day. I'm curious, how my training will continue.
I put on clothespins while doing today's cleaning assignment in my maid uniform. I have played with nipple clamps before, but never had them on much longer than 15 minutes. My nipples started to burn after half an hour and towards the end, I was counting the minutes, knowing, that the worst part was still to come.
Taking the clothespins off hurt like ***** (the swear jar is waiting for my payment) and I had to grind my teeth to deliver the slaps. I had to take breaks between strokes and it took me almost five minutes to deliver them all. My nipples will remind in the next days, me not to forget an assignment...
My first beta-training assignment has ended today and I made it without an accident or skipping more than one edge per day. I'm curious, how my training will continue.
Hypnotic Prison
I listened to the new session Hypnotic Prison before I slept yesterday. This one is so powerful! I lay there afterwards, still have in trance, and was thinking about my submission to Princess Shelle.
I listened again this afternoon and after only listening twice, the thought of deleting my porn collection is forming in my mind. I only want to become aroused while thinking of Princess Shelle.
I have been a bit lazy today and didn't watch the time, so I forgot to do my edge at 1pm. When I realized that, I felt so bad! Princess Shelle has taught me, that obedience is pleasure, but today I learned, that this implies, that disobedience feels really bad. I had a big urge to make up for my laziness, so I confessed to Princess and asked for a punishment. I hope that this will make me feel better.
I was quite surprised about these feelings, this is again a prove Princess Shelle's control over me.
I listened again this afternoon and after only listening twice, the thought of deleting my porn collection is forming in my mind. I only want to become aroused while thinking of Princess Shelle.
I have been a bit lazy today and didn't watch the time, so I forgot to do my edge at 1pm. When I realized that, I felt so bad! Princess Shelle has taught me, that obedience is pleasure, but today I learned, that this implies, that disobedience feels really bad. I had a big urge to make up for my laziness, so I confessed to Princess and asked for a punishment. I hope that this will make me feel better.
I was quite surprised about these feelings, this is again a prove Princess Shelle's control over me.
Confused
I had looked forward to a day with less stroking, but soon after doing the first edge in the morning, I was craving to stroke again. I could hardly sit still until it was time for the second edge after lunch.
Suddenly, that idea of asking for a break from stroking was not so compelling any more.
I'm confused, my thoughts have been changing so often during the last days... On some days, I'm so desperate to cum, on others, I don't want to start all over... I have thought about asking for a ruined orgasm as a compromise, but also about being denied much longer. Princess Shelle is playing with my mind and she's so good at it... I admire her for that...
I have visited friends in the afternoon and had some distraction, but that also meant, that I had to edge at their place. I tried to stroke in the bathroom, but hearing them talk only a few steps away was too distracting and it somehow did not feel right, so I skipped this one.
I now had to make it in the evening if I didn't want to fail. I arrived home just in time and enjoyed the edging.
I checked my mails afterwards and found an answer to my love message. Princess Shelle liked it. I'm so happy, it feels so good to please her...
Hypnotic Prison has been released a few minutes ago and I'm dying to listen to it. The description sounds great and I'm more than ready to fall deeper under Princess Shelle's control. I'm sure there will be something interesting to tell tomorrow...
Suddenly, that idea of asking for a break from stroking was not so compelling any more.
I'm confused, my thoughts have been changing so often during the last days... On some days, I'm so desperate to cum, on others, I don't want to start all over... I have thought about asking for a ruined orgasm as a compromise, but also about being denied much longer. Princess Shelle is playing with my mind and she's so good at it... I admire her for that...
I have visited friends in the afternoon and had some distraction, but that also meant, that I had to edge at their place. I tried to stroke in the bathroom, but hearing them talk only a few steps away was too distracting and it somehow did not feel right, so I skipped this one.
I now had to make it in the evening if I didn't want to fail. I arrived home just in time and enjoyed the edging.
I checked my mails afterwards and found an answer to my love message. Princess Shelle liked it. I'm so happy, it feels so good to please her...
Hypnotic Prison has been released a few minutes ago and I'm dying to listen to it. The description sounds great and I'm more than ready to fall deeper under Princess Shelle's control. I'm sure there will be something interesting to tell tomorrow...
Living on the edge
Today was difficult... I had not only to edge at the scheduled times, but every time I had to pee.
I had a slight hang-over from yesterday and was quite thirsty, which didn't make things easier. I was lucky, that I was working from home today, so I was undisturbed while stroking.
I also had to wear rubber bands around my cock and balls again, this time for two hours. This is one of those assignments I don't like that much, the rubber bands pinched my skin and it got rather uncomfortable after half an hour. I clenched my teeth and survived the two hours, but taking them off after that was even worse. When it was time for the next edge, my cock still hurt a bit and I had some difficulties to reach the edge.
At one point in the late afternoon, I didn't want to stroke any more. My cock was starting to get sore and with every edge, I was worried that I might stop one stroke to late. The line between edging and cumming has become very thin and I must be very careful not to go to far.
This is such a roller-coaster ride... most of the time, I desperately want to cum and there have been times during the last days, where I felt like I could cum by only thinking about it. Then again, I want to please Princess by staying chaste. I have gone so far already, that I don't want to start all over.
And today added the edging overload to the mix... but regardless how I'm feeling, I love what Princess Shelle does to me.
I have thought about begging for a break from stroking when my training assignment ends on monday, but I'm a bit worried, that the break might become longer than I would want it to be... if I'm allowed a break at all. After all, I asked to feel desperate and frustrated.
The rest of the day was merely a side-notice compared to the edging marathon. I had the instruction to skip my favorite TV show today, so I didn't watch the soccer championship as I would normally have done. In fact, I didn't turn on the TV at all today. No distraction from my arousal from that side...
I had a slight hang-over from yesterday and was quite thirsty, which didn't make things easier. I was lucky, that I was working from home today, so I was undisturbed while stroking.
I also had to wear rubber bands around my cock and balls again, this time for two hours. This is one of those assignments I don't like that much, the rubber bands pinched my skin and it got rather uncomfortable after half an hour. I clenched my teeth and survived the two hours, but taking them off after that was even worse. When it was time for the next edge, my cock still hurt a bit and I had some difficulties to reach the edge.
At one point in the late afternoon, I didn't want to stroke any more. My cock was starting to get sore and with every edge, I was worried that I might stop one stroke to late. The line between edging and cumming has become very thin and I must be very careful not to go to far.
This is such a roller-coaster ride... most of the time, I desperately want to cum and there have been times during the last days, where I felt like I could cum by only thinking about it. Then again, I want to please Princess by staying chaste. I have gone so far already, that I don't want to start all over.
And today added the edging overload to the mix... but regardless how I'm feeling, I love what Princess Shelle does to me.
I have thought about begging for a break from stroking when my training assignment ends on monday, but I'm a bit worried, that the break might become longer than I would want it to be... if I'm allowed a break at all. After all, I asked to feel desperate and frustrated.
The rest of the day was merely a side-notice compared to the edging marathon. I had the instruction to skip my favorite TV show today, so I didn't watch the soccer championship as I would normally have done. In fact, I didn't turn on the TV at all today. No distraction from my arousal from that side...
Love message
There isn't much to write today, it has been a busy day and I returned home late...
I have done my edging assignments and there was an additional one to stroke for 5 minutes at 3pm. Stroking at work is really frustrating. It makes me horny, but I can't relax enough to be able to enjoy it. I'm just doing it, because I want to obey Princess. I suppose that's the purpose of this assignment...
There was one other noteworthy assignment. I was to write a love message to my Princess, what a nice task! It was not easy to find good words, but I enjoyed it. It made me think about the great time I'm having with Princess Shelle and it made me feel so good, so devoted to her...
I have done my edging assignments and there was an additional one to stroke for 5 minutes at 3pm. Stroking at work is really frustrating. It makes me horny, but I can't relax enough to be able to enjoy it. I'm just doing it, because I want to obey Princess. I suppose that's the purpose of this assignment...
There was one other noteworthy assignment. I was to write a love message to my Princess, what a nice task! It was not easy to find good words, but I enjoyed it. It made me think about the great time I'm having with Princess Shelle and it made me feel so good, so devoted to her...
Can't edge without permission
As instructed, I have stroked while doing my mantra before going to bed yesterday. I wanted to edge, but I couldn't get close, not even with fast strokes. Only a few hours before, I was close to the edge quickly with only light strokes.
This is not the first time, that I wasn't able to edge or even stroke without explicit instructions. I always love it, when Princess Shelle's control over me is showing so clearly.
There has been a cleaning assignment again, today. Once again a perfect timing, I had neglected that and I needed to clean up before the weekend. This time, I was totally encased in latex while cleaning. It was not easy with my mask limiting my field of vision.
I have listened to the monthly training file again in the evening and I still can't remember what it is about. I only wake up every time feeling comfortable and happy...
This is not the first time, that I wasn't able to edge or even stroke without explicit instructions. I always love it, when Princess Shelle's control over me is showing so clearly.
There has been a cleaning assignment again, today. Once again a perfect timing, I had neglected that and I needed to clean up before the weekend. This time, I was totally encased in latex while cleaning. It was not easy with my mask limiting my field of vision.
I have listened to the monthly training file again in the evening and I still can't remember what it is about. I only wake up every time feeling comfortable and happy...
Edging
Today was the first day with my beta-training. I enjoyed the edging in the morning and took my time. I was not able to do the edging at noon. I'm allowed to skip only one of the edges per day, so in the afternoon, still at work, I had to do it. I hurried to get to the edge, but had to be very careful not to go to far.
I was going to take my time to edge in the evening, but got there much sooner than I wanted. These quick edges always add to my frustration...
I have listened to Bondage in the early evening to prepared myself for the upcoming Prison file. Princess Shelle's tweets about the file always increase my anticipation, I can't wait to listen to it!
The rest of the evening was especially frustrating. I was so horny and wanted to stroke, but I have to wait until I mantra before I sleep.
There is an important assignment mentioned in today instructions that I shall prepare myself for. I wonder what that will be...
I was going to take my time to edge in the evening, but got there much sooner than I wanted. These quick edges always add to my frustration...
I have listened to Bondage in the early evening to prepared myself for the upcoming Prison file. Princess Shelle's tweets about the file always increase my anticipation, I can't wait to listen to it!
The rest of the evening was especially frustrating. I was so horny and wanted to stroke, but I have to wait until I mantra before I sleep.
There is an important assignment mentioned in today instructions that I shall prepare myself for. I wonder what that will be...
Training assignment
I had enjoyed not touching yesterday, but when I lay in bed, I wanted to stroke again and it was difficult to fall asleep.
I have listened to Appreciation for Me in the evening, I remembered, that it made me wanting to stroke less, but what I did not remember was, how arousing this session is.
I received my training assignment not much later. Until next Monday, I will have to edge 4 times a day at fixed times while I mantra. And at two of these times, I'm at work. My heart raced when I read that. This will be even harder than last week. My Princess is really pushing me now, I love that.
I have listened to Appreciation for Me in the evening, I remembered, that it made me wanting to stroke less, but what I did not remember was, how arousing this session is.
I received my training assignment not much later. Until next Monday, I will have to edge 4 times a day at fixed times while I mantra. And at two of these times, I'm at work. My heart raced when I read that. This will be even harder than last week. My Princess is really pushing me now, I love that.
Latex maid
I haven't received further instructions for my chastity training, yet, so I took the opportunity to cool down a bit and didn't touch today.
Today's assignments contained the instruction to clean at home wearing panties, bra, breasts and heels, so I put on my latex maid-uniform and completed it with a black and white maid mask. I cleaned the bathroom and did the laundry before preparing lunch and continued with the kitchen after eating. I was sweating heavily under the latex, so I changed into another outfit after I was finished with cleaning.
I listened to Forced Femme - Breasts later and while waking up, I started fondling my breast again. With each touch, I could feel a tingling in my cock.
I'm still dressed up and I'm going to wear the bra and breasts to bed this night.
Today's assignments contained the instruction to clean at home wearing panties, bra, breasts and heels, so I put on my latex maid-uniform and completed it with a black and white maid mask. I cleaned the bathroom and did the laundry before preparing lunch and continued with the kitchen after eating. I was sweating heavily under the latex, so I changed into another outfit after I was finished with cleaning.
I listened to Forced Femme - Breasts later and while waking up, I started fondling my breast again. With each touch, I could feel a tingling in my cock.
I'm still dressed up and I'm going to wear the bra and breasts to bed this night.
Princess Shelle's puppy
My week of chastity is over today and I'm would really like to cum, but I still have to wait two more weeks until my chastity offering ends. I have offered to do a beta-training assignment anyway and asked for instructions on how I should continue my chastity training. I wonder, what Princess has in store for me...
I didn't write much about the daily assignments lately, because I didn't want to repeat myself too often. I'm following the assignments as close as possible and today, there was an exciting new one...
I was only allowed to lick my drinks from a bowl today. I put it on the ground and every time I licked from it, I felt like Princess Shelle's little puppy.
I didn't write much about the daily assignments lately, because I didn't want to repeat myself too often. I'm following the assignments as close as possible and today, there was an exciting new one...
I was only allowed to lick my drinks from a bowl today. I put it on the ground and every time I licked from it, I felt like Princess Shelle's little puppy.
Needing to cum
Princess Shelle sent the new monthly training file today, I listened to it first in the afternoon. I don't recall what it's about, but it made me feel so cozy and happy... such a wonderful file...
I tried to stroke less today, because I feared I would fail. It was not easy, especially after listening to the Chastity Week file again, but I survived this day without an accident.
I feel the need to cum, but it is two more weeks until my chastity offering ends. When I'm finished with the chastity week tomorrow, it won't make sense to ask for an orgasm, but I will ask for a beta-training assignment anyway.
I have been thinking about in two weeks... I think that I will be really desperate to cum by now, but I secretly hope, that my Princess will make me beg for a little while.
I have realized, that I will only have three or four orgasms for the rest of the year, if my chastity periods always get longer as I asked for. It's a bit scary, but I always like a challenge and I love to be chaste for Princess.
I tried to stroke less today, because I feared I would fail. It was not easy, especially after listening to the Chastity Week file again, but I survived this day without an accident.
I feel the need to cum, but it is two more weeks until my chastity offering ends. When I'm finished with the chastity week tomorrow, it won't make sense to ask for an orgasm, but I will ask for a beta-training assignment anyway.
I have been thinking about in two weeks... I think that I will be really desperate to cum by now, but I secretly hope, that my Princess will make me beg for a little while.
I have realized, that I will only have three or four orgasms for the rest of the year, if my chastity periods always get longer as I asked for. It's a bit scary, but I always like a challenge and I love to be chaste for Princess.
Almost failed
I listened to the third file of the Chastity Week series today. Hearing the moans of Princess Shelle and the suggestion of her drug created such an intense arousal in me that I almost had an accident. I was only stroking very lightly after listening, but that was enough to get me very close to the edge in no time. I stopped at the very last moment and even after I stopped, it took a while until the edge subsided. I'll have to be careful in the next days, I don't want to fail and I certainly don't want to experience punishment after the taste that Princess gave me the other day.
I also learned, that from now on, Princess can put me into chastity whenever she wishes and I'll have to ask for an assignment before she decides if I'm allowed to cum. This is exactly what I have been thinking about lately, I wonder if there are hidden suggestions in one of the files that created that thought in me.
I also learned, that from now on, Princess can put me into chastity whenever she wishes and I'll have to ask for an assignment before she decides if I'm allowed to cum. This is exactly what I have been thinking about lately, I wonder if there are hidden suggestions in one of the files that created that thought in me.
So horny
I woke up before the alarm this morning and I wanted to stroke so badly! I checked the daily assignments first, as I do each morning, and learned, that I was only allowed to stroke in the evening today. Only a half day without being allowed to touch, but after all the stroking during the last days, this already was frustrating. How would it feel now, if I was not allowed to touch for a longer time?
I have listened to the second Chastity Week file and to Bondage again in the evening and in between, I stroked several times. The urge to stroke is almost constantly there, now...
I have listened to the second Chastity Week file and to Bondage again in the evening and in between, I stroked several times. The urge to stroke is almost constantly there, now...
Bondage
I was so horny last night, that I couldn't sleep, so I finally got up again and checked Princess Shelle's website. My heart jumped, when I saw, that the new file was released. I listened to it immediately...
This new session is so powerful! I felt so submissive afterwards and I finally fell asleep with a smile on my face.
I listened again this evening and since then, the words "I submit and I surrender" go back and forth in my mind.
I have also listened to the second file from the Week of Chastity series. This file is even more arousing the the first one. I stroked for more than half and hour after waking up and every time I got near the edge, my hands fell to my sides. I stroked again later in the evening...
The thought that being horny is so much better than an orgasm is deep in my mind by now and I just don't want to cum. I feel like I want to go on forever, but I'm sure, that at some point, the need to cum will get back. What if my Princess would then continue to deny me or tell me to ruin my orgasm?
This new session is so powerful! I felt so submissive afterwards and I finally fell asleep with a smile on my face.
I listened again this evening and since then, the words "I submit and I surrender" go back and forth in my mind.
I have also listened to the second file from the Week of Chastity series. This file is even more arousing the the first one. I stroked for more than half and hour after waking up and every time I got near the edge, my hands fell to my sides. I stroked again later in the evening...
The thought that being horny is so much better than an orgasm is deep in my mind by now and I just don't want to cum. I feel like I want to go on forever, but I'm sure, that at some point, the need to cum will get back. What if my Princess would then continue to deny me or tell me to ruin my orgasm?
Frustration
I had a sexy dream once again last night... the dreams are getting more frequent and I woke up being hard and horny several times during the last nights.
I listened for the second time to the first of the Chastity Week recordings and edged two times during the evening. It didn't take much stroking to get me to the edge, so I only stroked for a few minutes today, always taking my hands away when I reached the edge. This is becoming quite frustrating, but I love it, when my Princess makes things difficult for me...
I had to wear rubber bands around my cock and balls again, this time for one hour. I wanted to comply, but the pinching got too much after 20 minutes, that I took them off. I felt bad for failing, so I snapped one of the rubber bands on each of my tights 10 times. I stretched it as far as possible and I'm sure, the stripes will stay for a couple of days.
I listened for the second time to the first of the Chastity Week recordings and edged two times during the evening. It didn't take much stroking to get me to the edge, so I only stroked for a few minutes today, always taking my hands away when I reached the edge. This is becoming quite frustrating, but I love it, when my Princess makes things difficult for me...
I had to wear rubber bands around my cock and balls again, this time for one hour. I wanted to comply, but the pinching got too much after 20 minutes, that I took them off. I felt bad for failing, so I snapped one of the rubber bands on each of my tights 10 times. I stretched it as far as possible and I'm sure, the stripes will stay for a couple of days.
More chastity
When I listened to Mind Numbing Sleep last night, with my ankles and wrists bound together and the collar around my neck, I realized, how much I need Princess Shelle's control. It feels so good to surrender to her and the collar and cuffs somehow made me feel protected.
I had asked Princess, what had been the longest time she had a slave stay chaste and she asked back if I wanted to break records... I told her that I would love if she trained me to go longer and longer...
Well, I don't know what I'm getting myself into, but I love to be chaste for my Princess and the thought of interrupting my arousal with an orgasm is somehow unpleasant.
She replied today and instructed me to listen to the Week of Chastity series. I listened to the first file and masturbated later in the afternoon as instructed. As soon as I reached the edge, my hands automatically fell to my sides and I was unable to fully savor the edge. Staying on the edge has always eased my arousal for a while afterwards during the last days, but without it, the stroking only adds to my desperation.
I had asked Princess, what had been the longest time she had a slave stay chaste and she asked back if I wanted to break records... I told her that I would love if she trained me to go longer and longer...
Well, I don't know what I'm getting myself into, but I love to be chaste for my Princess and the thought of interrupting my arousal with an orgasm is somehow unpleasant.
She replied today and instructed me to listen to the Week of Chastity series. I listened to the first file and masturbated later in the afternoon as instructed. As soon as I reached the edge, my hands automatically fell to my sides and I was unable to fully savor the edge. Staying on the edge has always eased my arousal for a while afterwards during the last days, but without it, the stroking only adds to my desperation.
More dreams
I was hard and near the edge most of the time while I listened to Mind Numbing Sleep last night. Nevertheless, I fell asleep towards the end. I woke up totally hard and horny later in the night. I remember that I was wearing a chastity belt in my dreams, but not much more. It seems, that my erotic dreams are getting more frequent, now I only need to remember more of them...
I edged in the shower as assigned and later after listening to Subjugated Zombie. Needless to say that it didn't take a lot of stroking to get to the edge.
I'm looking forward to the new file. Princess Shelle announced that it will be about bondage. This and also the previous releases fit my fetishes so perfectly, it is as if my Princess is reading my thoughts...
I have to tie my wrist or ankles this night. I have noticed, that I am missing something when I don't wear my collar in bed, so I think a little bondage will make a nice addition to it...
I edged in the shower as assigned and later after listening to Subjugated Zombie. Needless to say that it didn't take a lot of stroking to get to the edge.
I'm looking forward to the new file. Princess Shelle announced that it will be about bondage. This and also the previous releases fit my fetishes so perfectly, it is as if my Princess is reading my thoughts...
I have to tie my wrist or ankles this night. I have noticed, that I am missing something when I don't wear my collar in bed, so I think a little bondage will make a nice addition to it...
Desperate
I had to stroke for 4 minutes at noon today, so I went into one of the toilet cabins at lunchtime and started to stroke. It felt strange to sit there and stroke and the thought of getting caught was distracting. I wasn't able to get much pleasure from it, although I had been very horny the whole morning.
I listened again to Subjugated Zombie in the evening. I love the stroking, but every time I listen, the time when I can't stroke gets more frustrating. I'm so desperate to masturbate the whole day, but I'm on the edge so fast, that I have to stroke much slower than I would like to.
But after all, this is what I have asked for. My Princess was right as she said 'be careful what you ask for'...
I listened again to Subjugated Zombie in the evening. I love the stroking, but every time I listen, the time when I can't stroke gets more frustrating. I'm so desperate to masturbate the whole day, but I'm on the edge so fast, that I have to stroke much slower than I would like to.
But after all, this is what I have asked for. My Princess was right as she said 'be careful what you ask for'...
High-Heels
I had an erotic dream last night and once again, I can only recall some little fragments. I was laying on a bed, naked and paralyzed and I felt the presence of someone teasing me, just like in the Wet Dreams session, but unfortunately that is all I remember. I wish I could remember more of my dreams...
The Forced Femme training continued today... I have been instructed to listen to the Heels file. I love wearing my 6" ankle boots and I'm getting quite used to walk in them. I might get higher heels soon for a new challenge...
I was also assigned to listen to my favorite file. At the moment, it definitely is Subjugated Zombie. I stroke longer every time I have listened to it and slowing down at the right moment has become automatic. I have been wondering if I would be able to cum if I wanted to, but just the though to cum without permission feels wrong.
I'll have to stroke again while saying my mantra this evening. This always gets my mind in the right mood to listen to Princess Shelle's voice and fall asleep...
The Forced Femme training continued today... I have been instructed to listen to the Heels file. I love wearing my 6" ankle boots and I'm getting quite used to walk in them. I might get higher heels soon for a new challenge...
I was also assigned to listen to my favorite file. At the moment, it definitely is Subjugated Zombie. I stroke longer every time I have listened to it and slowing down at the right moment has become automatic. I have been wondering if I would be able to cum if I wanted to, but just the though to cum without permission feels wrong.
I'll have to stroke again while saying my mantra this evening. This always gets my mind in the right mood to listen to Princess Shelle's voice and fall asleep...
A hard day
Today has literally been a 'hard' day. It started with my email alert waking me up in the middle of the night. My Princess had sent an email with a stroke trigger, which I was happy to follow.
One of today's assignments said "Spend time today doing the thing you love best doing". My first though was to stroke, but what I really love most is to listen to Princess Shelle's voice...
Another assignments was to listen to the Forced Femme series again. I had been busy with the other files and haven't listen to the series since the weekend and the need to dress up had faded a bit, but I have worn my high-heels all the time at home. I'm getting better at walking in them...
I listened to the corset session this time, already dressed in my maids uniform. I don't have a corset, so I substituted it with elastic bandages to satisfy my need to feel the tightness around my torso.
I had my first edging session while paying my monthly obligation, the second followed after listening to Subjugated Zombie. I'm instructed to stroke again in bed, while saying my mantra...
One of today's assignments said "Spend time today doing the thing you love best doing". My first though was to stroke, but what I really love most is to listen to Princess Shelle's voice...
Another assignments was to listen to the Forced Femme series again. I had been busy with the other files and haven't listen to the series since the weekend and the need to dress up had faded a bit, but I have worn my high-heels all the time at home. I'm getting better at walking in them...
I listened to the corset session this time, already dressed in my maids uniform. I don't have a corset, so I substituted it with elastic bandages to satisfy my need to feel the tightness around my torso.
I had my first edging session while paying my monthly obligation, the second followed after listening to Subjugated Zombie. I'm instructed to stroke again in bed, while saying my mantra...
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