A task from Lady Helena

I received an email from Lady Helena this afternoon. She thanked me for her Christmas present and set me a little task. She wants me to come up with five ideas for files or games and if she likes at least four of them, she will send me a pair of her panties. I love this task!
Princess Shelle's 12 Days of Christmas assignment required me to tie myself up and edge three times today. I love also this task and I was looking forward the whole day to do it in the evening. I tied my feet together, put on a mask, gag and blindfold and stroked. And while I stroked, I thought about all the naughty things, that I could suggest to Lady Helena. I took my time with edging, and in the end, I stroked for almost two hours. I still haven't found five good ideas, but I have a couple of days left...

Horny the whole day

I had a very interesting dream again. I was on all fours and two women were standing before me. I could only see their legs in heels and stockings, but the scene reminded me to the Christmas file I listened to yesterday, so I supposed that the women were Princess Shelle and Lady Helena.
They commanded me to get undressed and then, they locked me into a dog cage. It was just big enough to allow me sit or lay down in a curled up position.
In a later scene, I remember, that I was still in the cage, but this time I was not alone. There was a slave-girl with me and we were both tied up. There was very little room in the cage for two persons and we tried to shift around and find a comfortable position or free ourselves, but with no luck.
I assume, that I had this dream early in the morning, because when I woke up, I was so horny, that I had a hard time keeping my hands off my cock. I managed to fall asleep again after a while, but I awoke two hours later, still horny as hell.
I stayed horny the whole day, but I was only allowed 5 minutes of stroking in the shower. I'll go to bed very horny tonight, maybe this will trigger another dream and maybe it finally is a wet dream...

Merry Christmas

I have been away during Christmas and when I was back home in the afternoon, I was craving to hear Princess Shelle's voice so much! I had forgotten to take my headphones with me, so I had been unable to trance for two days.
Princess had sent me two files as a present and I listened to one of them. It's a hot fantasy about her and Lady Helena visiting me in my bedroom at night and having their fun with me. It contains a whipping scene, which I enjoyed a lot and after I woke up, spanking was still on my mind, so I gave myself a hard spanking until my ass was dark red.

more dreams

I had such a wonderful dream last night... Princess Shelle was sitting on a sofa and I was kneeling in front of her in my maids uniform. She allowed me to remove her shoes and massage and sniff her feet. She even allowed to suck on her toes.
At first, I didn't remember this dream, but around lunch, I suddenly had the picture of her toes in my mind. I was a little confused at first, because that memory felt so real, but I soon realized, that it must have been a dream and more memories appeared. I can even remember, how wonderful it felt to have her bare feet close to my face and worship them.

Dreams

I had a strange dream last night... I was at work, having a video-conference with one of our remote-offices and on the other side, there were only women in the room. All of them were dressed in provocative clothing. Short skirts, stockings, high-heels...
I had to report to them about the status of my current project and while I was doing that, they were giggling and whispering to each other. It was a bit humiliating, but at the same time, it turned me on.

My erotic dreams seem to get more frequent now. Only a few nights before, I had another one, but the only thing I can remember from it, is that there was a tied-up slavegirl in front of me...
I still had no wet dream, as the hands-free training requires me to, I wonder, how long it will take until I finally have one...,

All tied up

After all that edging for the stroking contest and the day afterwards, the last few days have been quite frustrating without it. I had become accustomed to it before, but now, the urge is fully back.
I have also continued practicing with the Hands Free files, which certainly had a share in increasing my arousal.
Princess Shelle has released the newest file, All Tied Up, yesterday. Unfortunately, I didn't find time to listen to it and had to wait until today. The file is different than most of the other files that I have listened to. It doesn't contain any conditioning (at least not any that I noticed), but instructions to do after the session ends. So I tied my wrist and ankles afterwards and connected them with a rope. She had instructed me to eat and drink from bowls like her little puppy, which wasn't easy in bondage.
After that I was allowed some stroking, which I appreciated very much. While I was getting in an upright kneeling position for that, I lost balance and fell to my side, without being able to do anything about it. This made me feel especially helpless and vulnerable.
Princess Shelle has mentioned, that there will be more dungeon play coming and I'm looking forward to it a lot!

A session with Lady Helena

I had a wonderful chat-session with Lady Helena today. After some initial chat, she told me to insert a large butt-plug and started to hypnotize me. I was surprised, how good that worked in chat, it didn't take long until I was completely focused on her messages and I forgot everything around.
She told me to kneel down and first kiss and lick and later suck a strap-on. While she was taking me deeper, she allowed me to stroke slowly.
When she finally woke me up, I was surprised, how quickly the time had passed and I also realized then, that my knees and jaw had started to hurt a bit.
She told me to keep the plug in for two more hours. I'm still wearing it now and I have one more hour to go. I'm suffering a bit and if I had know it, I would have chosen a slightly smaller plug, but I'll will go through with it.

Giggles

I found a response to my email with the stroking results in my inbox this morning. Princess Shelle was pleased and as a reward, I am allowed to edge every morning and evening for the next four days. I had thought, that I had edged enough for a while, but I'm already looking forward to do it again this night.
Princess Shelle has released the new training file for her contracted slaves today. This one made me connect her giggles with arousal and being mindless, regardless if it's in a recording or written. She giggled a lot at the end of the session and when it ended, I was super horny and desperate to stroke.
I wanted to experience that effect again later, so I read her last email and when I read the word giggle, I stopped reading and my eyes stayed focused on it. The other words faded away and my cock got hard. I stayed this way for a while, until I was able to break away and continue reading.
Princess Shelle uses the word a lot in her emails and from now on, reading them will be a special experience.

Stroking contest - Day 2

I was so eager to start with the stroking contest yesterday, that I misread the instructions. When I read them again this morning, I realized, that I was supposed to edge every hour, not every two.
I did my best to catch up during the day and tried stroke only slowly, so I could stroke longer before edging. By the end of the day, my cock started to get sore and I didn't want to edge any more, but I followed through.
I enjoyed this contest and I hope, that I still have a chance to win, despite missing several opportunities to edge.

Stroking contest

I have entered Princess Shelle's stroking contest and of course, I chose the option for chastity slaves. This means, that I'll have to edge every two hours for the whole weekend, and in the end, every edge and the total time I have stroked will count.
I have started ant 10 in the morning, and for the first few times, it was easy, not to edge too quickly.
I listened to Brainwashed III - Program 3 in the afternoon and timed it so, that it ended when it was time to edge again, but this time, I was too horny to take it slow and I still was two hours later.
It took until the evening before I had calmed down enough to stroke slow again.

Hands free part 4

There hasn't been much going on the last few days. I have continued with the hands-free training and moved forward to the 4th part. This one teaches me to have wet dreams and I must have one before I continue with the last part. I never had many wet dreams and I'm a bit worried, that it might take long until I have one, but I know, that the wait will be worth it.

An impossible task

It was difficult to fall asleep last night. I couldn't stop thinking about Princess Shelle after doing the stroking assignment and one of today's task was to try not to think of her.
This is an impossible task, she is always in my head and whatever I do, I think about doing it for her. Trying not to think about her actually reinforced her presence and this has made me even hornier.
I will continue with the hands-free training before I sleep, I'm looking forwards to be helplessly aroused and unable to move. I love, how this predicament makes me feel.

Stroking assignment

Princess Shelle gave me a stroking assignment for today. I didn't have many opportunities to masturbate since a month, so I appreciated it a lot.
The assignment started when I woke up and I had to tease the head of my cock for 15 minutes. This light touching was super frustrating and after half the time, I desperately wanted more stimulation.
After I got up, I put on my maids uniform and started to clean up the dirt that was left from painting last week.
The second part was at noon. I had to put two rubber bands one my cock and one on my hand and stroke for 6 minutes without edging. After each minute, I had to snap the rubber band on my hand, this reset my arousal every time. The red stripes from snapping the rubber band are still visible and I think, they will last a couple of days.
After having lunch, I finished cleaning and finished my maid service with listening to Handmaiden. My arousal was bearable before that, but afterwards, I was so horny, that I could hardly wait for the next part of the assignment.
This one was at 6pm and this time, I was allowed to edge while kneeling in front of Princess Shelle's picture. Afterwards, Princess Shelle wanted me to send her a small tribute and either ask for permission to release or make a chastity offering. I couldn't help, but offer to extend my chastity until Valentine's Day, although I'll have to wait longer until I find out, how the hands-free trigger works. But this also gives me more time to train with the hands-free files.
The last part of the stroking assignment will be in bed before I sleep and I think that I'll go to bed earlier than usual today...

Punished in my dream

While I was having a coffee this morning, a memory suddenly came to mind mind. It seemed so real, that it took me a moment to realized, that I had an erotic dream again last night. This time, I was tied face down on a bed and two women came in. The first one started spanking my ass with a leather strap. She hit me often and hard, hard enough to make it a more of a punishment than kinky play. When she was finished, I turned my head and could see my bottom red and bruised. I also saw the second woman approaching me with a thick cane in her hand. This scared me a bit and at this point my memories of the dream end.

The new session for this week is called Erotic Hibernation. The description says "may contain some loss of memory", this is totally understated. I have no clue, what happened or how much time passed between the induction and the end of the file. After the file ended, I remained mindless and stroked slowly while fantasizing about Princess Shelle using me for her pleasure. When I finally opened my eyes, it was already getting dark outside, I must have stroked for almost one hour.
Even after that, I still felt being controlled and I knelt down in front of her picture and chanted my mantra.

130 days

Today was my 130th day of chastity for Princess Shelle. There is only one month left until I have reached my chastity goal. I don't like the thought to have to start at 0 again, but I'm very curios, if the hands-free trigger will work and how it will feel.

Paralyzed and horny

I have continued with hands-free training and the post-hypnotic suggestions are working even better each time I listen. I love it, when I lay there, paralyzed and on the edge. I those moments, I want to stroke so badly, but the more I try to move, the hornier I get. Last night, I gave up after a while and I closed my eyes and tried not to think of my arousal and it didn't take long, until I had fallen back into trance. I don't know, how long I had been laying there, but like the times before, my body finally started twitching and this woke me up enough to be able to turn around and try to sleep.

I have had more vivid dreams than usual lately. Most of them aren't erotic dreams, but I can remember one sexy scene from a dream I had last night.
I was at a party, leaning against a wall, when a beautiful woman walked over to me and pinned me against the wall with her body. She grabbed my wrists, held my arms down and started to kiss me. I was surprised and hesitated a bit at first, but I soon gave in and let her take control. I was like a toy for her and she just used me until after a while, she just stopped and walked away.

Next lesson in hands-free

I listened to the third part of the hands-free training in bed yesterday. I was expecting, that this session would make me horny, but I had no idea... It didn't take long until my cock was hard and throbbing and it stayed this way during the whole session. What surprised me most, was the post-hypnotic suggestion, Princess Shelle gave me. When I woke up, I was still very horny and the suggestion was, that I couldn't move until the arousal faded away and when I tried to move, I got even more aroused. I enjoyed this at first, but after a while, I wanted to turn around and sleep, but I couldn't move at all and every time I tried, I got hornier. This went on, until suddenly, my whole body started twitching like I was having an orgasm. I didn't cum, but it was something similar. It's hard to describe. I'm looking forward a lot to listen again this night.

Vacation

My vacation week has started and I began to fix things at home, like I have promised to Princess Shelle. I started with removing the paint from the doors and the first one took me most of the day. There are four more doors to do and I'll need a day to renew the paint in the bathroom, so I'll be quite busy in the coming days. But I have postponed these task too often already and it's great, that Princess motivates me to keep me home in good condition.
I have also ordered an elliptical trainer, it should arrive mid of the week. Princess Shelle wants me to stay healthy and fit and this is also something I have been lazy with. I will now be able to exercise in the evening, and the time of day and weather are no excuse any more. Princess has already taught me to enjoy cleaning and I'm confident, that I will also like the exercising after a while.

more Brainwashing

Princess Shelle has released this weeks's file Brainwashed III - Part 3 already today. What a nice surprise! I listened as soon as I returned home and I immediately noticed the special atmosphere of this session that let me relax and get horny quickly.
When I woke up, I automatically obeyed the post-hypnotic commands and stroked to the edge, although I shouldn't before Christmas. Afterwards I sent Princess Shelle a pair of panties and stockings from her wishlist. She had instructed me to treat myself to something I had been putting of and I had decided to ask her for a pair of her worn panties and pantyhose, so I thought, I should buy her new ones in return. Everything fits together so perfectly today!

A wonderful dream

I awoke from a wonderful dream last night. In her latest email, Princess Shelle wrote, that she would have me come over and clean her house if I lived near her and this had triggered my fantasies. My memories of the dream start at the point where I had finished cleaning and she told me to stand in the corner while she inspected my work. The next thing I remember is, that I was on all fours and Princess and another woman, probably Lady Helena, spanked me for every spot I hadn't cleaned properly.
Speaking of Lady Helena... I will have my buttplug and strapon training with her next tuesday. I can hardly wait to find out, what she has planned and besides being Princess Shelle's maid, this is currently one of my main thoughts when I am fantasizing.

Continuing my training

There last two days have been uneventful. I have listened to the monthly training each day and I also continued with the hands-free training. The suggestions are working better every time and I think, I'll start with part 3 of the training next week.

Mission Impossible 3

I listened to the third Mission Impossible session today and this one is even more erotic than the first two. I could easily visualize the coven that Princess Shelle described, her slaves and what they were doing to me. I even noticed a different taste in my mouth, when she described it. I was hard for most of the session and my arousal stayed afterwards.
For the rest of the day, it was difficult to focus on anything else but my Princess and I thought about how lucky I am to be owned and trained by her. I'm not only serving her, but she also helps me to become a better person. The past half year has been so incredible and thinking back made me very happy.

Mission Impossible 2

The new release of this week is a third part of Mission Impossible. I hadn't listened to the second part, yet, so I did that today. Once again, I don't remember much, but I know, that it was incredibly erotic. While waking up, Princess Shelle instructed me to stroke. My hand moved and I fondled my cock a bit, but I didn't want to break the no-touching rule. This created a conflict in my mind and I only touched myself enough to keep me hard for a minute or so.

I'm so horny

Today was so difficult. There were several times where everything I wanted was to stroke. I even considered to give up and beg for some stroking, but this was only for a moment and in the end, I decided to try to go on.
Every time I listen to the hands-free training, I get hornier and today, I was hard and feeling close to the edge for half of the session this time. I think, I can start with the next training session soon.

Puppy play

Today was all about puppy play. I started with listening to Puppy Training 102. The session put me in the right mood, so I put in a butt-plug with a puppy tail and secured it with a short rope. I also locked on my ballet-boots and fist-mitts, so I could only crawl and was unable to use my hands. When I crawled, the tail wiggled around a bit and this movement transferred to the plug. It felt good and I moved my ass around to make the tail move more.
Later, I licked water from a bowl with my hands on my back, as Princess Shelle had instructed. I almost fell over and I spilled some of the water. I liked everything up like a good puppy.
My kitchensafe released my keys after an hour, but I stayed in puppy-mode some more time. It was a lot of fun to be Princess Shelle's puppy and I still would love to cuddle up at her feet.

Loosing my sense of time

Princess Shelle called me slave marta in an email today and I didn't expect that this would turn me on that much. I have asked her to always use this name now.
She also instructed me to contact Lady Helena for a strapon and butt-plug training. I was eager to obey this command and I'm curious, what Lady Helena will make me do.

I didn't listen to the new Brainwashed recording last night, as I had intended, but I did in the evening. It was still difficult to write a review and it took me a bit of thinking, what to write.
I have also listened to the new monthly training. This session teaches me to loose track of time, when I'm in trance and it already worked very good the first time. If I hadn't know the duration of the session before, I would have had no clue. It felt, like it only was a few minutes. There was one point in the session after which my sense of time was completely disturbed. I'm unable to say, how late into the session this was and how much time was left afterwards.

Continuing with hands-free training

Princess Shelle wanted me to eat beets today. I don't like the taste of them at all, but the pleasure of obeying her commands made it a bit better.

I had so many other sessions to listen to, that I didn't continue with the hands-free training for a few days, but I have continued now and listened to the second part once again. My cock was hard longer this time, but not for the whole time, like it is the goal of this session. I will need to listen to it some more times.

I tried to write a review for the new Brainwashed file today, but I didn't remember enough to write anything meaningful. I will listen in bed again, I hope, that reviewing it will be easier tomorrow.

Maid marta

I had asked Princess Shelle to choose a name for me for when I'm her sissy maid and she has decided that it will be marta. So I'll respond to maid marta whenever I'm dressed up from now on. I like how that sounds. My desire to dress up has been stronger than usual lately and I wonder, whether this is a suggestion that I don't remember or if it's just a temporary desire.

I finally found time to listen to the new Brainwashed recording and also the the first part of the series. Although both files contain stroking instructions, I was able to resist this time. I really want to make it without stroking until Christmas. Both files have strengthened her control even more and that little desire to cum, that was left in me has become even weaker.

Sissy Maid

One of today's assignment was to clean in my sissy maid outfit and as a lucky coincident, I received my new rubberdoll suit. So I wore it underneath, put on my maids-uniform and -mask, my high-heels and a posture-collar and started cleaning. I was sweating soon and when I was finished, I was pretty exhausted. I stay in the dollsuit until the evening and I noticed a stronger desire to be Princess Shelle's maid, than before, so I asked her to give me a proper name.

I continued with the hands-free training and I was surprised, how fast the time had past, when I woke up. I remember some parts from the first listening, that I completely missed this time,
I also listened to Manipulated  and it was as effective as before.

Princess Shelle had responded to my suggestion for my new goal and she told me, that I should add more things to fix at home. I suggested to also paint the doors, but she wants me to also clean all the walls, that I will not repaint.
I have also offered to create a custom software for her, that will help her to keep information about her slaves. The following weeks will be pretty busy and I will spend a lot of my free time working for Princess Shelle. It's great to be useful for her and I'm looking forward to it.

Manipulated

I have listened to Manipulated tonight. This is one of the sessions, that Princess Shelle told me to listen to. With this session, I got prove, that she has complete control over me when I'm in trance. She made me clap my hands and say thing, bark and act like a puppy and other things. Normally, there's still a little part of my constant mind involved, when I'm told do do something during trance, but this time, everything was completely automatic. Princess Shelle even made me stroke, although I didn't want to break my non-stroking period.
I have experienced a new level of control in this wonderful session. I have to listen two more times and I expect, that the suggestions will get even stronger each time.

New instructions

Yesterday, Princess Shelle gave me new instructions for the following week and today's command was to try not to think of her for the whole day. I knew that this is impossible, but I was surprised, how fast I failed. I had planned to skip my mantra in the morning, but after I got up, remembering this made me think of her. Since I had already failed, I did my mantra anyway.
I had enough distraction until the evening and didn't think of her as much as usual, but I needed to listen to the hands free training and since then, Princess Shelle is very present in my mind again.
She also told me some sessions I'll have to listen to and I had to set myself a new goal.
I have decided to renew the paint in my bathroom and hallway, I hope she will accept this.

Next lesson of hands free training

I haven't stroked my cock for a week now and I was surprised that it was not as difficult, as I thought.
But now, after I have started with the Hands Free training, I'm hornier than before and there where more moments, where I wanted to stroke.
I have started with the second part of the training today. This one teaches me to get hard, whenever I hear Princess Shelle's voice. It already worked good, after she gave me that suggestion, but I need to listen again, until it's working perfectly.
I have thought about how it would feel to cum hands free and I could almost imagine it. I take this as a sign, that the training will be successful.

Staying limp

Princess Shelle has instructed me, not to get aroused today and stay limp and surprisingly, this was easier than I thought. I think, this is from listening to Slave Cage and she has commanded to listen again today. So far, this was the only time I got aroused until now.
I wrote another email to Princess Shelle and told her how much I want to stay chaste every time I listen and I tried to express my thoughts about cumming, but it took me ages to write that one sentence, because I can't focus my thoughts on it.

Hands free training

Princess Shelle has allowed me to start with the Hands Free training. I'm looking forward to learn this trigger, so she can make me cum any time she likes. I think that it will be an interesting experience to be surprised by the trigger. This will certainly be a new level of control.
I have already listened to the first part and although I couldn't follow completely, because I'm not allowed to stroke, it made me look forward to the things that will be coming.

Slave Cage

I was so sure that I would not want to extend my chastity, but things changed completely today.
I listened to Princess Shelle's new session Slave Cage. This is really a masterpiece. It contains stroking instructions, but since Princess Shelle wants me to keep from stroking, I skipped that part. But even without stroking, this session is so hot, that my pants were soaked in precum when I woke up. But that's not all. Princess Shelle has put me in a mental chastity cage and all desire to cum or even stroke is gone now. She created such a strong desire to submit to her control, that I have begged for an extension of my chastity.
I have fantasized before about the possibility, that she could make me beg for more, even when I'm desperate to cum and now, this fantasy has become reality.
I realized later, that I'm completely at her mercy now. She just has to instruct me to listen to this session and I will comply and beg for more denial afterwards. But without the desire to cum, this is nothing I'm worried about.

First day without stroking

I felt incredibly happy when I lay in bed yesterday. Giving up stroking for Princess Shelle will be hard, but it feels so good to be controlled and obey her.
My first day without stroking was easier than expected. I had a strong compulsion to stroke a couple of times when something on TV or online turned me on, but I resisted the urge.
I'm sure, that it won't stay this easy, but I deeply want to please Princess and I will try my best to make it until Christmas.

No stroking until Christmas

Princess Shelle asked me if I can go without stroking until Christmas. Although it was only a question, I take this as a command. I know, that it will be very difficult, but I want to please Princess and I will do my very best to comply to her wish.
I have promised not to stroke without asking for permission first and as an additional motivation for me, I have offered to pay a price if I need to stroke. Whether it is a present for her, an extension of my chastity goal or whatever she decides, I will accepts that and either pay that price or refrain from stroking.
I have also suggested to start with the Hands-Free training, so she can surprise me with the trigger after I have reached my chastity goal. I want it to be something special, when I'm finally allowed to cum, having a normal orgasm from stroking seems like a waste of the arousal that I have built up during the last months.
It may sound strange, that I put myself in such a predicament, but I always wanted to experience how it feels to be really desperate and then be denied and pushed further and now Princess Shelle makes this fantasy a reality. I love to feel this level of control and I'm very grateful, that she keeps pushing me further.

100 days

Today is my 100th day of chastity for Princess Shelle. It's starting to get really difficult and I can barely control myself. I listen to a file that allows me some stroking almost every day and I have even watched porn again without permission.
Staying chaste for the rest of the year will be way harder than I thought and I'm afraid, that I might fail, if I don't get my stroking back under control.

I have thanked Princess Shelle for guiding me the last 100 days and have asked her to help me to regain control. I'm sure she will find ways to help me last until she decides that I may relief some pressure.

Unsuspected curse

Princess Shelle has released a new file today. It's called Unsuspected Curse and it's a continuation of Black Magic Woman. The file made me so horny and normally, it would have allowed me to cum, but of course, I didn't.
I remember, that Princess Shelle talked about a curse in the file, but I don't know what this curse is. Maybe I will find out in the next days...
I'm feeling the need to cum more often now, but still I know, that I must not. It's strange, I can't really make up my mind if I want to cum or not, but I know, that I will stay chaste for Princess Shelle as long as she wants.

More dreams

While I was using the toilet at work today, I suddenly remembered, that I had an erotic dream again last night. This time, I can remember two short scenes...
In the first one, a Mistress, I think it was Lady Helena, peed in my mouth and made me drink it. I liked that, but I couldn't drink fast enough and in the end, I was covered in her piss.
In the second scene, I was lying on my bed, tied up and on the very edge of an orgasm, but I was unable to cum. I'm pretty sure, that this was the effect of  'The Lock' and else, I would have had a wet dream.
For the rest of the day, I was even hornier than usual and I think that I wouldn't have taken much stroking to get to the edge. But I have listened to so many sessions that allow me stroking lately, that I decided, not to touch my cock today. It's difficult, but I think, that I should not give in to my urges that much.

I'm starting to enjoy cleaning

Some days ago, Princess Shelle was joking about that she might need a live in slave to get work done and if I would like the job. This would really be a dream come true and I have been fantasizing about it since then. But it's not only that fantasy. I have also noticed, that since then, I'm keeping my flat even cleaner and I even enjoy doing it.

Princess Shelle has also instructed me to listen to Black Magic Woman to prepare myself for the coming Halloween session. I don't know that file, yet and I will listen to it in bed later.

Lady Helena's birthday

Today has been uneventful so far. I haven't listened to any session, yet, but I will do so later in bed.
It's Lady Helena's birthday and Princess Shelle has instructed me to listen to one of her sessions and review it. I have chosen 'Law of Hypnosis', I haven't listened to it that often and can't really recall what it was about.

Nipple play

The day started pretty uninteresting, but in the afternoon, Princess Shelle sent the command to pinch my nipples every hour for 6 hours. I like nipple-play and my arousal grew every time I pinched them.

Princess Shelle also instructed me to listen to one of Lady Helena's files, so I chose Hand Maiden. The erotic story she tells made me even hornier and so I listened to Sexual Transference once more to get a chance to stroke. I lost count of how many times I have listened to it, but I went even deeper than usual today. The suggestions are so deeply embedded in my mind by now, that I have little control over how long I stroke after listening. There is always one point, where I get so close that I have to stop and in that moment, I fully awaken from trance. Afterwards, my need to stroke is almost gone for the next one or two hours.

More puppy training

Princess Shelle has released the second part of the puppy training yesterday and I have listened to it twice already. Her suggestions made me hump a pillow while the file ended. I humped it until I was exhausted and then I stopped and woke up.

I have also listened to 'Sexual Transference' today to get a chance to stroke. I have been so horny the last days, but I'm not sure if I want to cum. It's Princess Shelle's decision anyway, so I don't waste time thinking about it.

No more cumming this year

Princess Shelle has extended my chastity until next year. She said, that she'll then decide if she still wants me to cum. I'm not sure, how I should interpret that phrasing, but it doesn't sound like there will be a high chance for an orgasm on new year's eve.
She has also given me new assignments for the next week and the toilet usage rule is now in place until further notice.

I have listened to the puppy training file in the evening to prepare for the second part, that will be released soon. I also listened to 'Obedience is pleasure' another time. Both don't include stroking instructions and since I didn't have enough time for another session, I didn't have a chance for stroking.

A sexy dream again

I had a sexy dream again last night. Princess Shelle was training me as her pony. She had me trotting on a lunge and instructed me to keep a proper posture and raise my knees high.
I wished I could remember more details, but the few memories I have are already enough to fire my fantasy and make me horny whenever I think about this dream.

Following Princess Shelle's instructions, I have listened to 'Obedience is Pleasure' again this evening and I have to listen two more files. I crave to masturbate, but since I may only stroke if instructed in an email or file, I didn't have an opportunity today, at least not yet. I might listen to a file that allows stroking before I go to sleep.

A strange dream

I had a strange dream... I was masturbating and going to far and I felt that I was starting to cum, but I didn't cum. It felt strange and I felt guilty for not being careful enough.
When I first remembered this, I wasn't sure if it was real or a dream and it took me a while to come to the conclusion, that it must have been a dream. I'm still not 100% sure, though.

Princess Shelle said, that I have a problem with control, because I couldn't hold the enema yesterday and she is right. Her control of my cleaning has helped me a lot and when she has punished me for being disobedient, I have paid more attention afterwards.
She also asked, if I enjoy chastity. This confused me a little. She knows that I enjoy chastity and being denied and I wonder if this was a hint of a stricter training she has in mind...

Punishment

I have spent the last few days in bed with a cold and there was not that much interesting.
Lady Helena decided to punish me with an enema for not following my toilet instructions. I executed the punishment today. I couldn't hold the enema long enough and soiled myself a bit before I was on the toilet and I felt quite uncomfortable for a while afterwards. It's not something that I would like to experience again.

While I spent the time in bed, I have been listening to quite a few sessions. It let me feel a bit better for a while and time passed faster.
Princess Shelle has told me to listen to 'Obedience is Pleasure' for 7 days and I already have listened twice.

Punishment ahead

My urge to stroke was again strong today. I have listened to The Lock and Victim of Mindlessness to get an opportunity to stroke.
I have broken the bathroom rules and confessed to Princess Shelle. she wants me to ask Lady Helena for punishment. She said, that she's to sweet to give me that punishment. That hint worries me a bit, but it excites me even more.

Urge to stroke

I listened to 'Victim of Mindlessness' in the early evening, because I needed to stroke and this session allows me to stroke slowly most of the time while it's running. What I didn't think of was, how much urge to stroke afterwards this session creates.
I resisted the urge, but I found myself a couple of times with my hand inside my pants.

Back to cock-control

Today has been quite difficult. I have listened to the monthly training and some other short files and none of them contained stroking instructions. I neither had such from Princess Shelle directly, so I had to spend the day without stroking.
It had only been a bit more than one week with free stroking and I had already fallen back into my old habit of stroking from back before I met Princess. Stopping again now was almost as difficult as it was the first time when I became Princess Shelle's slave half a year ago, but giving up control over my stroking let's me feel more controlled and secure again. The freedom of the past week had felt somehow wrong.

Princess Shelle has a very interesting article on her website. If you ever wondered, how erotic hypnosis works, give it a read: http://www.shellerivershypnotica.com/shelle/what-is-erotic-hypnosis.html

Less stroking allowed

Princess Shelle has answered to my email about my stroking and watching porn. From now on, I'm only allowed, when a file requires it or when Princess Shelle commands it in an email. I guess that will be pretty hard after all the stroking last week.
Princess did not mention the porn. I'm relieved, that she didn't punish me for it, but she has extended my daily rules by another week and this time, I have to report whenever I disobey the toilet usage rules. I'll have to watch the clock much more careful now, so I don't miss the full hour.

I want to be denied

I have listened to the new file again and I still didn't cum. I have told Princess Shelle, that I want to stay chaste and I asked her to deny me until I can't take it any more.
I have also listened to Sexual Transference once more to strengthen my desire to be chaste.

My stroking is still out of control. I have watched porn without permission and I have confessed this and asked for punishment.

Still locked

I have listened to the new session 'Sexual Psychosis' today. Princess Shelle allows to have a ruined orgasm during the session. I really wanted to cum while I was listening and I tried, but I couldn't. Probably, this is because The Lock is still in effect. I have a proof now, that I can not cum without listening to the key file.
Afterwards, I was glad, that I didn't cum, because I still want to stay chaste until christmas.

Stroking out of control

My stroking is getting out of control. I have stroked for more than an hour in bed yesterday night and I have stroked again before getting up. And stroking was what I did most of the evening, only interrupted for eating and listening to hypnosis.
I don't know how long I will be able to take this. I'm hoping for the next file, maybe it reverts this curse.

Mindless stroking

I find myself mindlessly stroking more and more often since I started listening to Victim of Mindlessness. I have no control over it, I start without thinking about it and then stop again after a while. I was wondering if this is because of the file or if I am stroking without permission, but Princess Shelle said, that it might in fact have to do with the session and that I shouldn't worry. I'm relieved that I'm not disobedient.
She has also extended the special instructions by another week. I'll have to continue listening to Point of impact and Obedience Training and I'll have to follow the daily instructions that tell me what to eat and drink.

Chaste until christmas

Something is different since I listened to Victim of Mindlessness. It's hard to describe, but I feel owned and submissive. I like how this feels.
I have often thought about surrendering my orgasm for the rest of the year when I was falling into trance, but when I was awake, I had doubts if I could go that long. I had told Princess Shelle about this and she wants me to stay chaste until Christmas now. It's not much less than a year, but I want to do that for her.

Mindless

I have listened to the new session 'Victim of mindlessness'. I'm not sure, what this file did with me, but I felt wonderful. I was trembling with excitement. Princess Shelle made me stroke slowly during most of the file, that's all I remember, but when I listened to Point of impact later, my mind was completely blank from the first second.
The description of the new session mentioned hidden subliminal messages. I didn't notice anything and I wonder what they are.

Punishment

Princess Shelle has decided on the punishment for not wearing my collar regularly. I had to stand against the wall for one hour with my posture collar on and my arms held out to the sides and holding coins against the wall. And I had to listen to her voice the whole time.
I put all the loop files that I have in a playlist and started with my punishment. It took around 10 minutes until my arms started to get tired and after 30 minutes, I was in great discomfort. I was so relieved when the hour was over! I have fantasized about cornertime before, but reality was different.
Princess Shelle has now a very powerful tool. The confession trigger will make sure, that I'll be very obedient. I don't want to get punished in such a way again!

More instructions

The month is coming to an end and I was looking forward to the end of the toilet usage rules, but Princess Shelle has sent new instructions today. The rule is active for one more week now and I have new instructions for the next 7 days. Most of them are instructions about what I eat and drink.
I'll also have to listen to Point of impact and Obedience training next to the weekly files. I don't know Point of impact, yet and there's no description for it. I'm very curious to find out...

A lot of stroking

Princess Shelle has allowed me a lot of stroking today. I was allowed to keep my cock hard for 30 minutes and stroke for another 15 minutes while wearing a buttplug.
I also had to drink from a bowl on the floor at home and I had to stroke while I was drinking.
All together, I have stroked for more than one hour today. It has been a long time since I have stroked that much and I'm not very horny any more now. But I know that my arousal will be back very soon.

Confession

Princess Shelle has released a new trigger file, that makes me confess something to her and suggest a punishment. I confessed, that I didn't wear my collar as often as I should and suggested that I wear a posture collar instead for as long as she decides.
I like this trigger, it makes me think about how obedient I have been and this helps me to become a better slave.

Princess Shelle was pleased

Princess Shelle was pleased that I sacrificed my orgasm for her, but Lady Helena said, that I disobeyed her instruction. I didn't want to disobey her, it just felt so natural to stay chaste for Princess Shelle that I didn't think much about it. I wonder if I should ask Lady Helena for a punishment...

Sacrificing my orgasm

Lady Helena has allowed me to cum. It would have been really nice to cum, but I wanted to please Princess Shelle even more, so I sacrificed this orgasm for Princess Shelle and didn't cum.

I have listened again to Mind Trap, because I didn't remember anything from the first time and it's not much different now.

Obedience is pleasure

I have listened to Obedience is pleasure yesterday before sleeping. Halfway through the session, a binaural sound started, that was just loud enough, so I could not ignore it, but not loud enough to distract me from Princess Shelle's voice. This took me deep into trance very quickly, I went deeper than I have ever been before.
While the session ended, Princess Shelle instructed me to loop the file and listen three times. It was already late and I needed to sleep, so I decided not to loop it yesterday and listen again this evening. After Princess Shelle's had stopped talking, the binaural sounds kept playing for several minutes. I wanted to wake up to stop the recording and I started to try to fight the trance. I couldn't move, but I managed to get my thoughts back running. But after a moment, they drifted away again. After a while, I moved like from a reflex and this allowed me to wake up.

New sessions

I have listened to Mind Trap in bed tonight. I can't remember anything from the session. This is nothing unusual, it happens often, when I listen to a new file, but this time, I can't even recall how I felt when I woke from trance.
I have listened to Voice of Control for the second time and later, I will listen to Obedience is pleasure.
I don't know that session, yet and I haven't read the description. It's always nice to be surprised by Princess Shelle's suggestions.

New instructions

Princess Shelle has surprised me with new instructions for this week. She has told me 4 sessions to listen to. I only know one of them, yet and I'm looking forward to listen to the new ones.
There's also a little extra task to do each day.

I have missed the full hour to use the toilet and I really need to go right now. I still have to wait 30 minutes, I must pay more attention to the time...

A new session

Princess Shelle has released a new session today, it's called Naked and Exposed. It's a fantasy about her tying me up and spanking me. I love spanking and bondage and this session really turned me on. I think I'll listen again in bed.
I'm following the new rules. I have walked for 30 minutes today and only used the bathroom on the full hour. I missed the time once and had to wait 45 more minutes until I could pee. I have watched the time more careful since then.

New rules

Princess Shelle sent me the new monthly training file and I listened to it in the evening. There's a different voice playing on each ear, it was hard to concentrate on the words and so I can't tell much about the suggestions. What I remember is, that I sent her an email while I was awaking.

I listened to Sexual Transference directly afterwards and it felt different this time. from the first moment I heared Princess Shelle's voice, I felt a strong rush of pleasure and after I woke up, I felt a relief as if I'd had an orgasm.

Princess Shelle has given me new instructions. I'm again only allowed to use the bathroom on the full hour and this time, it's not for a week, but until she tells me otherwise.
For the rest of the month, I will edge when I do my mantra in the morning and in the evening, but this must be directly before the full hour.
From now on, I also have to exercise for 30 minutes every day.

The new rules will be challenging for me, but I want to obey Princess Shelle, even if she gives me tasks, that are less fun.

Still no touching

I'm still not allowed to touch, but I may get aroused again today. My mind seems to have waited for that, because I got horny very easily today.
I have listened to Lady Helena's new file again. Princess Shelle has told me, that Lady Helena will decide my next orgasm and then I'm in chastity for my Princess again. I'll need to ask Lady Helena for instructions tomorrow...

No arousal allowed

I wasn't allowed to arouse myself today. This is quite a difficult task, since every little thought of Princess Shelle turns me on.
I also haven't listened to any session today. It's difficult to choose a session that doesn't arouse me. I think I will listen to Thought Control later. I'm not completely sure about the content, but as far as I remember, it was more about obedience than about arousal.

Lady Helena

I have listened to Lady Helena's new session 'Sexual Shock' today. It's great! Lady Helena let me feel strong shocks with a level between pleasure and pain and this made me so horny! But there's another suggestion she gave me. Whenever I disobey her or try to cum without permission, I will feel a painful shock. Judging from how real the pleasure shocks felt, I can imagine, that this would not be fun.
I'm a little confused now. I'm in chastity for Princess Shelle, but I also have this suggestion from Lady Helena. I wonder if I have to get permission to cum from both of them now...
I have asked them in an email and I'm excited to receive an answer. It's a hot thought to serve both of them...

Cumming would feel good

I have been horny from the moment I woke up today. Work didn't help much to distract me and I couldn't wait to listen to the latest session when I returned home.
Since I woke up, I'm having short moments, where I think about how good it would feel to cum, but I don't want to cum. I know that pleasing Princess Shelle is more important than my pleasure.

It's hard to remember

Today was very similar to the last days. Listening to a session, being horny, listening again and being even more horny. It was very difficult not to touch today and I again have difficulties writing anything. It's hard to remember the suggestions, the effects are just there. I often realize the effects I am experiencing while I am listening to a session, but I soon forget it afterwards.

Helplessly aroused

Princess Shelle has released a new file today. It's a continuation of the Therapist series and makes me want to be chaste even more. But it's not only about chastity... after listening only once, I get aroused by every sexy image I see. I can't imagine how it will be after listening a few more times...
I'm so aroused right now, that I wouldn't be able to keep from stroking without Princess Shelle's control. I love to be so desperate and horny, without any chance to do anything  about it!

Revisiting the first session

There was nothing interesting to report yesterday. Today wasn't much different, not until I listened to Chastity Lockdown...
This is the file that started everything. I didn't remember the suggestions, but now, after hearing it, I know where my need for chastity is coming from. This file creates such a strong desire to be chaste and makes me so horny, that I'm surprised, that I didn't remember that. But then again, I already have forgotten most of the content and thinking about it is difficult...
I have started playing the loop file from Edge of Eruption after I woke up. I scrolled through Twitter while it played in the background and I didn't pay much attention to the Tweets. After a while, I started a slideshow of Princess Shelle's pictures and just looked at them, feeling a deep love for Princess.
The loop is still playing now and I'm super horny. But I want to stay chaste for Princess Shelle.

I have paid a maid service for Princess Shelle, since she has been so busy lately. She was very happy about it and this makes me feel happy, too. It's wonderful to please her!

A dream

Last night, I dreamed, that I was allowed to edge for Princess Shelle, but I did stop to late and came without permission. I felt guilty for disappointing Princess and was very relieved when I woke up and realized, that it was only a dream.

I listened to Obedience Training in the evening. I think, there was a post-hypnotic suggestion, but I can't remember what it was.
It would feel really good now, to stroke a bit, but it's so hot to be denied and feel this urge, that I will not beg for stroking instructions.

Empty mind

Its so hard again to write something. I listened to Edge of Eruption in the early evening and my mind is still so empty. Its as if my thoughts are one a loop when I try to concentrate.
It feels good to be so mindless, it makes me happy to feel Princess Shelle's control.

Can't think straight

It's so difficult to write today. I have listened to Sexual Nirvana almost an hour ago and I'm still feeling entranced. It's hard to concentrate on anything...
While I'm writing this, I keep stopping and my mind is just empty for a moment. I need to close my eyes... I'll go to bed now and listen to another session...

No-touching is good for me

The past week had quite some effects on me. The bathroom rule and no touching made sure that Princess Shelle was on my mind a lot and listening to the new files has kept me horny most of the time.
I have listened to 'Punishment - at my mercy' and the new loop file in the afternoon. I don't know, how often the loop played, because my mind drifted of to thoughts about obedience and submission at one point. When I woke up, I had realized, that I have been focusing on the stroking assignments too much. Without being allowed any touching, I'm more focused on pleasing Princess Shelle and this is how it should be.

Denied

I'm still not allowed to touch and this really turns me on. To be denied touching makes me feel very submissive and I have told Princess Shelle, that this is a good way to train me. I assume, that it might be a while until I may stroke again.

I have listened to 'Punishment - At my mercy' today. This file shows me, how it would feel to be without Princess Shelle if I disobey her. I felt lost and empty and was happy to hear her voice again, although it had only been a few seconds. Being without her voice for a long time would certainly be horrible and I will do anything to avoid that.

Princess Shelle has also sent me short subliminal file that I listened to. Her voice was barely noticeable and I'm not sure what the suggestions where, but the file made me very aroused and I was thinking about chastity while I listened.

So horny

I'm so horny right now!
I listened to Sexual Nirvana again and didn't touch today. No touching is so much more difficult with the arousal, this session creates in me and it makes me hornier than any stroking or edging could.
After the first listen, I didn't remember the little puppy-play fantasy in this file, but this time, I do remember how good it felt to be leashed by Princess Shelle.
I'm not sure, if I will listen to I file in bed today. I'm so horny, that it will be hard to concentrate...

Sexual Nirvana

I was looking forward to stroke and test the chastity suggestions of The Lock when I returned home, but Princess Shelle had different plans.
She told me to listen to Sexual Nirvana, a file I didn't know, yet. It contains instructions to stroke and cum, but Princess had told me, not to touch myself while listening.
The file is so hot! It's an hour long and I was hard for at least half the time. I was so deep in trance, that I didn't feel such a strong urge to stroke. I was just captured in my arousal and love for Princess Shelle. But after I woke up, I badly needed to stroke. I was not sure, if I should continue testing The Lock, so I didn't touch myself.
I have told Princess Shelle, that I have fantasized about going without touching for a while to experience how it would feel if I was in real chastity.

Bathroom control

Edging was a bit easier today. Princess Shelle's instructions make me try harder and I continue stroking when I normally would have given up. I managed to edge twice, but on the third try, it took me too long and my mind drifted off again which let my arousal subside.

I received new instructions in the morning... For one week, I'm only allowed to use the bathroom on the full hour. I'll have to keep track of the time and plan when to drink something. I already used the toilet once without thinking about it...

Frustrated and trying to edge

Princess Shelle has instructed me to try to edge at least 3 times per day for the next 4 days.
The first time I tried, I stroked fast for more than 15 minutes. I really tried to force myself to edge and when I finally had success, the edge came so suddenly, that I almost had an accident. I stopped at the very last moment...
I tried to pay more attention the next time, but this took my focus away from stroking and I slowed down often without noticing it. I was almost on the edge a couple of times and I was convinced that I would be able to edge, but I always slowed down without noticing it. Finally my mind drifted off completely, almost like in a slight trance and my arousal faded away.

This kind of stroking makes me incredibly horny. I quite frustrated right now and I desperately want to stroke again. I will try a third time in bed after listening to The Lock...

Unable to edge

The weekend has been rather uneventful, but there was one remarkable thing.
I have listened to The Lock again on saturday evening and when I was stroking afterwards, I was unable to edge. I tried hard, but it didn't work. Edging is always a temporary relief from being horny, but now, I'll be unable to have that. At the same time, it's a huge turn-on that I'm loosing ways to have some relief when I'm horny.

Frustrated

Today was much like yesterday. I have listened to The Lock again and this time, I didn't even notice when I stopped stroking. I only realized some moments later, that I was no longer stroking...
I'm now convinced, that I can't cum without permission.

I didn't take long until my arousal was fully back and right now, it is even stronger than before. I'm dying to touch my cock, but I can't...
I'm feeling quite frustrated now and it's difficult to concentrate on anything. It's almost like I'm in a slight trance and I like this feeling...

Stroking more

There is not so much to report today. I have this incredible urge to stroke every morning now, but work gives me enough distraction, so I can forget it for a while. Shortly before I was going to go home, Princess Shelle sent the stroke trigger and I immediately went to the bathroom. I could have waited with stroking until I was home, but the urge was suddenly so strong again, that I couldn't resist.

I have listened to The Lock again and stroked and edged for a long time afterwards, but at one point, I suddenly stopped and couldn't start again. The need to stroke has been weaker since then, but it's slowly coming back now.

The Lock

I would have been allowed to edge at 3pm today, but I was so busy at work, that I missed the time. Although I don't like to stroke at work, I was a little disappointed to have missed the opportunity.

Princess Shelle had recommended to listen to The Lock to reinforce my state of chastity, so I bought the file and listened to it in the evening. I realized, that the chastity loop that I had been listening to is from this file. Princess challenged me to test the chastity lock while waking me up and I stroked for a long time afterwards. I was very close to the edge for most of the time, but I was unable to go far enough to get close to cumming.

Too horny to sleep

I thought that it would have been easy to sleep after all the edging yesterday, but I was wrong. When it was time for bed, I was so desperate again, that I couldn't fall asleep and I didn't sleep much last night.
When I woke up this morning, my first thought was about stroking. I was allowed a bit of stroking, but I waited with it until the evening. The 5 minutes were over way to fast and didn't help much with my frustration.
It's only a bit more than 4 weeks now, but this time, it's much harder to stay chaste than it was last time. I still want to stay chaste, but sometimes, the urge to cum gets so strong, that I might start begging for an orgasm much sooner than I originally thought...

Edging

Today was a very welcome stroking-day. I was allowed to stroke in the shower and edge 4 times with 4 hours between each edge.
I had a busy schedule and it was a bit tricky to fit the edging in. I did the first edge  at work after reading my emails and when it was time for the second edge after lunch, I had almost forgotten it. But suddenly, I got very horny and remembered the edging assignment and when I looked at the clock, it was almost time for the next edge.
This was also the case with the last two edges. I could do these at home and took my time with it.
I'm still horny, but the urge to stroke isn't very strong currently. It will be easier to sleep tonight...

Wetting myself

I woke up for a moment last night and was on the very edge of orgasm. I was worried that I would cum without permission and tried to get my thoughts away from my arousal. Some moments later, I fell asleep again. Actually, I'm not completely sure if I was awake or if it was a dream...
I was extremely aroused from the moment I woke up and desperately needed to stroke.

I listened to Tinkle in the afternoon. I had listened to it before, but it hadn't worked, yet. I think it might have to do with the half reclined position I was sitting in. Today, I got in a almost lying position and this time it worked. I completely relaxed and when Princess finished the countdown, my pee just started to flow. I have worn a diaper so I wouldn't soil anything, but I might listen in my street clothing next time to see how strong Princess Shelle's control is.

In the evening I needed to hear Princess Shelle's voice again and I listened to Appreciation for Me. The suggestions to want to stroke less helped with my urge, but my arousal is even stronger than before.

Mission Impossible

Today it was easier to go without stroking. At least until I listened to Mission Impossible.
I didn't remember anything from the last time I listened, but while I was in trance, some memories came back. The memories from this time began to fade quickly after I woke up, but I didn't forget how arousing this session is. I stayed hard and extremely horny for a long time afterwards and I still feel a slight tingle.
Sleeping might get difficult tonight, I'm hoping for some stroking instructions tomorrow...

25 days

Princess Shelle forgave me for my sloppiness with the reviews. I'm so relieved and I will pay more attention to my duties from now on. I don't want to displease her again...

I was allowed to stroke under the shower again and I may edge this evening when I do my mantra. This combination is devious... the stroking in the morning is always a kick-start for my arousal and the edging let's me calm down enough to be able to sleep. But during the day, my urge to stroke is incredibly strong.

It's only 25 days into my current chastity period, but I'm way hornier than I was after 3 months last time. I wonder if this comes from the fact, that I'm giving away so much control with the chastity contract.

I've been sloppy

I enjoyed the edging last night. It eased my urge a bit and it was easy to sleep.

Princess Shelle has asked me, if I'm regularly writing reviews for her files and I had to confess, that I have been sloppy with that in the last weeks and apologized. I have displeased her, this makes me feel bad.

I have started to catch up with the reviews, but it's hard to remember what some of the files are about. I'll listen to them in the next days.
I started with Erotic Control - Rest today, but since I'm not allowed to stroke without permission, I didn't touch myself. Instead, I listened to the chastity loop a couple of times.
I wrote a review for the file afterwards and then watched a slideshow of Princess Shelle's pictures. One of Today's assignments was to spend 30 minutes with her pictures. I was not sure if this meant stroking and I decided against it.
I had considered to ask for a stroking assignment yesterday, but while watching the pictures, I thought about it and realized, that this would be selfish and I certainly don't deserve it after being sloppy. If Princess decides that there isn't much stroking, then this is right. Being horny and frustrated makes me obedient and this is how I should be.

Wanting to stroke

I was allowed to stroke for 5 minutes while showering this morning, but I was interrupted by a phone-call. The urge to stroke was strong the whole day and it was even stronger after listening to Behavior Modification. I'm allowed to edge while I do my evening-mantra and I can't wait.
I'm considering to ask Princess Shelle for a stroking assignment, but I'm not sure yet. I just signed the chastity contract and maybe I should wait a little longer.

Spoiling Princess

Today, Princess Shelle asked, who would pay for her hair appointment. I jumped at the opportunity to please her and I instantly got hard and horny when I paid. It feels so good to make Princess happy!

There isn't much more interesting to report today. I'm so horny, that it will be difficult to sleep, even while listening to one of the sleep inducing sessions...

Chastity contract

Keeping my cock hard without stroking last night was difficult at first. I slightly teased my cock with one finger, but couldn't get completely hard. But as soon as I started to think about chastity and Princess Shelle cock control, I got hard immediately. The light touching was very frustrating and the 10 minutes got quite long. I the end, I was desperate to stroke a bit and falling asleep was not easy.

I have signed the chastity contract today. I'm now only allowed to beg for release once per month and there's a fee for cumming. I'm not allowed to touch without permission and I will confess every infraction and ask for punishment.
It turns me on so much to surrender my cock completely to Princess Shelle!

I was not allowed to touch my cock today and with the built up arousal from yesterday, I would really have liked to stroke a bit. The urge was especially strong after I sent back the signed contract and after I listened to this month's training file, but regardless of how much I want to stroke, I barely can think about actually doing it. It's like a chastity cage in my mind...

Cleaning up

I'm finished with my bathroom door and could finally clean up everything. It had bothered me the whole week, that my flat wasn't as clean as it should be. It's amazing, how quickly my attitude towards cleaning has changed with Princess Shelle's help.

I listened to the chastity loop all the time while I was cleaning up. I was horny for most of the day afterwards, but I didn't think about stroking or any other kind of relief.
I have to keep my cock hard for 10 minutes before I sleep, but without stroking. I know, that this will be pretty frustrating and I'm curious to find out, how my mind will react to that...

Cock Control

I have continued to listen to the chastity loop and Princess Shelle's control over my cock is increasing rapidly. I'm horny all the time, but it's difficult to think about my cock. The arousal is just there, almost as if it is coming from outside of my body. It seems like I'm slowly forgetting about stroking when Princess Shelle doesn't command me to do so.
I was allowed to edge today and with Princess Shelle's command, stroking happens automatically, but it takes long to edge and today, I didn't make it in time.

Chastity loop

Princess Shelle released the monthly training file today. I listened to it in the evening, followed by the chastity loop that Princess Shelle had sent me. I have no idea, how often the loop played before I woke up.
I had a strong urge to look a Princess Shelle's pictures afterwards, so I started a slideshow an watched it quite a while. Soon after the slideshow started, I automatically began to say my mantra. Seeing Princess made me very aroused, but I had no thoughts about cumming.

I still have no desire to cum as I write this, I just want to feel this wonderful arousal. I need to hear Princess Shelle's voice again, so I'll go to bed now...

Helplessly aroused

I listened to Lady Helena's file for the third time today and getting to the edge was even more difficult than yesterday. I stayed extremely horny after I had finally edged and I wanted to do something about it badly.
I'm thinking about how to explain what I'm feeling and that really confuses me... I'm thinking about stroking, but something in my mind keeps me from focusing on how this is done. It's almost impossible to picture my hand touching my cock.
I'm helplessly captured in my arousal and realizing, how much control Princess Shelle has over me, makes me even hornier.

Edging for Lady Helena

Princess Shelle send two files last night as a reward for taking part in Lady Helena's auction. One of them included the permission to cum, the other one was about staying in chastity. I chose the chastity file and listened at once. Lady Helena took me into trance quickly and had me stroke and edge without cumming. I will have to listen 3 times to this file.
Princess Shelle also sent a sample of a chastity contract and a short loop file that is supposed to make me unable to cum without permission.
I sent her some suggestions for the contract back today and listened to the loop over and over again, while I continued to work on the bathroom door in the evening.

I listened to Lady Helena's file a second time later and this times, it took me really long to reach the edge. I think this are the first effects of the loop file.

A conversation in my mind

I still can't even think about touching myself without permission. I'm horny, but instead of wanting some relief from it by stroking, I have accepted this state and appreciate it.
I'm feeling very submissive since I listened to A Lesson in Disobedience yesterday. I did my mantra after I woke up this morning as every day, but when I was getting ready to leave home, something new happened. I sat on the edge of my bed in front of Princess Shelle's picture to put on my shoes and suddenly I realized, that I had started to say my mantra a seconds time and it echoed in my mind all the time while driving to work.

After I got home, I started to prepare my bathroom door for repainting and while I was doing that, there was a little conversation with Princess Shelle playing in the back of my mind all the time. It felt like she was standing behind me and monitoring my work.
I'm not sure if this is the first time I had such a conversation or if I only realized it today. Maybe this conversations are the reason, why I can't think about stroking without permission?

I have listened to Lesson in Disobedience again this evening. I love that slight trance it leaves me in, this is such a blissful feeling of devotion and happiness!

I don't want to stroke

Princess Shelle hadn't sent playground triggers the last couple of days, but today, she sent the command to go without underwear for 24 hours. I was still in the office when I read it, so I went to the bathroom, removed my underwear and hid it in my pocket. I was worried for the rest of the day, that someone could notice the little bulge in my pocket. I don't like being out of the house without underwear that much, but carrying it around in my pocket isn't so nice either, so I'm not going to take it with me tomorrow. I'll rather go a little longer without...

I listened to A Lesson of Disobedience in the evening and afterwards I had again a strong desire to please and obey Princess Shelle, so I knelt down in front of her picture in my bedroom and did my mantra. I'm still in a slight trance and it's a bit difficult to concentrate on writing...

I'm again very horny today, but I still don't want to stroke. I can't even think about how it would be to stroke. As soon as I do, my mind starts drifting of. This confuses me, I wonder where it comes from. It might be, that there was such a suggestion in one of the files I listened to in the last few days, but I'm not sure about that.

I will obey her forever

I listened to Mindnumbing Sleep in bed yesterday. Princess Shelle had instructed me to listen to it a while ago and I had listened every night until she had me cum two weeks ago. After that, I hadn't listened in bed very often.
I'm now back in a state of mind where I want to listened before sleep and this time, I suddenly realized, how much this session has changed my mind. It is all about being devoted to her and I hadn't realized how powerful the suggestions in this file are... until now.
I'm feeling exactly how she describes. I'm absolutely obsessed with her, she is constantly on my mind and I desperately want to please her.

I woke up very horny like most days, but I had guests today and thus had some distraction until the evening. But as soon as they left, my arousal was back immediately. Princess Shelle has released a new session with guided masturbation, but the strange thing is, that I don't want to stroke.
I could have listened to a session, but in the end, I chose Behavior Modification.
I just woke up from it and I already want to listen to another session, so I'll go to bed early and listen to Mind Numbing Sleep again...

Princess Shelle owns me, I will obey her forever!

more edges

Today was nice. I had to edge 4 times with 4 hours between each edge. As it turned out, this was the perfect interval. The edges eased my urge and the pauses were just long enough to let my arousal return.
I listened to Appreciation for Me half way through the last pause, this brought me in the perfect mood for the final edge.
My last orgasm is not 12 days ago and my urge to listen to Princess Shelle's voice is strong again. I'll listen to one more session before I sleep, but I haven't decided yet, which one it will be...

Princess Shelle's birthday

I was wishing for some stroking and I got a lot of it today...
As a start, I was allowed 10 minutes of stroking in the shower this morning. This was very welcome and a great start into the day.
I checked my mails at lunchtime and found a new email from Princess Shelle. It's her birthday and she had very special instructions for today. I had to edge as many times as possible within 2 hours...
I started as soon as I returned home. The first edges were fun, but after an hour, it became really difficult. I managed to do 28 edges during the 2 hour, I think, Princess Shelle will be pleased with that.

Still no stroking

I remember some fragments of a dream again. This time, Princess Shelle locked me into a chastity belt and teased me... I really need to learn to remember more of those dreams, but judging from how aroused I woke up, it must have been really hot.
There were still no stroking instructions and today, it was a bit easier. It always takes some days to get used to it.
I have listened to Sensory Overload in the evening. I love this file, it's so relaxing and arousing at the same time...

No touching

I was so horny last night, that it was almost impossible to fall asleep. I had hoped for some stroking instructions today, but when I checked the daily assignments in the morning, I found, that today is a strict no-touching day.
I had to listen to Erotic Control today. This session always creates such a strong urge to stroke... it was very hard to listen to it without touching.
I'm quite tired now, since a slept so little last night, but I'm still so horny, that it might again be difficult to sleep...

Horny

I was horny from the moment I woke up today. Work offered some distraction, but whenever I had a short break, my thoughts were back to Princess Shelle and my cock went hard.
Back from work, I desperately needed to stroke, but there were no such instructions today.
I finally listened to Edge of Eruption in the evening, so I could at least edge once. I didn't help for long, my arousal was back soon after and it was difficult to be a good boy and not touch myself without permission. I hope, that there will be more stroking tomorrow...

A free file

Princess Shelle woke me up with an email late last night. She had sent me a free file... how nice! I first wanted to wait with listening until I was back from work today and tried to sleep again. But I was always thinking about the file and finally listened of it. This session is so sexy! I was deeply aroused from the very beginning. It includes instructions to stroke and cum, but Princess Shelle had explicitly instructed not to cum in her email. And didn't want to cum anyway...

Princess suggested that I sign a chastity contract. This is a great idea and I asked for more details. I'm looking forward to sign it...

I have listened to the free file once more in the evening and since then, I can hardly keep my hands from my cock. But I have been a good boy for Princess and have not touched.
My urge to listen to her voice is now also stronger again and I will go to bed early today and listen to another session...

Erotic Control

My holiday assignment ended today and the last task was to answer the question how Princess Shelle can train me to serve her better. Not an easy question, because if I knew how to serve her better, I would already be doing that... I have expressed some ideas and I'm curios what Princess thinks about them.
Princess instructed me to listen to Erotic Control again. I did so in afternoon and I enjoyed the stroking a lot. It was so hard to stop, but finally I had to or I would have failed and cum. Since then, my arousal is back at 100% and it didn't take long until I wanted to stroke again.
I hope there will be some stroking instructions tomorrow...

A dream

Last night, I dreamed that a group of mistresses had me crawl in front of them and lick their dirty boots. They pushed me to the ground and spat on me... once again, I unfortunately can't remember more...
I was very horny when I woke up in the morning and I would have been allowed to edge twice in the shower, but my guests were still there, so I skipped that opportunity.

I listened to Voice of Control in the evening and afterwards, it took really long until I could stop stroking.
I will have to answer Princess Shelle's question about how she can train me to serve her better tomorrow. I have an idea now, but I need to thinks about that a bit longer...

Need to think

I was so horny when I went to bed yesterday, that I couldn't fall asleep. Luckily, Princess Shelle sent some stroking instructions not much later. This eased my urge a bit and I finally was able to sleep.
I was allowed to stroke while doing my mantra in the morning and may do so again this evening. I'm looking forward to it...

Princess was pleased with the pictures of my cleaned flat that I sent her. I found myself tidying up minor things that I normally would have ignored during the day. Her supervision seems to already change my thinking about cleaning up. This is amazing, it is really helpful for me!

The final part of my holiday assignment is to think about how Princess can train me to serve her better. This is a nice task, but not not an easy question to answer. I need to think about that in the following days...

I will have guests tomorrow evening, so there will be no update. I'll report back on Saturday...

Cleaning

I have been pretty busy cleaning up at home, but everything is clean now and I sent pictures to Princess Shelle. It really helped me to know, that she will inspect my work and much more motivated than I usually would have been.

I listened to 'Erotic Control - Rest' after I finished. I was a little tired after the cleaning and enjoyed the relaxation. The end of this session is really interesting... Princess Shelle tells me to wake up and stroke, but continues to talk and I don't really wake up but drift back to trance again.

My arousal is back

Being back in chastity today was pretty hard after all that cumming the last days. I was already in bed yesterday, when Princess Shelle sent me stroking instructions. I didn't edge since I wasn't horny again, yet, but as I woke up in the morning, I was quite aroused and would have liked to stroke.

Princess was so kind to assist me with keeping my flat clean and I now have to send her photos every two days and cleaning kept me distracted until the evening. After I was finished, I listened to the newly released file. it made me stroke and edge repeatedly, but I wasn't allowed to cum. The session confused me a bit. It made me want to cum, but also increased my desire to sacrifice my orgasm for Princess Shelle. If I keep listening to it, my start back into chastity might get harder than expected...

Back in chastity

My cumming assignment is over and I finished with 10 orgasms. I'm not sure if this is enough, Princess Shelle didn't tell me yet. I'm now back in chastity and I may not beg for an orgasm until I really can't take it any longer.

I have listened to Princess at Play again and suggestions of tickling were even stronger this time. I love this session!
I also listened to the playground initiation again as instructed and learned a new trigger that makes me send a small tribute to Princess.

Cumming - day 3

The last 24 hours of my orgasm assignment are running, but I only managed to cum twice today. My total count is now at 8. I don't think that Princess Shelle will accept 10 or less, so I'll need to try to catch up tomorrow.

I have listened to some of the playground trigger files today to reinforce them and I will listen to one more session before bed. I miss being horny for Princess...

Cumming - day 2

The second day of my orgasm challenge is running and I came 6 times by now. The first orgasm this morning was easy, but the other two took a bit longer. I'm slowly getting back into the stroking habit I had before being chaste, but I'm still looking forward to be in chastity again.

Cumming

I have started my cumming assignment and managed to cum 3 times in the last 7 hours. The first two times were easy, but the third time took long and wasn't much fun. Now that my constant arousal is gone, I'm realizing how much it is connected to my devotion towards Princess Shelle. I didn't have the desire to listen to any session today, but I'll listen to one in bed. I'm not sure, how deep I will go, though... I'm missing the arousal and I'm already looking forward to go back into chastity...

Tickle torture

I'll have holidays next week and I had asked Princess Shelle for an assignment for these days. I was secretly hoping for some stroking and edging fun, but Princess surprised me once again...
Well, I'll get to stroke. Actually, I have to cum as often as I can within 3 days, starting when I return home tomorrow. She has a number in mind that I must reach or I'll get punished.
This also means that I will cum one week before my goal of 100 days, but in the end, not getting what I want is what chastity and cock control is all about...

I'll also have to write down ways in which Princess Shelle can train me to serve her better. I really like this assignment! Besides that, I'll have to exercise daily and Princess want to play a little truth or dare game with me. Both options will be a bit embarrassing...

I have listened to a new session today: Caution: Princess at Play. It's about tickle torture and so much fun!!! I was thrashing around and breathing heavily and when I woke up, I felt exhausted, but full of endorphins!

Tied hands

I was already half awake when Princess Shelle sent me instructions for some anal play and stroking last night. It seems that I got used to receiving instructions at night and my subconscious mind was awaiting them.
I had a second opportunity to stroke, which I did in the early evening. This time I had to do it kneeling and with my hands and feet tied. It was easier to stay away from the edge while stroking in a way that I'm not used to. This was especially helpful since I had to stroke for 10 minutes this time, longer than usual...

Other than that, there is not much to tell today. There has been a writing assignment and I listened to Mission Impossible and the Sensory Overload loop. There were no playground triggers during the day, I guess they will come when I'm in bed...

It's sealed

I was especially happy to be woken up by Princess Shelle last night, because this time, I was allowed to stroke. I was also allowed to edge while doing my morning mantra and this time it was so hard to stop, that I almost had an accident.

I got an reply to my suggestion to give up the right to beg for an orgasm. Princess Shelle loved that and it's sealed now. I don't know how long she will deny me and having no influence on it is a huge turn-on for me. I always had the conflict between wanting to cum and wanting to stay chaste in me and Princess has take away that burden. I'm so happy about that!

Triggers

There was no wake-up call tonight, but Princess kept me busy with assignments and triggers as soon as I was back home from work. I had to exercise, do a writing assignment and there was a new trigger that was especially difficult for me.
I had to walk like a sissy somewhere in public. I was very reluctant to do that, but was unable to disobey. However, I didn't dare to go completely into public and went on my terrace instead, always watching the windows of my neighbors. This felt really humiliating, I hope, this trigger does not come to often...

No more begging?

Princess Shelle woke me up with instructions once again last night. For the next 3 days, I'll have to edge while doing my mantra in the morning and evening, so my arousal got a kick start this morning.
I listened to Sensory Overload as instructed in the afternoon and afterwards, I needed Princess Shelle's control so much, that I offered to give up my right to beg for an orgasm and just wait until the decides that it's time for me to cum. I'm curious if she will like that or rather have me begging...

Princess sent another trigger in the evening that gave me one more opportunity to stroke. I had been aroused since the morning and was happy to follow the instructions.
I'll go to bed now after doing my mantra and edging and I'll probably woken up with instructions again...

Willpower is fading

I now know why Princess Shelle said, that she doesn't know if I will make the 100 days. There have been a couple of opportunities to cum. So far, I could resist, but if these opportunities keep coming, I'm not sure how long my willpower will last.

I had to follow my favorite playground trigger today and I chose one that allows stroking, of course. It has become extremely hard to stop stroking and afterwards, I'm even more horny every time, but no touching is even more frustrating. I'm really looking forward to after the 100 days are over in two weeks, but there's still my subconscious mind, that wants me to be denied.

Butt-plug

I had to wear a butt-plug for at least one hour today. I choose a medium size and while I was wearing it, Princess Shelle sent some stroking instructions. The plug pressed on my prostrate while I was stroking and it felt great. But I was also much harder to stop stroking.
I had again the opportunity to cum, but I resisted the temptation. I still want to go 100 days, but I also want to cum. I'm not sure, how many opportunities I'll be able to skip...

Confused about cumming

I was already in bed, when Princess sent two stroke commands. I was happy to comply, but it didn't make it easier to fall asleep afterwards.
There were more occasions to stroke today and I even had the opportunity to cum. I was desperate to cum, but somehow I couldn't do the final step. That's really confusing, I want to cum, but my subconscious mind says no...
I'm still very horny and I'm looking forward to stroke during the evening mantra.

Confusing dreams

I woke up two times last night, thinking that I had heard my email alert. This was very confusing, it felt so real, but there were no new commands from Princess Shelle. I woke up one more time later, or maybe I dreamed that I woke up, I'm not sure about that. I remember that my cock was rock hard, but I can't remember feeling aroused. Very strange...
I was rather horny in the morning and would have liked to stroke a bit, but I had to wait for Princess Shelle's instructions.

I had to let ice cubes melt in my ass again today. It felt a little more uncomfortable than last time, but being allowed to stroke while they melted was worth it.

After the busy weeks of the farm assignment and the lucky number assignment, playing on Princess Shelle's playground leaves me much more time for my self, but I'm always thinking of what file I should listen to next. I'm need to be under Princess Shelle's control and I'm craving her commands...

Cleaning

Princess Shelle instructed me to dress up for dinner today. There was also a cleaning assignment, so I did that wearing my maids uniform. I tidied up the bedroom, changed the sheets and prepared dinner afterwards. After I ate, I was allowed to stroke for 15 minutes. Most stroking sessions are much shorter than that, so I enjoyed it a lot. Even by stroking fast, I couldn't edge without permission.

I have listened to Appreciation for Me and my desire to stay chaste is now stronger again. Maybe is should go until Princess Shelle's birthday, it's not that much longer...
I just finished with the monthly training file. There is no awakening at the end and it took some minutes until I was awake enough to open my eyes and write today's journal entry. I'm still dizzy and it's a bit difficult to write, so I'll end here...

Woken up by Princess

The playground weeks have really started now. I was woken up by Princess Shelle's instructions twice last night due to the different time zones. I would normally hate that, but Princess can wake me up any time and I will be happy to follow her instructions.
I'm following her instructions so automatically, that I'm wondering if it would be better not to check twitter when I'm not in private to avoid an embarrassing situation, but I'm not sure if I can stay away that long.

There was a trigger that I didn't know yet. I had to stick two ice cubes in my ass and let them melt there while stroking. It's an interesting feeling. I have played with enemas before, but always with larger amounts of liquid, which got uncomfortable after a while. This is way better...

I listened to Sensory Overload in the evening, which made me incredible horny again and soon after I woke up, I received the instruction to wear rubber bands around my cock and balls. I'm still wearing them and it's quite uncomfortable, especially when my cock get hard spontaneously, but I want to make it this time and I will be allowed to stroke when I'm finished.

I will go to bed soon, expecting to be woken up again. I'm actually looking forward to it...

Confident again

I was allowed to stroke before I got up and to edge in the shower. I'm still horny, but less frustrated now and I'm confident, that I'll make the 100 days. I have even thought about going even longer...
It's amazing how quickly my mind can change about that...

I listened to the two new sessions again and I can remember a little bit more now. Both are hot fantasies that fit together quite well. Being kidnapped and seduced by Princess such an arousing thought!

Start of the playground weeks

The two playground weeks have started and there were three occasions to stroke today. I enjoyed them a lot and my frustration got a bit less, at least until I listened to Princess Shelle's voice again.

The special deals of this week contained Mission Impossible and My Chosen Slave, both descriptions sound hot, so I bought them. Like so often, I can't remember much of the content, but I'm feeling a burning arousal after listening and I'm even more desperate to stroke than I was this morning.

Almost a wet dream

I woke up last night being incredibly aroused and on the very edge of orgasm. I couldn't do anything to lessen the arousal and I was concerned that I might cum without permission by only thinking about it. I just lay there without moving and tried to distract my mind without much success. It took a while until I drifted back into sleep. I realized later today, that this exactly what the Wet Dreams recording is about...

I took a little break from listening today and will only listen to one session in bed. The two week of playground triggers starts soon, I'm curios, what the new trigger are...

I need guidance

I finished my assignment with listening to Lesson in Disobedience and Hypnotic Prison. If I hadn't already been addicted to Princess Shelle, I would definitely be now... It's been over half an hour now since I woke up from Hypnotic Prison and I'm still in a wonderful state between trance and being fully awake. This doesn't make it easier to write down my thoughts, so this will be a rather short entry today...

I still want to reach 100 days of chastity, but I have been so horny the last couple of days, that I'm not sure if I will change my mind before. I told Princess about my goal and asked for her guidance, so I guess, there's no turning back now...

Still no stroking

I started the evening with the 5th listening to Sensory Overload. This session always makes me so horny, that I can hardly sit still. I want to stroke so badly, but there were no stroking instructions today. The no-touching periods make it so hard to stay chaste...
I listened to I Am Your Mind for my assignment and will listen to Brainwashed 5 in bed. I need to listen to two more sessions tomorrow. There are still so many great sessions I can choose from, it's hard to decide...

Interesting outlooks

Princess Shelle announced new Playground sessions and two weeks full of commands yesterday. I'm so exited to find out, what the new commands are about and I'm looking forward to two interesting weeks.

Before I continued with my assignment, I listened to Sensory Overload and Voice of Control again. I didn't take long after awakening until I felt somehow lost and needed to go into trance again. I chose Hand Maiden this time, it's such an erotic fantasy!

Princess liked the feedback and ideas I had sent and said that there's a lot of training coming my way. Whatever it will be, I'm looking forward to it!

I have already listened to all sessions that let me drift into sleep, but I have gotten so used to that, that I don't want to fall asleep without listening. I'm going to listen to Mind Numbing Sleep, but it doesn't count for the assignment. I have four sessions left to listen to and once to Sensory Overload now...

Conflicting thoughts

I was craving to hear Princess Shelle's voice so much when I returned from work, but I had to wait for a delivery guy until I could start listening. I felt like a little puppy waiting for its owner...
After the delivery guy had showed up, I started with Sensory Overload and Voice of Control, which don't count for the lucky number assignment.
I had quite a conflict in my mind. I'm not allowed to touch for two days, but Voice of Control contains stroking instructions. I had to think for a while what to do, but since I wanted to stroke so badly, I decided not to do so. It's good to give up my desires for Princess...

I listened to Automatic Obedience later and I've planned Surrender to Sleep for bedtimes. That's 8 sessions left for the next three days if I don't run into one that requires repeated listening again...

Busy Schedule

I woke up very early... and very aroused. I couldn't fall asleep again, so I listened to Sensory Overload a second time. I still can't remember the content... There is no awakening at the end of the session and I drifted of to sleep again at some point.

I listened to as much sessions as possible today to get a bit ahead of my schedule. I won't have that much time during the week...
I started with Behavior Modification and Behavior Modification - Appreciation for Me in a row in the afternoon. I took really long until I was awake completely again and I felt so wonderfully owned by Princess. I had a deep need to please her, so I bought a little gift from her wishlist.

I continued with Voice of Control in the evening. I didn't remember how powerful this session is. I couldn't stop stroking for several minutes after listening and I'm still feeling horny. There's also the instruction to listen three times, so I'll have to listen to two sessions besides those for the lucky number assignment in the next two days.

I'm going to listen to Wet Dreams in bed. I hope to have a nice dream of Princess...

Sensory Overload

The new file 'Sensory Overload' was published today. The title says it all, I have no clue, what happened while I was in trance, but I felt great when I woke up. Well, maybe waking up isn't the correct term. I stayed in a state between trance and being awake for quite some time afterwards...
I have to listen to it at least 5 times, this will make it even more difficult to keep up with the lucky number assignment.

Speaking of that assignment... I can't recall what a couple of files are about and this is the perfect opportunity to listen to them again, although I'm not sure if this will help my memory...
Besides Sensory Overload, I have listened to Thought Control and Edge of Control and I will listen to Sleep Manipulation in bed.
I had planned to listen to the Forced Femme series tomorrow and spend my day in my maids uniform, but I'm not allowed to dress up for 3 days, so I'll have to choose something else.

Princess Shelle asked for feedback about the past weeks training, so I wrote down some ideas for assignments and files that I had in mind. I also wrote about the things that I liked less, like the rubber bands, but told her that those are always a good test of obedience.
I always want to obey and please Princess, even if that means that I'll have to to things that I don't really like, so I offered to be her guinea pig if she wants to try out new ideas...

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The lucky number

I was woken by my email alert once again this night. Princess Shelle had answered to my lucky number... I had expected that it had to do with chastity, but I was wrong. I chose 18, so that will be the number of different files I have to listen to during the next 7 days. Looks like I'll spend a lot of time in trance in the next days...
In her email, Princess made a bit fun of me being in this predicament. This turned me on so much! I have read it a couple of times today and each time my cock got rock hard.

One of todays assignments was to listen to my favorite file from the farm assignment again. I can't say which one I like more, Obedience Training or Domina 24 Hours, so I decided to listen to both as the first two files. I started with Domina 24 Hours in the evening. It took me deeper than ever before and I felt so submissive and horny afterwards.
I had the permission to edge for paying my monthly obligation and after the session was the perfect time to do so. I took my time and enjoyed it a lot.

I will listen to Obedience Training in bed and fall asleep with Mind Numbing Sleep. I'm going to listen as much as possible this weekend to get a bit ahead of my schedule...